I must tolerate
Bumped into someone I dread in med sch today. Someone whom I have always disliked ever since Year 1, and is now my senior because of the gap year I took.
The 5th years are all back from their electives, so I get to see some of my old acquaintances. But this person is someone I don't like seeing.
I remember how irritated I get each time I see him around me, or when he's talking to me. I am always not willing to talk much to him, and if we do talk, there's always tinge of sarcasm in our conversation. I personally dread it when he keeps asking me about my grades and stick so close to me just to wait for me to find out my results before he start bombarding me with "How much you got?!" questions.
He's sickening, and to add to that, he's disgusting looking as well. I hate saying ppl being ugly, but because he's so sick externally and internally, I have ranked him high up in the "Ugly People" category for years.
When he saw me today, you should see his sarcastic smile. "Oh, Michelle, you're back? So did you pass your exams?" What a polite question, with an added sly smile. You bet he must be gloating over the fact that I'm in 4th yr instead of being in 5th. He must thought I flunked my exams the year before that's why I'm one year below. I did NOT fail. I just took a gap year cos something happened. I'm sure my acquaintances in my year knows about it, and were probably gossiping abt it. But I shall ignore that.
I shall not be mean. I shall not be sarcastic. I shall welcome all his sarcastic smiles, conversations etc for him. I shall just act as if I didn't know he was being sarcastic (and fark it even if he knows I'm pretending).
Yes, you might be in 5th year. You might become a doc before me. Yes, I feel shit. I feel lagged. I felt demoralised. I met a setback which I will never forget in my life. But I will make it there..at least I'll try.
And I will continue trying to climb up the ladder as fast as I can. If I ever can make it to a higher level than u and if I have a chance to get back at u be it in UK or one day when we ever meet at some international conference/seminar, I will.
So for now, I'll tolerate all your rubbish. I will tolerate comments people make about me. I will tolerate insults. But I will remember all these, and should THE day ever come, I will let u have a taste of it...ten times the amount.
The 5th years are all back from their electives, so I get to see some of my old acquaintances. But this person is someone I don't like seeing.
I remember how irritated I get each time I see him around me, or when he's talking to me. I am always not willing to talk much to him, and if we do talk, there's always tinge of sarcasm in our conversation. I personally dread it when he keeps asking me about my grades and stick so close to me just to wait for me to find out my results before he start bombarding me with "How much you got?!" questions.
He's sickening, and to add to that, he's disgusting looking as well. I hate saying ppl being ugly, but because he's so sick externally and internally, I have ranked him high up in the "Ugly People" category for years.
When he saw me today, you should see his sarcastic smile. "Oh, Michelle, you're back? So did you pass your exams?" What a polite question, with an added sly smile. You bet he must be gloating over the fact that I'm in 4th yr instead of being in 5th. He must thought I flunked my exams the year before that's why I'm one year below. I did NOT fail. I just took a gap year cos something happened. I'm sure my acquaintances in my year knows about it, and were probably gossiping abt it. But I shall ignore that.
I shall not be mean. I shall not be sarcastic. I shall welcome all his sarcastic smiles, conversations etc for him. I shall just act as if I didn't know he was being sarcastic (and fark it even if he knows I'm pretending).
Yes, you might be in 5th year. You might become a doc before me. Yes, I feel shit. I feel lagged. I felt demoralised. I met a setback which I will never forget in my life. But I will make it there..at least I'll try.
And I will continue trying to climb up the ladder as fast as I can. If I ever can make it to a higher level than u and if I have a chance to get back at u be it in UK or one day when we ever meet at some international conference/seminar, I will.
So for now, I'll tolerate all your rubbish. I will tolerate comments people make about me. I will tolerate insults. But I will remember all these, and should THE day ever come, I will let u have a taste of it...ten times the amount.
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