Went to JP today to watch "The Banquet" with Victor today. Am so thankful that this good buddy of mine has sacrificed his lecture just to catch the movie with me.

I love the outfits in the movie, and I must say the show is really funny, instead of being a tragic film. Oh..the General's son is darn super shuai! Gosh, the look in his eyes....*dreams*

Had a nice chat with Victor, and it felt good being able to say things out from the bottom of my heart. There was no need for pretence.

Been wanting to watch movies for some time, but haven't been asking anyone to go watch it with me since my boy has been starting to feel jealous, and he thinks he only feels safe if only certain people goes out with me, such as Victor.

Honestly speaking, I did wish my boy was watching the movie with me too. I miss the times when he will hold my hand or hug me when we're watching a movie together.

I miss him a lot today, but tried not to think about it.

He's returning to UK next Monday, and he hasn't been feeling very happy these few days. He told me that he doesn't want to go back now. I can understand how he feels. Home is still home afterall.

He told me his dad is being nicer to him these few days, and I do know why too. His dad loves him dearly, and I know he will feel sad when his son leaves on Monday. I know my boy is his only hope and reason to live. And because of this, I can't help feeling guilty of my thought of keeping my boy by my side.

I have reached a point whereby I can't just let my boy go because it makes things easier. I feel that I am becoming more and more selfish, yet can I help it?