Who said only girls are good money-spenders?

Warning: Sexist entry..eeks..

My brother took up a new hobby not too long ago.

He got into a design course in Poly, and ever since then, he started having seeing things differently from others. The designer eye, I call it. And it's since then, he started getting obsessed with toys...not for playing, but because of it's design and some other factors. And mind you, they are NOT cheap..you'll see why soon..

Gundam Seed is his new obsession. It looks no different from Transformers to me, but to him, they are a beauty. And I can't understand why...the designer eye perhaps.. *shrugs*

It's not just about fixing which gives him the kick, but the final outcome which most importantly includes the skill of painting it. This guy's been thinking day and night about how to turn his toys into the standard of those being displayed, and sold at a a high price.

I witnessed a few very lovely Gundam Models while my brother was enquiring about the compressor and air brush yesterday. Oh boy is it costly to own a good set! I was shocked to hear that an airbrush itself can cost up to $600 (wonder how much truth there is though..but I won't be surprised)!!! And a really good compressor, with water traps, can cost up to $800 or more!!!! Alright, even if we don't talk about the tools, just the Gundam model itself (a reasonable size) can cost around $80 or even more. Plus, not forgetting that we have to get bottles of paint, different types of brushes, sprays and all the other necessary tools to complete a nicely finished model, good enough to be displayed at home (not having to reach the professional standards yet though).

My brother spent $218 just to buy a compressor on sale (which so nicely came with an airbrush..not a good set, but good enough for beginners), a few bottles of paint, and droppers. And that's just the beginning cos he still needs some other stuffs..some of which were out-of-stock...and some which will be required for the finishing touch.

Upon seeing this, I was thinking..hmm..it's not just the girls who can spend money. Girls and guys just spend them in a different way. Girls, on things that enhances their appearance and image. Guys, on things that they love..like cars, booze, electronic gadgets or even models. And the things that GUYS spend on are usually costly and expensive to maintain (of course I reckon the males might go arguing about us females spending on facials, manicures and pedicures..which is kinda like a monthly thing?)

Agree folks? Please shoot in the tagboard if u have any comments...I'd love to hear what people think about this...

I'm being silly...yes...silly...

If it weren't for Takuya, I would have stopped watching the DVD I bought. It's got nothing to do with the plot (the story is very nice), just that.......for some reason I'm aware of, it hurts...hurts really very badly.

I'm being terribly silly tonight. I can't help it. I'm sorry...

If only I had a shoulder next to me now...

Hope I will feel better after my sleep....

Nice company, nice music, nice food

Not bad an evening for me, apart from having to sorta doll up before I left. Darn, I was so slow in doing so, that I was running late, and it did not help when Mum called to tell me not to wear my ONLY pair of black heels cos the strap might snap anytime. I wanted to wear a brown velvet dress, but because I had to end up wearing a pair of silver slippers (since it was the best pair in the cupboard), I did not have a choice but to wear something black.

Phew..I wasn't late despite the jam on the way. It would have been terrible if I were late, cos I would have missed Josh's 'masterpiece'.

Yup, it was the concert not to be missed as Mr. Jukebox was gonna play the piano piece I love very much.

Could sense that he was very nervous from his playing, but nevertheless, I enjoyed it and really appreciated his effort in trying to master that piece. Somehow, I have got a feeling that he's having phobia of that song, and might not ever want to play it again...lol...

I enjoyed the concert on the whole, even though some weren't that good (yikes..who am I to comment..). One of the girls played 'Minami'..the piece which Takuya played (ok, he's not the one playing actually) for the competition in the drama, Long Vacation. It was great! I really loved the way the Korean pianist and the German violinist play too. The Korean pianist's fingers were so light on the piano, yet the sound produced was crystal clear. Fantastic pianist..Oh yes, and the 2 finale pieces were very well arranged too.

For the first time, I saw a toy piano (not those in department stores..I mean a REAL piano..but a tiny one...for the very young), and a minature violin (real one too). The piano's baby pink in colour...darn cute!!!!!! Unfortunately, it's not for sale.

It was dinner cum mini celebration with Josh, Jon and Diana. First time seeing Diana today, so didn't really get to talk very much to her. But she's quite a nice person..gentle and pretty quiet too...very unlike me...*blush* I'm like some market auntie compared to her...yikes....

I had my usual Salmon & Mushroom baked rice, and Chocolate Crunch at Swenson's. Yummy! Just when I thought I might just go broke after tonight's dinner, Josh was so kind to give us all a treat. I felt quite pai seh letting him pay, so his bday cake shall be on me when his bday comes...durian cake I reckon since he and Jon were both going gaga over the topic on durians when we were dining.

By the way, I'm wondering if anyone else, apart from me and Jon, loves creamy cakes. I just found someone who loves very creamy cakes tonight, and I was feeling extremely excited about it for a while. :) sllllllllluuuuuuuurrrrrrrrpppppppppppppppppp~~~~~~

Muahahahahahahaha...

Darn! I can't get enough of Takuya manz...so much so that I've just got to let everyone know I bought a new drama (Pride) starring you know who.

I was beaming non stop when I spotted it in Marina Square, and bought it at a cheap price of $15...DVD somemore..

Just watched 2 episodes of it. I wonder how many episodes are there in one DVD. How come it never seem to end?

As usual, I went gaga in front of the TV when Takuya appeared. Yup, you probably guessed it. He looks...haha...fabulous in the ice hockey jersey (is that what you call it?). 'Nuff said.

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Went to SITEX this evening. Cool manz. I just love those gadgets I saw. I didn't really spend many hours there, but I got pretty excited about the mp3 players and all the other attractive gadgets. I'm an idiot when it comes to functions, so most of the time, I was paying more attention to the design instead. Gosh, I wish I can just buy anything without thinking too much manz. Sometimes, it's such a headache to think so hard about which product is the better buy. Probably some people like thinking about it, but I don't. I dislike having tooooooooo many choices cos I dread cracking my head non stop just to come up with a decision.

"Why can't we just have one of each kind and then just happily purchase it, without going through the hassle and frustration of thinking?"

That was my silly childish blabbering. Please pardon me.

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You know what?! I'm quite excited about later, cos someone's gonna be performing the opening piece of the Korean drama, Stairway to Heaven. It's the piano piece which Che Cheng Jun played by the beach. This person borrowed my VCD and I'm wondering if he did so cos he wanted to grasp the feeling of that song. Anyway, I'll be looking forward to hearing it later.

To Mr. Jukebox, I'm waiting to be impressed. *winks*

For Charity or Money?

I wonder how many have looked into Classified to source for part-time jobs since it's the holidays now.

If you did, probably you might have noticed tons of adverts in the papers about earning $30-$50 daily. It's not those posted up by some tuition centre asking you to do matching for them, but some dunno-what-kind-of company asking you to sell charity tickets. Note that it's CHARITY tickets.

Not knowing exactly what kind of advert that is, and in hope of earning some fast bucks, I called these companies up last week and you know what they told me?! From the tickets I sell, 20% of it will be my pay!

I got quite angered by it, and did not want to take up the job. I think it's pathetic that organisations have to go to such extent of letting people earn commission just to do their bit for charity. It's WRONG and I think it's something which should not be tolerated. Am so tempted to make a big complain and go write an article in the forum manz.

I got approached by this teen at the supermarket this afternoon, who's trying to sell me one of those charity tickets. I did not want to buy any because I'm not pleased to know that $1 out of that $5 ticket will be put into his pocket, and I got quite mad when I found out that Mum bought a ticket. If it's solely for charity, I will donate willingly, but I will not tolerate such behaviour of people doing it for the extra cash. Alright, maybe he's not one of those, but then again, how many will actually give up the commission they earn from this?

I wonder if these people feel guilty about earning commission from the unfortunate...*shakes head* I'm so ashamed to be living in such a society...

Beauty of Medicine

I was moved to tears when I was watching 'Te Xie' on Channel 8 this evening.

I watched from the news some time back about the little girl from Indonesia (I think), being given surgical treatment for her malformed face, but did not pay too much attention to it.

However, this evening's programme was about her and another boy, both being recipients of this treatment given by our local surgeons and medical experts.

I felt their pain when I saw the 2 innocent ones on TV. One had a massive tongue, which causes many problems like speech, eating and breathing. He had to face weird looks from the public as well. The other had very malformed facial features, no left fingers and missing left toes.

I missed the first bit of it, so I didn't feel too much for the boy with the massive tongue, but more for the girl, Jacqueline.

I felt helpless sitting there watching them on TV, watching how the surgeons did their part to help them attain looks more of a normal human being, and watching the end result of it. I wish....I wish I was part of it all. But hey, if I ever want a part in helping others, I still have quite a long way to go......the disadvantage of being JUST a student...probably end up bringing more trouble to patients and healthcare workers instead of help...

My tears actually rolled when I heard Jacqueline said she wants to be as pretty as Barbie, and wasn't the least afraid of going through the surgical procedures, all because of the ray of hope she holds dearly. You can feel her innocence as a child, her desire to fulfill her little wish. If you were the doctor, would you not want to make her wish come true? And indeed, her wish was granted. With the expertise of our kind local healthcare professionals, her looks improved tremendously, making her really happy.

I was smiling throughout when I saw her combing her hair and feeling so happy with her new look. Although she isn't looking as normal as any other little girl, but at least she's contented with what she now has, and feels that she is as pretty as Barbie. I was then wondering to myself...if I can make my patients this happy one day, all my efforts will be worthwhile. The beauty of medicine, and one of the reasons why I chose to take this path (but this path is damn tough manz....this I won't deny....goodness..).

When will I be able to do something so meaningful, and fulfilling? Should I ever be able to do something this wonderful, how will it feel like?

Oh ya, I'll be doing charity work soon. Kinda excited about it. Hopefully, I'll be able to do my bit, and not be of any trouble to others. Yupz, it's the present-wrapping work. I wonder how the response will be like. Honestly speaking, I wish I'll be kept very busy on the days when I'm on duty, meaning more presents to wrap, more money contributed to charity! Hope I'll do a good job and make myself happy by knowing I did a part for the unfortunate kids during those days. *smilez*

Honestly, I am not so much into the mood of blogging tonight, but I'm still here with an entry cos I can't get to sleep.

I'm very exhausted and I was almost dozing off while watching VCD on my bed earlier on. Even when Mum came to ask me what I think of bfast with Dad and her later in the day (Dad's not going to work), I was looking like a zombie and answered monotonously.

But the moment the lights were out, I couldn't get to sleep. I still feel very disturbed, and there are just so many things going through my mind. I shall blog abt it privately later...if I still have the energy..

Anyway, I met up with Leona this afternoon. She's really small and cute. Very sweet looking as well.

I am glad we didn't feel odd being out together. It was shopping for us at Bugis. I think we got excited over many things, at least I did. Saw so many things which I wish I could buy, but $$$ was the problem. However, I still didn't get to overcome the temptation, and ended up buying this very pretty lilac crystal handphone chain. It's hanging on my hp now, and I love it so much.

We went to Bugis Village (is that wat it's called?) soon after. It's my first time really walking in there, and I'm so amazed by the amount of things they sell there. Lots of bags. Imitations of course, but still, they are nice..and cheap! And the bonus is, you can bargain with the seller too. I'm sure many around me know about it, so I'm kinda suaku for only knowing it after Leona told me so today.

I bought a bag from there. Only $21. And it's big. Reckon I can put books in there. Unfortunately it's not waterproof (UK rains a lot), but I think I'll still bring it to UK.

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It's almost the end of November. Half of my leave from school is over.

Honestly speaking, I still have no idea what I have done so far. Apart from learning languages, I haven't really done anything which I have originally planned, which makes me feel disappointed about.

I wonder when my Uni will let me know my expected date of return. Surprisingly, I seem to be looking forward to returning, but I am wondering if it'll be so when the time comes.

Whenever I look through the glass to take a last look at those who see me off, whenever I am walking to the boarding gate, whenever I'm waiting to board the plane, and whenever I'm looking out of the window before the plane takes off, I'm always thinking of numerous things. I always have tons of things I want to say, but never was there once I said them out. I don't actually think anyone knew either because they're too far away to see it, too far to feel it.

Perhaps it's still a little far to wonder or perhaps it isn't since time passes really quickly, but...what will I be thinking and what will I be saying silently this time round...? Is there any possibility that maybe...just maybe...I won't be wanting to come home for good anymore?

Just my luck!

It's not even half the day gone, and I'm already in a foul mood. But I know it's not gonna last very long. I'll be ok in no time.

So what got me into such a pissed off mood this morning.

Early time to blog, you might say. Definitely and you probably guessed that I skipped class. Ha! But WRONG! I did NOT skip class. I forced myself to get up despite my tummy cramps, went to class, and then I was stopped by the Principal.

It was regarding my classes. My 3 months class validity is over, and I'm not supposed to be in class since about 2 weeks ago. How weird that he only tells me now (ok lah, not his fault..I overlooked it...no..I did it on purpose.. :X). I roughly know that my classes end in the beginning of Nov, but I dragged on cos I missed so many during the 3 months, and BY RIGHT, they should be replaced!

BUT Mr. Principal said the validity is not to be extended, unless official letters are given. This was not told when I signed up. And he said if I want to continue my lessons till my JLPT exams (which is 2 weeks away), I can pay $160 to come in once a week for one mth. However, he will give me a discount by allowing me to go for classes everyday for the whole month. If I don't wish to do so, he will not pursue into the matter of the extra 2 weeks, and end my classes with effect from today.

We had some discussion about the contract, and cos my tummy was feeling so uncomfy, and I see no point in carrying the discussion further (even though I still think I am not wrong), I decided to go back. I'm not gonna pay the extra sum for 'tuition', when I can revise in the comforts of my own home. Anyway, from the first lesson till now, I'm left to study on my own most of the time when I'm in class. It wasn't like how the school described to me about the teaching methods. Absolutely crap, and no one in class disagrees with me cos everyone's complaining about it, and we all felt darn cheated.

I shall never go back to this school again. If I ever intend to continue learning Jap, I'll go somewhere that teaches me properly, and not throw me into the ocean to swim alone. I realise that in this school, the only time I learn is when I bombard my teacher with all kinds of questions. The rest, it's all my own studying. 'Nuff said..^&$%

I was feeling so fed up on my way home (I am still slightly so now), and when I got home, Mum wasn't too pleased about the issue as well. I think I'll appreciate it if she doesn't probe further into it cos it'll definitely make me boil again. Wouldn't be that bad if she blames my unreasonable school for it..but I'm sure she'll blame me for it and continue nagging for god knows how long. Mothers are like that lah, hor? Hmm..

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Decided to cool myself down by looking around in the bus, so that I will stop thinking too much about the earlier incident, and oh my, did I notice some weirdos ard..

First, it was 2 RGS girls.

I don't often see very nerdy girls around (guys, yes, but not much of girls), but these 2 are really nerdy. I don't think they're nerd in the head, but they do appear like nerds. Mushroom hairstyle, big specs, reed thin, tall, extremely loose and long pinafore, bags so filled like they're on their first day in Primary school. Can you imagine how it looked? I was so shocked. I thought only I looked like that in Primary and Secondary school. They're not young. Reckon 15 or 16 already.

They sat 2 rows behind me. I was expecting them to be quiet (nerds mahz), but when they started talking...all the singlish (who said RGS can't speak singlish..) and check out their speed of spoken english. I wouldn't expect them to look like how they spoke.

Then there was this old uncle who can't speak english. He isn't quite sane I suppose. And he tried asking them to solve one of his dunno wat problem, and they couldn't understand him. Me too. And throughout the journey, he was changing seats time and time again. What's wrong with his butt?

Lastly was this 2 students. Eeks. I'm still wondering if they're gay. They're not locals..look like Indonesians, Thai or Filipinos. Initially I thought they're good friends, until the smaller-built guy laid on the other's shoulder! And he seem to be feeling comfortable about it. Yucks. I have never seen this happening for guys..and I think it's gross...

Hahaaha..just when I thought weirdos appear only in the MRT (Josh noes about this..hahaha...he saw me running for my life once when this mad man came chasing after me) at around 9-11pm, I met 3 early in the morning.

Cheap cheap stuffs...

As promised, gonna blog abt yesterday.

I did a mock paper for JLPT in class yesterday, and I did well!!! Pleased with myself :) It was a day with an aim yesterday..muahaha..and I had it ALL planned, so I was kinda excited about class being over.

BUT I was held back when my classmate asked if I wanted to have lunch with him. I was thinking of bread for lunch since I know I'm gonna be broke if my plan's gonna work out. However, I thought of rewarding myself for a better-than-bread lunch since I did a great job, and so I accepted my classmate's request.

Didn't know where to eat, and finally he suggested Nooch. Off to Nooch Paragon we went, and oh my, got set lunch for $10! Cheap, cos it's 3 course - tom yam soup, main course (thai food), red ruby dessert. But the food....hmm...the soup and main course are a little too sweet. The tom yam soup wasn't spicy too (I was hoping it'll be a little spicy), and then the dessert was not sweet -.- DESSERT LEH!!!!!! NOT SWEET?!?!?!??!?! Those who are not fussy and want a cheap deal, you may try Nooch's set lunch.

Saw from the menu that Jack's Place student deals are only $6+. Set lunch. Another cheap suggestion for STUDENTS..haha..poor Huishan... *zips mouth*

It was cosmetics shopping after lunch. I had 2 places to go - Heeren and Bugis.

Checked out the small shop selling Korean cosmetics, and I would say..the price isn't very cheap, but of course, it's still cheaper than the branded ones. The salesgirl was so-so, and I felt very left on my own most of the time, so decided to check out The Face Shop at Bugis instead.

NO REGRETS going there manz! My goodness, The Face Shop's service is fabulous! I'll give them all my thumbs and toes up for it. I went in, lost and approached the SA for help. She assisted me warmly and even asked if I'm rushing for time, cos if I'm not, her colleague can do a makeover for me FOR FREE and even teach me how to put make up. What an offer right?! Being suaku me, of course I accepted it..heez. And her colleague really did it for me!

I don't have a pretty face to begin with, so I can't possibly turn into some Miss Universe. But at least I think I look nice after she did it for me. She gave me a lot of pointers about make up, and I was really very excited in the shop. If I had money, I would buy EVERYTHING...kidding lah..I would buy more.

The SA spent about 2 hrs+ with me manz, doing my makeover, giving me tips and introducing plus letting me try the products one after another. And she wasn't even having the "Dun waste my time" look.

And the bonus is, the prices of the products are sooooooooo cheeeaaaaappppppp!!!!!

Here's what I bought (prices are based on memory):
1. Rice Peeling Mask ($9.90)..it's quite a big bottle
2. Nail Polish for my mum ($2.90)...unbelievable..
3. 33/35ml Liquid Foundation ($18.90)
4. Copper Beige Lipstick ($14.90)
5. Collagen Rose Mask, Ceramide Lemon Mask, Caviar Lemon Mask (3 for $10)

How's that for the price? Cheap?! I even got 2 tiny bottles of samples... Dewy Flower toner and mosturiser.

They sell hair care products too and I'm wondering if it's good. Shall wait till I finish using my Silkpro.

The Strawberry yogurt packs look yummy. I might buy it to feed my face when I'm not so financially tight. If it's good, then maybe Mum can change her Laneige one to that.

And if their mosturiser is good, I can change my Laneige one too. That very pretty bottle of mosturiser of mine costs $50 bucks! But it's not considered expensive cos it's really not bad, and can be used for a long time, but I mean..who minds something cheaper if it's gonna work well isn't it?

I still have blusher and eye shadows to look out for. Wedding's a long time away, so I'll take my time. I'm aiming for the gold one in The Face Shop (only $7.90) and their new blusher which is coming in at the end of the month. I haven't tried that blusher on but I do love its colour. Reckon it's not gonna be very ex too.

Another product which got me excited was the Luminating Purple powder. I didn't know purple powders are for such a purpose, and I was always wondering who will wanna make her face purple with it. But now I know..hehe. Don't know how much it is. Then again, will I really be needing this?! Hmm..

To the final bargain. It was the Sorella sale for 1 hour at Seiyu. Shall not elaborate much cos there are guys reading this. But anyway, it was $9.90 for each bra...and it's not the ugly kind. I got so excited, I bought a few.

Sorry for the extremely long (my entries r always long anyway) entry. I'm just so excited to share my cheap deals with u..heez. Wondering if Priscilla will get excited upon seeing the prices....

Stay tuned!

Exhausted after a great day! I'm so happy looking at myself in the mirror..though it's all gone now, but no worries...I have the ability to make it happen again! Muahahahaha..

Can't wait to snooze already. Eyes are hot (thanks to the night before...%&$^).

Stay tuned. Shall blog abt the happenings later in the day/night provided I'm in the mood to :)

Cheers to my wanna-become-mei-nu obsession!!!!!

Sunday, but no family day. My parents will be attending a wedding dinner again. And there's gonna be another one coming up soon for them. What's with holding dinners in November manz? And why am I not invited huh?

While having my lonely lunch in the dim dining room ( 3 out of 5 bulbs of the chandelier are blown), I decided to just flip through the newspapers.

What got my eyes wide open is this advertisement by Vertu. They showed the photo of their gold handphone, which I'm not interested in. I'm more interested in their signature product:

I am not gonna shrink this pic cos it's not gonna be nice. CNetAsia calls it the handphone for the rich and famous. The front of the phone is covered in sapphire crystal...hur hur..it's no wonder why it's so pricey.

I remember the time when I first saw this phone on display at the Vertu outlets. I got so excited because it's the first phone which I found really classy, and from the design, I knew it's not gonna be a cheap piece. And oh boy, was I right. Can't remember the price of the handset though, but it's 5-digit if I'm not wrong. Even my brother finds it classy.

Geez, I wish I can play around with it...hahaha...or even better, own it! *dreamz*

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Read about the author of "The Rape of Nanking", Iris Chang. Mentioning about WWII, I used to be very curious about it when I was younger. I will always ask Granny to tell me stories and her experiences during those days. But she was still young then, so wasn't able to tell me a great deal. I thought Grandpa or my grandaunts would be able to tell me more, but till today, each time I bring this topic up, they will change the topic. Dad said they have never suffered one bit during the war, but I'm sure they can tell me stories about it. I wonder why they tend to avoid the subject.

I love following Dad to the bookstore when I was little. And I'll always be looking for books about the Japanese Occupation. Would read a bit here and there, and spent most of the time looking through at the old photos. I even had a stupid wish once whereby I wish I could go into a time machine, which can bring me to the 1940s to see for myself how it was like (but of course, no one can see me or touch me..haha..I wouldn't wanna be beheaded).

We all know how famous the atrocities in Nanking were during the Japanese Occupation. My uncle bought a vcd on it, and I stopped watching it halfway cos I could not take it anymore. It's darn gross. I'm sure it was worse in reality.

Anyway, back to the author. Irish Chang committed suicide. She finally did so after being clinically depressed for 5-6 months. The book she wrote about Nanking shot her to fame. This book is one which I have been thinking of buying, but I've got so many books which I haven't read, so decided to leave it aside first. But just by reading the 2 sentences from the book, which was published in the papers, I think I have changed my mind. Not sure if this article's published online in the Straits Times webby, but you might wanna check it out if you're curious about the 2 sentences. I think if I were to buy the book, I'll probably turn depressed like her too.

Now for something silly, you guys know who Qiong Yao is? Dad used to say that she's a mad woman cos she loves writing stories that make you weep from the first episode to the last. And he was even wondering if she's got any tears left after writing so many depressing stories..haha. Hmm...now I'm wondering if Qiong Yao has depression like Iris Chang, just to a milder extent.

Maybe the Korean scriptwriters might all get depression too from their "Qiu Tian de Tong Hua", "Winter Sonata" etc. too.

By the way, the number of people who are suffering from depression is increasing manz. Blame it on our society, but then again, do you think things like soap dramas and depressing books contribute to it? I believe they do, and probably you might have realised, I think music can get one depressed as well...agree?

This is so fascinating!

I didn't even realise I have spent more than 2 hours reading forums on beauty.

I'm just so fascinated at how pro these girls are. I feel like I know nuts..from masks, to creams, to surgery, to make up to anything else to do with image.

And would you believe it?! I only realise that foundations can oxidise today, and it took me some time to only find out what that means. -.-

Hey Kor, my pimples are subsiding already, but the marks are still there.. :( Give me a short while more, then can we go see your friend at Browhaus? I'm so excited about it. You gotto help me become a mei nu yah? LOL...

Goodness, suddenly I have an urge to splurge on make up (what the hell is going on with me...). I shall try to save up for it..heez. But I'm really crap at it manz...cos I feel so pai seh going to make up counters and ask for help, and I always feel obliged to buy even if I don't really like it or have no idea whether it is good.

Any tips anyone?
Any good products to recommend?

Priscilla, how do u go abt doing ur shopping for make up? (ok, this sounds like a really stupid question *rolls eyes*)

I heard so much about the korean cosmetic products at Heeren's Level 5. Thought of checking it out one day..heez...

Mood swings

It's such a bad day to talk to me, especially tonight.

My mind's very disturbed and hence, I am currently very temperamental. You got it right, I'm just gonna vent my frustration here and then shoo off to slp...best remedy.

I have no idea what's going on with me today. Must be PMS (I think). I lost my temper quite a few times today for no reason.

I was fine during lunch with Mum, then started getting irritated easily after that. Started grumbling when she made me walk around Taka looking for Larry Jewelry without knowing where it is. She got so pissed that she actually scolded me. I deserve it don't I? Sigh.

Then throughout the day, there were issues which made me totally lose my mood, shan't talk about it though.

I did feel better after getting a pedicure done and a bit of shopping with Mum. I got to save money cos she paid for it..but hey, don't get me wrong. That's NOT the reason why I felt better. I just felt pleased having a new colour on my ugly toes.

2nd round in the evening when I got frustrated cos I was asked to wait. I don't even know why I got frustrated...sheesh. Ok, the wait was VERY long, but it's not my friend's fault, and there isn't even a reason to be pissed.. *rolls eyes*

3rd round. Checked Friendster cos there are msges for me. One of which is from a guy I have known before I entered Uni. I'm SO AMAZED that he's still reminding me about the zoo trip, which was like bloody 3 yrs ago. Why does this person always wanna go to the zoo??!?!?! Besides, it's like 3 years ago, why can't he just forget about it?! Every time he gets in touch with me, it'll be about the ZOO!!!!! Argh.

I got so pissed that I told him that I'm NOT going to the zoo, and I don't want to go anywhere either (just in case he suggests Jurong Bird Park or the Reptile Park -.-). Basically, I'm NOT interested in going out with him cos he pisses me most of the time. I'm sounding damn evil today, but it's a fact. I just can't stand it when people pester me non-stop (and I really mean NON-STOP..like everyday..or even a few times a day) about this outing and that outing. I just can't understand why some people can't understand the meaning of "NO" if I have stated it so clearly in every conversation.

So this person knows I'm back in sg now (oh manz..pls save me). I hope he doesn't come calling me again and again like before...it gets on my nerves.

And what's more pissing is that he had to say, "I think you broke up (again) right?". What's the "again" supposed to mean? I think being reminded of my break up is fine, but I don't think I need the "again". I gladly admit that my rships are short-lived, but is it of any concern of his? I would appreciate it if he would just keep his sarcastic comments to himself, and leave me alone. I don't need this type of concern.

I shouldn't be talking bad about others about my blog. Reason why I'm doing this now is because I'm PISSED, and I don't think I have to be so nice to assholes. But I won't go blogging mean things about people I regard as friends. This, I promise...

Consequences of slping late

1. Pimples
2. Eye bags
3. Dark eye rings
4. Tiredness the next day if u gotto get ur ass off the bed early



5. MAKES YOU THINK TOOOOO MUCH..SCREWING UR HEAD! %#$^


I'm just gonna do my rantle for the night, turn off my computer straight after, and shoo off to sleep.

I've been coping well for the past 2 weeks haven't I??!?!? What the hell is happening tonight..at this bloody hour?!

Feeling so frustrated now cos I don't understand why I'm looking back. I shouldn't since I have given my word. I must keep to it. Yes, Michelle..KEEP TO IT!!!! *bangs fist on table*

All self-inflicted cos IF I had slept earlier instead of rotting in front of my comp, my mind would not have wandered off in the VERY WRONG direction.

I should not think. I should not query further. I should not do anything about it. That's my plan, and I'm still trying to keep to it.

I came up with a plan. I know what I'm going to focus on from now on. I know what my goals are, so I shall work towards it.

I must remind myself tonight again that even if I have to do it alone, I have to and I will.

I must be fine by the time I wake up later. *determined*

My bladder is exploding!!!!!!!

I could have just let it explode at the entrance of KBox and wet my jeans completely. I never had such a terrible experience before in my entire life.

Of course, I had episodes whereby I really NEED to go pee, but today's was ultimate.

I'm beginning to feel like some silly sec sch kid who loiters after school, refusing to go home to revise or do something productive. I didn't want to go home straight after school...for no reason. And the only thing I can think of (apart from shopping...I'm quite cash tight) was to sing to my heart's content.

I've got this bad habit. I don't drink much fluids, but if I have a bottle in my hand or drinks placed in front of me, I tend to drink and drink non stop. That happened today.

It was a solo session of KTV at KBox. Darn, I should have known that it's the eve of a public holiday, and the charge will be that of Friday's. But being a typical capricorn, I HATE changes in plans, so I still went ahead. But my heart ached like mad paying more than usual...*oooouuuccccchhhh~~*

I drank and drank in there till my bladder was gonna explode. But since I'm the only one around, and I don't think it's safe to leave my belongings and shoo off to the loo, plus..I don't want them to think I am trying to sneak off without paying, I forced myself to stay put.

Told myself that I must finish singing the remaining 30 songs, and my bladder got so uncomfortable that it actually hurt..oh my. I didn't even dare to move around too much, in fear that I might just explode.

It was finally the last song..and I could NO LONGER TOLERATE. Decided to just forget about the last song, pay up and leave. I was hopping out of the room like a rabbit and was hurrying the cashier cos she's taking too long, and I can't wait anymore. I didn't even bother waiting for my change, just grabbed the receipt and went to collect my card.

THEN...the girls were taking their own sweet time to find my card, but I think they must have knew that I need the loo urgently cos I was continuously hopping and holding my lower abdomen like as if I'm going into labour soon. Yah yah..go on..imagine how I looked.

Just when I thought I can gladly rush off, the staff actually thought I didn't pay up!

Staff: Miss, you haven't paid?
Me: Huh?! I paid already..*my expression was like the pic below*

(I gave that look..but I know I'm not as cute as the cat lah..so stop boo-ing me, u mean ass!!!)

Had to go with her to the cashier, and then back to the front again to get my card. The funny thing was the staff must have got influenced by my actions that she started talking faster, moving faster and in fact, started hopping ard too. Geez..why is she hopping? So it was like 2...no..in fact 3 rabbits hopping around since her colleague got influenced a short while later.

Goodness, I shall never try to tolerate that long again..sheer torture manz..

Check this out..!!!!! *suaku*

Guess what I found in my letterbox this evening?!?!?!?!

Alex Kor's wedding card...hehehe......

FOR ME!!!!!

You must be thinking..."So suaku..". I agree. I'm being very suaku today cos I'm sounding as if I've never attended a wedding before. I'm being this way cos it's an invitation FOR ME..and ONLY ME! Not for my parents :P

I heard the "Gotto give angpow leh girl...you're excited when u're gonna be broke?!?!" If it's from those that I'm not close to, hmm..I don't think I'll be so excited, but hey, it's Kor's!!! How can I not be excited?

This is my favourite part of the card:

Awwwwww......Cute huh?! Kor, did you draw that?

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Got permission from Prisc to put up the photo of the bear I was mentioning yesterday..so here it is...

Nice? :D

Day of fun

Met up with Priscilla today. Yay~! Finally...

I was so worried before seeing her that we'll feel strange and be quiet during our meet-up, but I'm pleased that this did not happen. In fact, I had a wonderful time talking to her.

Bought her a prezzie for her bday. It wasn't some special gift, but I liked the prezzie I got for her. Hope she likes it too. I found the colour of the bear's sweater really sweet (it's pink!), and took a picture of it before meeting her :X I'm dying to put it up on my blog actually, but I'm too tired to load the photo from my camera tonight. I think I should ask her permission to do so too...since it's her prezzie..

Lunch at NYDC before KTV @ Orchard. She's got cool vouchers from AIA..and that's why our lunch were so cheeeeep. KTV session was not expensive too, but the ultimate thing is to have fun isn't it? I certainly did have my share of fun. I really hope she enjoyed today's meet up.

By the way, Prisc has got a sweet and nice voice. Her voice's quite high and I think S.H.E's songs will suit her perfectly.

"Hey Prisc, the next time we go for KTV session, we shall try out all the songs which we are not familiar with and "crazy" ones yah? Just like "Lu Guang" today..haha.."

I went to watch Princess Diaries 2 after KTV. I went alone cos Prisc had to leave for a family dinner.

The movie was....below my expectations. It's not that bad actually, just that I found the first one better. And I don't think it makes me wanna watch it a 2nd time. Shark Tale's better if you ask me. But nevertheless, I was admiring....



Anne Hathaway. Oh my, doesn't she just makes you go.. "Wow~!"

I was admiring the clothes and furniture in the Genovia Palace too. Gosh, if only I get to wear them. I love all her gowns and I think she looks absolutely gorgeous in every outfit.

I adore Julie Andrews too. She left a deep impression since I was a little girl, with her famous 'Sound of Music'. Love her singing till today...

Yes yes..I was supposed to go to Republic Poly for the workshop/lecture. Darn, the staff in charge really got me boiling. The workshop/lecture was cancelled due to insufficient number of participants, and they did not even update the info into their website. And ya know what?!?!??! The guy told me that none of the workshops/lectures will be held..and I should go to the website for latest updates (hello????? just a moment ago, you said that the latest info isn't even updated on the webby..and u are still telling me to rely on that unreliable source of yours??? how lame can that be..goodness gracious..) PLUS, when I called them to register for it, the guys were so rude. I was polite initially, but didn't bother too much abt being so after hearing the way they talked to me. Not that I turned rude, but I just sounded very irritated with their lousy work attitude. Hmm..seems like ALL admin staff in institutions are all having some major problem with their attitude:

1. Can't speak properly
2. Extremely unhelpful
3. Talks to you like as if you owe them a living
4. Pass calls from one person to other, and make you feel like an idiot
5. If they ever give you a sincere smile, or even the slightest smile, I think you stand a very high chance of winning the lottery.

Tsk tsk tsk...*shakes head*

*EXCITED*

In less than 12 hours, I'll be meeting my old buddy Priscilla!!!! *cheers*

Wanna wish her a very HAPPY 22nd Birthday!!!!

I am feeling so honoured that I'm gonna get to spend her bday afternoon with her. It'll be our first time going out together although we got to know each other at a tuition centre 10 years ago..oh my. We were too young to hang out then, and I'm sure our parents wouldn't allow it..at least I know mine won't.

Can't wait to see her later. Just found out that she puts make up when she goes out, so I shall put make up later too (provided I wake up in time to do so). Just a bit will do, or else people in my Jap class' gonna get a shock since I'm always going in without make up.

Thought of going to attend a 3 hour talk on 'Management of Obesity and Diabetes' at Republic Polytechnic tmr. But it's freaking ex...$27...*heart ache* I am curious about how the talk will be like, and how in depth it will be. 3 hour isn't very short for a talk. Besides, it's actually a learning unit for those aiming to get a Certificate for Biomedical Sciences...so shouldn't be too brief lah hor? Hmm.. Hope it will be detailed and not one for laymen..or else not worth paying this price for it manz..might as well go attend those held in hospitals..

I'm so excited about later and the rest of the week. I seem to have things to do now. HTML, Flash MX, Adobe Photoshop, medical talks, and of course, I have to start doing my last minute preparation for Jap, plus read through French so that I wont have much difficulty when I go for Intermediate.

The thought of learning new things everyday makes me so pleased and happy... *big smile*

Special Saturday

This week, I've got 2 family days. Saturday and Sunday. Family weekend I should call it.

Dad didn't go to work today, and the lovely day started off with yummy Prawn Noodles at Onan Road. Slllluuuurrrrrrppppp~~~~~!!!!!!!

Then it was off to see Grandpa at the hospital. He's getting better day by day. After a few physiotherapy sessions, he's now able to move his leg. But he's still not able to walk as his muscles are extremely weak. It'll take some time for him to be able to walk properly. However, it's good to know that his surgical wound isn't hurting anymore.

It was off to the nursery after that. It's been a long time since I stepped into one. There weren't much flowers around, and most of the time, it was just greens. I kinda got bored and started wasting time on the swing instead, while waiting for Dad to purchase some soil.

Had no idea why Dad suddenly came up with the idea of bringing little cousin Nigel out. So we went to look for him at his music school as he's having some piano rehearsal there (what a coincidence that it's the school where Josh teaches!).

I haven't seen him for 2 years I think. I was so excited when he saw me and went "Michelle Jiejie!!!!" Oh my, my heart melted on the spot. I missed him so much!! He wasn't shy at all, and was very polite.

Nigel has grown up so much since the last I saw him. He's just so cute, intelligent and well-behaved. Honestly speaking, I have never ever saw a kid as mature and polite as him. My uncle and aunt has brought him up very well.

Let me tell you something funny yet embarrassing. He came to my house and wanted to see my room. My bedroom's always in a mess and after he came in...

Me: Is my room messy?
Nigel: A little...
Me: Don't tell anyone yah?
Nigel: Ok. Let me tidy up your room for you.

*He walks ard to place my soft toys nicely and then went to my study table..*
*He picks up the newspapers on my table*

Nigel: You should put the newspapers to one side of your table after you have finished reading them. Also, you have to put your pen into your pencil case after using it so that your table will be neater!

*He picks up my pen and puts it into my pencil case and zips it up, while I stay at the corner feeling so ashamed of myself*

Cute huh?! Hahaha..oh ya..he's in Primary 2 :)

He played the piano for me this evening too. I must say that he plays the piano very very well. I was enjoying his music.

Thanks to him that I got to enjoy a sumptuous seafood dinner with my family and Granny. Had black pepper crabs..heez. I had Yam Paste too...one of my favourite desserts..

It was a great day overall. I'm sure it wouldn't be as fun if it weren't for Nigel. He really brought so much joy to my family and to Granny. Even Frederick was having a fantastic chat with him over dinner. No kiddy chats though, purely on school, games and toys for boys. We had such a great time together that I'm thinking of bringing him out for a movie and some fun during his school holidays. Frederick and I will be taking turns.

Geez..it's only a few hours since he went home and I'm starting to miss him already... Such a waste that he refused to let me take a pic of him, or else I'll put it up on my blog for u guys to see..

I have an urge to make a difference

I was thinking to myself under the durian tree...

"What should you do, Michelle?"

Then just as I was racking my brains, the durian dropped (*phew* it didn't drop on my head).

"That's it! I shall make a difference to people's lives!!!!"

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I've been having thoughts of this since eons ago, but I have never really put in a lot of effort to making this come true.

But with so much time on hand now, I might as well try to do something meaningful for the unfortunate around me.

That was what I did yesterday. I made my first step by applying to some dunno what club in NUS to volunteer my service. I came across their upcoming project through the NVPC webby. Went to take a look at the project's webby and I think I should be able to help out (if they want me lah!). Hope they'll contact me soon :)

I am volunteering to do gift-wrapping for a minimal fee. The money will go to charity organisations though. Although I'm not directly involved in making a difference to the unfortunate, but I'm sure the money will be useful for the organisations. So..it's ok to say I will be making a difference indirectly right?

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I hope to make a difference to my cousin's life too.

Poor girl. She must be feeling so lost and confused over her subject combination for Sec 3. She's facing so much problems with it, and my aunt can't really help her on that since she isn't very educated and knows nuts.

Hence, my aunt got my mum involved, and as a result, Mum ended up consulting me. I gave her my 2 cents' worth, but somehow, it still seems as though my cousin is very lost.

From the way Mum sounded, it looks like my cousin is taking her studies seriously. She's not very academically inclined, but it's her enthusiasm and her will to learn which impressed me. Therefore, I have decided to give her a helping hand. Been spending a lot of time emailing her to give her advice. She's got so many odds against her at the moment, but I'm very happy to know that she's taking all my advice very seriously and is doing her best to fight for the subjects she wants.

Due to all these, I volunteered to give her free tuition for any subjects she want. To my surprise, she replied telling me that she's more than willing to let me guide her!!! See~~~ Enthusiasm to learn...doesn't she deserve a big pat on her back?

I won't mind teaching her because I think it's very sad if you do not help someone who wishes to improve. I dread teaching those who are so bloody lazy...such a pain manz.

I used to teach 2 little boys before who are like that. It was a voluntary assignment given to me by Hospice. I felt that I should try to help cos I pity the boys for having a very ill mother. But the boys were so playful. They weren't doing well in school, and are very lazy. Seriously speaking, I started losing my enthusiasm to teach them as time passed. Knowing that I will not be able to help them if they are not willing to listen, I stopped tutoring them. It's bad of me, but I just think it's no point making everyone unhappy. I'm sure they don't like having me around, and I'm not happy teaching lazy students too.

I did some relief teaching in CCHB after JC. There was once I was asked to conduct a Geography lesson. I was very enthusiastic to teach the students. Some were attentive, while some were not. And I felt most irritated when the inattentive ones were making so much noise. I remember getting so pissed that I just turned around and gave them a verbal slapping. But it made me really pleased when some of the students actually told me to re-explain certain concepts which they were confused about. I was so eager to explain things to them.

After all these, I realise that I will NOT make a good teacher since I can't stand lazy pupils. That's why I never considered teaching as a lifelong career. I salute my friends who will soon become teachers.

Anyway, I hope the best scenario will turn out for my cousin next week, so that she can cast all her worries aside.

Shark Tale

I got up so late today! Sheesh.. Was supposed to meet Josh and Jon at PS at 1.30pm, and guess what time I got up? 1pm!!!!

I did set my alarm, but went back to sleep after turning it off *blush* Fortunately, I opened my eyes at 1pm, and realised I am gonna be late ( I can't imagine if I slept past half one and then having Josh calling me and go "Hey woman, where r u? We're waiting for u")

And of course, I was LATE...by 1.5 hours. Phew..the guys didn't make mince out of me.

Watched Shark Tale this afternoon.

Fantastic show, peeps! Go watch it if time permits. It'll make ya luff like crazy.

For once..yup yup...ONCE..I did not cry at a death scene. There was a suppose-to-be-sad scene in the movie whereby Frankie died, but that death scene was hilarious. So funny that I didn't even drop a tear. Being the emotional me, I am always weeping at every death scene, but I actually laughed at this one.

I guess I enjoyed the graphics most in the show. The animation of the underwater setting is so beautiful. Colourful too. By the way, did you know that if you're borned to be a fish in the sea, you can savour delicious sushi in a sushi bar under the water? Shark Tale's sea has got such an outlet. Apparently, there's no business in the bar.

Reason???!?!?! If you think of Nigiri sushi, you'll understand why :) (Here's something for u if you still don't get it...you're WOLS)

I shall not relate the whole story to prevent Golden Village from making a loss. BUT an advice for those who are gonna watch it: Watch it till the end..as in keep ur butt stuck on the seat until they have finished with the wordy scrolling part at the end of the movie (what's that called? *thinks*).

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Was quite a fun day with the 2 guys. They were jamming on the Clavinova in Yamaha PS. I was impressed when Jon played one of Maksim's songs! Can't remember what's the title though, but it's not the Bumble Bee piece. He played it well manz!

Then it was Josh's turn. The Walking Jukebox, we call him. As usual, he will be entertaining us with his wonderful piano skills. He played so many pieces for us. I was enjoying it throughout.

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Dad sent me 2 very interesting Psychiatry articles.

I have NEVER thought about doing Psychiatry as a specialisation for my postgraduate degree. In fact it was ranked 2 in my 'Never to do' speciality list, with Paediatrics ranking first. But for a special reason, I'm beginning to pay more attention to Psychiatry and am starting to be interested in this field.

I'm sure it's not easy to be a psychiatrist because it is a very stressful job. Requires a lot of patience too, and you have to be very strong mentally, or else you'll probably find yourself being a psychiatric patient soon. But it can be extremely rewarding if you can give them a helping hand to see the world from another perspective, and help them recover.

I have not done my Psychiatry block in med school yet, and I will be looking forward to it. I tried reading up about a few psychiatric disorders. They all seem to be similar, making me confused. But the disorders are very interesting. I might consider Psychiatry as a specialty for me if I do enjoy my Psychiatry block. Then again, I'm such an emotional person..and my ren yuan has always been bad..how the hell am I gonna be a good psychiatrist? Oh well, shall put it at the back of my mind for a while since I still have a few years before making a choice.

Sign of Boredom & Having too much free time..

I wonder who updates and make changes to their blog as often as me.

SOMEONE PLEASE DRAG ME AWAY FROM THE COMPUTER!!!!!!!

There is nothing much to do everyday... Erm..,alright, there is e.g. revising for JLPT and revising French..and of course, medicine. I'm lazy ya see..and who doesn't like slacking and decomposing?

You bet many will wanna hang me upside down, or throw me into Huang He with me saying that I have TOO MUCH free time. But that's the fact manz.

And since it was my last French lesson this evening, meaning..from next week onwards, ALL my weekday evenings are free. How shitty. Just when I need to be more busy, it's the end of French.

I have decided to continue to go on to Intermediate. But first, I have to revise the basic course. I have been concentrating so much on Jap that I really neglected French, and sometimes I find myself struggling a little in class. Mum wants me to take the French exam, so I shall fix a day for it after I have done my revision. Shall get it done before December.

As for my enquiry to do about 2-3 months of attachment in SGH, I have gotten a reply from them. Gosh, the application itself takes 3 months! I don't have 3 months in S'pore! The Associate Dean in charge said I can apply for it, but there's no guarantee that they will allow me to do a posting.

So..here I am asking myself..what should I do for the next few months...sigh. Travel? Intensively revise my medical syllabus? Go take a refresher course for driving? Find a job?

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Had a great day chatting with Huishan over MSN. Poor girl. She must be so bored at work, especially when her partner isn't at work today.

Am so envious of her. She's going to Batam with friends on Saturday. I wish I had somewhere to go too. I believe a few days away from this island might do me good to let my mind go of things temporarily.

I was watching The Champions yesterday, and oh my, diving did catch my attention for a while. But I'm so afraid of getting tanned, how am I gonna do it? I wouldn't even allow myself to dip into the public swimming pool (and the excuse is "I don't have a swimming costume or bikini), needless to say the sea. Yet, I must say I am tempted...argh..if only I didn't have the obsession about wanting to look fair..

Huishan's complaining about herself being too fair. Gosh, she doesn't know how much I wish to have her fairness and rosy cheeks. Hey girl, treasure it manz.
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Can't wait for tomorrow!!!! 4TH NOVEMBER...is THE day. Cos all the movies that I've been waiting for will be out! Movies on my 'Wanna Watch' list are:

1. Princess Diaries 2 (Anne Hathaway's so pretty!!!)

2. Sharktale (I love that fish..looks like ikan bilis with a tail)

3. Ladder 49 (this has been out for about a week already)

Gonna watch Sharktale with Josh and Jon later. Wat a coincidence that they asked if I wanna watch a movie. I was intending to catch one of the 3 movies tomorrow after my Jap class before they asked.

I reckon it'll be a day of fun tomorrow with them around. They're most probably gonna show off their musical talent at Yamaha PS. These 2 guys just adore music so much..

*Yawnz* Time for bed. I am feeling so tired this evening. Shall go recharge myself now..

Oyasumi nasai (^.^)

Rise and Shine

Morning...*yawnz*

I should be off to Jap class. Felt lazy, especially when I slept so late last night.

Had difficulty getting up, and got quite irritated when the alarm sounded...sigh..don't you just hate alarms when u're in deep sleep..

After much thought, I decided to drag myself up...went to wash up and get changed..then when I went downstairs.....

THE CAR IS GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -.-

Sobz..Dad drove off without me. I think he must have thought that I couldn't get up and am skipping class. Wah liew.. Not his fault though, I was later than my usual time by erm...2 minutes? (hello..only 2 mins.. :S)

Anyway, I deserve it for being.......late.

So it will be self-study at home today. Shall revise my Jap and then do a last minute revision for French class later. Darn..I'm such a lazy freak..

** I wanna become a chiobu..lol **

I have told many people that...and their reactions are all the same. -.- How come no one is as excited as me?

Maybe it's because they're so used to hearing me say "I wanna become a mei nu" so many times until they got so bored of it. Oh well.. :)

I have tried to become one since..dunno when. But I never seem to succeed cos I just give up halfway, or decide to go back to being plain after some thought. Of course, $$$ is a BIG factor. Nothing is free in this world (unless some kind professionals wanna take pity on me and provide me with free services), and it takes a lot to become a mei nu manz. Gotta spend a lot on clothes, make up, shoes etc...sheesh. And of course, EFFORT!!!!

I told Lemon that I wanna become a mei nu when I met her to have our girly chat today. Seriously speaking, I think she's getting prettier *whistles*

I needed to buy a conditioner cos mine is finishing, so I went to Watsons. I bought Silkpro to try. Wonder if it's good.. Can't wait to finish using my Organics shampoo manz..I find it kinda dry...that's why I'm changing it. VO5 is great, but ex manz..

And as usual, I will not just get my conditioner and get out of the shop. I will go to the other counters and see what's new. And what other stuffs can I get to try to turn into a mei nu.

Some would have known that recently I'm having a bad pimple and acne outbreak. Blast those manz! Just when some are disappearing, more are appearing. I'm wondering if it's due to my new cleanser....or is it just hormonal changes. I am still trying to save my face. And when the acne and pimples are gone, they will leave such "lovely" black marks, which seem to take forever to go away.

Being vain Michelle today, I bought ZA True White Essence. It sounds good (duh..which product sounds bad..), but how effective it is..I still don't know. Just applied it a while ago. Hope it will work and get rid of my pimples/acne and the marks they leave. I really don't like waking up and feeling fuglier than usual. Plus with what is going on, the MORE I must try to beautify myself...so that I can cheer up...

Hmm....just as I was doing all these, I was wondering to myself if my friends do the same (as in wanna make drastic changes to themselves) when they're hit by something depressing, or isit just a girl's thing.

Gosh, I wish I can go for retail therapy. I was tempted, until I remember that I have just spent the $50 Dad gave me yesterday on a few items. Argh, don't I just hate myself for that... I'm broke once again..aaaahhhhh

KOR!!!! I wanna see your 'Bobby Brown' friend after my pimples are gone. I need his help. I MUST dress up for your wedding..heez..how exciting....

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OH YA OH YA....I bought something cool today...

Shinhwa's Vol. 7 Album

It's blasting on my speakers now. Not bad an album. It came with a booklet full of their photos too. I was drooling....

I'm curious to take a look at their new MTV, but it's not included in the CD..wasted manz. I wish I can see their dance moves..they dance really well....what a waste that I didn't have tickets to watch their performance at the Tiger Beer Euphoria party...

THIS IS ENOUGH!!!!!

I still thought, after a break up, I can still leave some good memories for someone. At least he will know that I have never betrayed him once throughout, but this girl just had to ruin everything for me!

I'M MEGA PISSED!!!!!!!!!!!!

She must be extremely glad that Jason will hate me for life now, with a accusation for something I did NOT do. Let me say it again...I DID NOT FLIRT WITH ANYONE!

Things were still ok, and today, I found out that Jason deleted the testimonials I wrote for him last time. For what reason, I don't know. But I'm guessing that he must hate me more after SHE went to look for him, and sprout nonsense...maligning me when she did not even get her facts right at all. She doesn't know what damage she has done to me. How the f*ck am I gonna clear the air and fight for my innocence now?

I won't let her off. I definitely won't. I will make sure she apologises to me and Jason (even though I know Jason won't give shit about it).

I will not allow myself to be maligned as a BITCH, and a girl who steals ppl's bf for nothing!

Watch it, Lynette.

NEW LAYOUT

Yay...I finally succeeded!!!

Now I have music in the background, and a new layout. I'm so darn proud of myself. Phew..my hours of work has been paid off.

With bigger space for the blog area, I can now post photos easily, without worrying that you guys can't see, and having to keep using the scrolls to move them from left to right.

Playing with HTML can really help keep my mind very occupied for a while.. :)