A different life after marriage

I was officially married on 16th June 2013.

So that would make me Day 8 of Mrs Lee today.

The mad rush the week before the wedding, the "chaos" the night before and on the actual day, plus the minimoon flew by so quickly. It felt like as if it has never happened before, and overnight, I'm now married.

A little upset that things didn't go exactly the way I wanted it, but the overall wasn't too bad. In fact, I'm pretty amazed at how I managed to be a do-it-all bride. But seriously, my life would have been better if I insisted on getting rid of the gatecrash..less coordinating...less things for myself to do (which bride on earth prepares the gatecrash herself?)...and less "babysitting".

To be honest, I couldnt quite tell if I was the bride or the wedding planner that day. That was pretty frustrating. And because of the amount of "babysitting" I had to do, I missed the chance of enjoying the wedding I so painfully planned. It felt like it was some party held for everyone else except for Dear and me.

Fortunately there was Dear to help take care of matters on the ground, whilst I was battling the chaos in the bridal suite - making sure the mothers are satisfied with their makeup/hairdo, reassuring one of my bridesmaids who was going on and on about her evening gown, clearing up the mess/rubbish others have created in my bridal suite.

I'm sure the war Dear was battling alone at the banquet hall would have been a whole lot more, because it was a non-stop cursing session the moment we were alone in the suite after the banquet was over. And one would be completely wrong thinking we could just plunge straight into bed and snooze the moment we got back to the room. It was at least another hour of clearing ALL the mess others have made in our room. -.-

Minimoon was rather disappointing. Note to self, be mindful of who u r asking for feedback whenever u r planning a holiday. Dear sure has lots to type in his feedback to the resort. And I've more or less concluded that I'm not so much of a resort person.

Moving in to live with my in-laws is something I will need to adapt to. I hope this will not take too long. It's a typical flat with basic necessities and not much of a decor to talk about. A far cry from the environment I grew up in, and with the limited resources/time, Dear has tried to make our bedroom as cosy as it can be to welcome me into my new home. I'm liking what he has done, and although I've yet to get used to my new environment, I will try to adapt in return of his efforts.

The first week of being a Mrs is rather stressful in its own way. Having not to only adapt to a life which is a lot simpler and very different from own, and also coping with the mental struggle of wanting to be a good wife. I feel disabled in my new home with the lack of freedom to do what I want to do for my husband. I'm constantly worried about what my in-laws might think/feel about me since my daily life habits are rather different.

I am trying to be happy, and welcome the new change in my life. And hopefully soon enough, I'll start loving the new change :)