Thursday feeling like Friday

I would have thought today is Saturday if I didn't decide to skip lectures today. It felt so much like Friday yesterday.

I had fun in the evening after he came back. We were both bored of studying (damn it, we really don't have a life...we're always studying whenever we're chatting..how sick) and he wanted to come over, which he did.

Watched "The Myth" together, and that show was hilarious manz. I know I should be going "So touching....", but I didn't think it was, except for one part. But for the rest of the show, we were laughing at how drama this whole movie is, how lame the plot was, and how stupid the Ling Fei was in there. I can't believe someone could be that stupid and crap. I was absolutely tricked into how beautiful this film was gonna be by listening to the OST and watching the trailer.

Went on chatting after that till 4am, whereby he couldn't take it any longer. You bet I wish we didn't have to sleep, and just go straight for bfast. Manz, such a waste that he didn't wanna crash my lectures today. If he's going with me, I WILL go for lectures today...lol..but since he wanna talk to his Mum...oh well..I'll just stay at home and study till we go out this evening. :)

He brought up "the topic" last night. He told me he is not sure what he should do next year. He said he thinks it's better if he stay in UK for at least another year, be it study or work. And when he mentioned "If I stay in UK, we won't be too far apart. We can still see each other. But it'll be difficult if I go home.", I was touched. Yes, I'm hoping he will stay. I know most probably I will start feeling worse the longer he stays here, but I cannot bear the thought having to see him go home.

I know he has been thinking about us these days. It does sadden me when I think about it. What can we do abt it? I really wish we've got a solution. At times, I wish...we can just leave the thought about the future aside, and just stay happy together for as long as we can now, but I won't be realistic if I do that. I prefer having a serious relationship with someone I can plan my future with, and not one which I can't. He's not the playing sort either.

CG: You're going home to celebrate your birthday right?
Me: Yeah. Why?
*Pause*
Me: *excited* Are u going to celebrate it for me?
CG: I might buy a ticket and accompany you back to Singapore.
Me: REALLY?! THAT'S GONNA BE MY BIGGEST PRESENT THIS YEAR!!!!
CG: It's a joke..hahaha...

Not funny. -.- But then again, I'm happy enough to know that he did pay attention when I told him the reason why I'm going home during xmas every year. I always thought he's not listening, or won't bothering remembering anything about me. And yes, talking about that, I asked him the night before yesterday if he still remembers my name, and he still wrote my chinese name wrongly, despite the right pronunciation! PIANGZ! I was so upset I told him forget it, claiming that it's only a name. But deep down, I was hurt. I have no idea why him getting my name right meant so much to me.

Anyway, I hope I can celebrate my bday with him before I go back. A mini one will do. :) And of course, if possible, another with Jamie and Christina. No one has ever celebrated my bday here for me, and I really hope I can have it at least once. It'll be something I will never forget. Sigh.

Hmm..I feel like having choc fondue tonight after movie. Slurp!!!! Hopefully he'll go with me cos I'm dying to bring him there...hehe.

Oh yes oh yes. Forgot to mention this.

I might be going back to dance again. Michelle Tang is trying to encourage me to start dancing again. Unfortunately, it's not ballet, but ballroom dancing. She took lessons there for about a year, and is now taking part in competitions. She was telling me all about it on Wednesday, which got me really excited. I did see the photos she took with her bf (He's singaporean!!!!!) at dance competitions and I was really envious of her being able to dress up and go for competitions with other universities. I want to dance again. I want to dance in competitions. I want the stage, mu audience, my applauses. I really want to feel all that again. So I think I'll be joining her classes next week to see if I like it. If I do, might just stay put and have a serious go at it. Hope it'll be good :)