I made a big decision today.

I'm not sure what this decision might bring, and whether it is a right thing to do. Although I have resigned to my fact that I'm not blue-blooded, and hence, there is a limit to my ability in this society, I cannot help but feel even more disappointed with my life.

Wanting to protect my family, and making sure that they will always be safe seems like the hardest thing to do at the moment.

I sincerely pray that things will turn out well soon...

Another major change

I'm just left with signing the papers. Once this gets through, I'll have to accept that my life will need to go through another major change.

Probably not the wisest decision, but at this point in time, it seems to be the only way out. Hopefully it will make a positive impact to my life. There's no way I'm gonna get the best of both worlds...I've resigned myself to that fact, so I suppose I'll just have to pick the option that will allow me to be closer to realising my dream.

I have to be honest that this wasn't a route I had planned for myself. Things have happened at the most unexpected time, and part of me is really feeling sad about it. But I suppose it's not going to help matters by looking back. If it's not meant to be, it never will be.

Wasted too many years thinking about others except myself. Time to do something for myself this time. Time to lead the life I want, to do the things I've always wanted.

I'll work hard...nope...harder..