I have an urge to make a difference

I was thinking to myself under the durian tree...

"What should you do, Michelle?"

Then just as I was racking my brains, the durian dropped (*phew* it didn't drop on my head).

"That's it! I shall make a difference to people's lives!!!!"

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I've been having thoughts of this since eons ago, but I have never really put in a lot of effort to making this come true.

But with so much time on hand now, I might as well try to do something meaningful for the unfortunate around me.

That was what I did yesterday. I made my first step by applying to some dunno what club in NUS to volunteer my service. I came across their upcoming project through the NVPC webby. Went to take a look at the project's webby and I think I should be able to help out (if they want me lah!). Hope they'll contact me soon :)

I am volunteering to do gift-wrapping for a minimal fee. The money will go to charity organisations though. Although I'm not directly involved in making a difference to the unfortunate, but I'm sure the money will be useful for the organisations. So..it's ok to say I will be making a difference indirectly right?

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I hope to make a difference to my cousin's life too.

Poor girl. She must be feeling so lost and confused over her subject combination for Sec 3. She's facing so much problems with it, and my aunt can't really help her on that since she isn't very educated and knows nuts.

Hence, my aunt got my mum involved, and as a result, Mum ended up consulting me. I gave her my 2 cents' worth, but somehow, it still seems as though my cousin is very lost.

From the way Mum sounded, it looks like my cousin is taking her studies seriously. She's not very academically inclined, but it's her enthusiasm and her will to learn which impressed me. Therefore, I have decided to give her a helping hand. Been spending a lot of time emailing her to give her advice. She's got so many odds against her at the moment, but I'm very happy to know that she's taking all my advice very seriously and is doing her best to fight for the subjects she wants.

Due to all these, I volunteered to give her free tuition for any subjects she want. To my surprise, she replied telling me that she's more than willing to let me guide her!!! See~~~ Enthusiasm to learn...doesn't she deserve a big pat on her back?

I won't mind teaching her because I think it's very sad if you do not help someone who wishes to improve. I dread teaching those who are so bloody lazy...such a pain manz.

I used to teach 2 little boys before who are like that. It was a voluntary assignment given to me by Hospice. I felt that I should try to help cos I pity the boys for having a very ill mother. But the boys were so playful. They weren't doing well in school, and are very lazy. Seriously speaking, I started losing my enthusiasm to teach them as time passed. Knowing that I will not be able to help them if they are not willing to listen, I stopped tutoring them. It's bad of me, but I just think it's no point making everyone unhappy. I'm sure they don't like having me around, and I'm not happy teaching lazy students too.

I did some relief teaching in CCHB after JC. There was once I was asked to conduct a Geography lesson. I was very enthusiastic to teach the students. Some were attentive, while some were not. And I felt most irritated when the inattentive ones were making so much noise. I remember getting so pissed that I just turned around and gave them a verbal slapping. But it made me really pleased when some of the students actually told me to re-explain certain concepts which they were confused about. I was so eager to explain things to them.

After all these, I realise that I will NOT make a good teacher since I can't stand lazy pupils. That's why I never considered teaching as a lifelong career. I salute my friends who will soon become teachers.

Anyway, I hope the best scenario will turn out for my cousin next week, so that she can cast all her worries aside.