I really lost my temper yesterday because once again, I waited the entire night for him and when I called him throughout the night, his hp was off.
I knew most likely his hp ran out of batt and that he went out with his friends, but not going home the entire night just doesn't sound right, doesn't it?!
And not even a word?!?!?!?!?!
No, I wasn't thinking he did something unfaithful behind my back (even though it did cut across my mind). I was just angry over the fact that he didn't tell me abt it and it's not the 1st time I have waited the entire night for him without hearing anything from him at all.
He left me a msg on MSN at his friend's at about 1+am, but I was already offline. I was still angry, because I think it's still ridiculous to only inform someone at that crazy hour. Besides, I don't really like the idea of my boy just staying overnight in someone else's house.
He msged me and called me several times when I was in the hospital. But I gave no reply at all. I was indeed fuming. I finally picked up during lunch time and I guess because partly due his fatigue, we quarelled. I was on the verge of tears in the hospital but I had to hold it back. I was hurt by something he said. And I hung up without a word.
I don't think I am a very restrictive gf, or rather, I have tried not to be..and I am constantly trying hard to regain my independence (even though I hope I won't be fully so, because that will only end our rship..and I know it). And I don't think any gf will be totally perfect with the idea of their own bf spending the entire night in a friend's house and not even telling u tt he won't be home beforehand. And what if.....it was me who didn't go home the whole night and not mentioning anything to him beforehand? Will he be angry? Will he even mind?
Honestly, I am feeling really numb abt this issue and we have stopped quarrelling last night. Even though we have gone back to being loving again, my mind is in a blank state abt this issue. I know he's not happy that he has lost some freedom because I asked him abt it last night. I know that he's been restricted enough by his parents, and that is the only thing he is able to do, yet now I'm not pleased abt it. I felt like I was some trouble maker, but I cannot deny the fact that I am really not happy with the idea. To him, it's a loss of freedom. To me, it's about commitment and responsibility towards a rship.
He might be staying over at another friend's tonight. I don't know what I'm feeling abt this. And I didn't say "No" and thinking back abt that hurting thing he said, I know...I'm in no position to say anything.
I have no idea how to manage this.
I knew most likely his hp ran out of batt and that he went out with his friends, but not going home the entire night just doesn't sound right, doesn't it?!
And not even a word?!?!?!?!?!
No, I wasn't thinking he did something unfaithful behind my back (even though it did cut across my mind). I was just angry over the fact that he didn't tell me abt it and it's not the 1st time I have waited the entire night for him without hearing anything from him at all.
He left me a msg on MSN at his friend's at about 1+am, but I was already offline. I was still angry, because I think it's still ridiculous to only inform someone at that crazy hour. Besides, I don't really like the idea of my boy just staying overnight in someone else's house.
He msged me and called me several times when I was in the hospital. But I gave no reply at all. I was indeed fuming. I finally picked up during lunch time and I guess because partly due his fatigue, we quarelled. I was on the verge of tears in the hospital but I had to hold it back. I was hurt by something he said. And I hung up without a word.
I don't think I am a very restrictive gf, or rather, I have tried not to be..and I am constantly trying hard to regain my independence (even though I hope I won't be fully so, because that will only end our rship..and I know it). And I don't think any gf will be totally perfect with the idea of their own bf spending the entire night in a friend's house and not even telling u tt he won't be home beforehand. And what if.....it was me who didn't go home the whole night and not mentioning anything to him beforehand? Will he be angry? Will he even mind?
Honestly, I am feeling really numb abt this issue and we have stopped quarrelling last night. Even though we have gone back to being loving again, my mind is in a blank state abt this issue. I know he's not happy that he has lost some freedom because I asked him abt it last night. I know that he's been restricted enough by his parents, and that is the only thing he is able to do, yet now I'm not pleased abt it. I felt like I was some trouble maker, but I cannot deny the fact that I am really not happy with the idea. To him, it's a loss of freedom. To me, it's about commitment and responsibility towards a rship.
He might be staying over at another friend's tonight. I don't know what I'm feeling abt this. And I didn't say "No" and thinking back abt that hurting thing he said, I know...I'm in no position to say anything.
I have no idea how to manage this.
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