"YOU R NOT INTERESTED IN ANYTHING!!!!!"
When he said that to me, my heart broke and sank instantly. There was no need to say anything more.
The wedding mattered. He mattered. Our future mattered. I have put my entire heart and soul into this.
Just like any other girls, I have dreams of how I wish my wedding would be like - Fairytale, grandeur, full of blossoms. And that dream felt like it was going to turn into reality after he proposed and as I was starting with wedding preparations.
I admired what I see in magazines, only to come to accept the reality that I need to have the cash to have the wedding of my dreams. And the sad truth is, I can't afford it...so I will just have to live with what I can afford, which is still of a pretty good standard (shouldn't complain abt it). I don't deny that a tinge of disappointment lingers though. Afterall, which female doesn't have a dream wedding in mind? I don't have much in my life that makes me happy and smile. Seeing pretty things r probably one of the very few things that makes me smile and cheer me up. I know I can't afford them, but surely admiring them frm afar can't be that difficult. At least I don't want to be deprived even from admiring/dreaming, when I hardly have any happiness in life already.
I like sharing my excitement, esp abt the wedding, with him. But at the end of it all, it seemed like I'm the only one feeling excited. No one else is. That sense of loneliness/neglect then sets in.
I did it again today. He was playing games on the iPhone. Decided to put the magazine back.
I felt terrible, only to be told later by him that I'm forcing him to see things which I like.
I guess he didn't realise how much impact that had on me, before he went on to say that I'm not interested in anything.
With what he said, maybe it's a mistake that I am interested in things which involves us.....
.......the ring is off...
When he said that to me, my heart broke and sank instantly. There was no need to say anything more.
The wedding mattered. He mattered. Our future mattered. I have put my entire heart and soul into this.
Just like any other girls, I have dreams of how I wish my wedding would be like - Fairytale, grandeur, full of blossoms. And that dream felt like it was going to turn into reality after he proposed and as I was starting with wedding preparations.
I admired what I see in magazines, only to come to accept the reality that I need to have the cash to have the wedding of my dreams. And the sad truth is, I can't afford it...so I will just have to live with what I can afford, which is still of a pretty good standard (shouldn't complain abt it). I don't deny that a tinge of disappointment lingers though. Afterall, which female doesn't have a dream wedding in mind? I don't have much in my life that makes me happy and smile. Seeing pretty things r probably one of the very few things that makes me smile and cheer me up. I know I can't afford them, but surely admiring them frm afar can't be that difficult. At least I don't want to be deprived even from admiring/dreaming, when I hardly have any happiness in life already.
I like sharing my excitement, esp abt the wedding, with him. But at the end of it all, it seemed like I'm the only one feeling excited. No one else is. That sense of loneliness/neglect then sets in.
I did it again today. He was playing games on the iPhone. Decided to put the magazine back.
I felt terrible, only to be told later by him that I'm forcing him to see things which I like.
I guess he didn't realise how much impact that had on me, before he went on to say that I'm not interested in anything.
With what he said, maybe it's a mistake that I am interested in things which involves us.....
.......the ring is off...