This is what we'll do
Called home yesterday, told Mum about my week, and told her I have do have an interest in someone in UK, but didn't tell her anything more. I wanted to know what my parents think.
Their response came as no surprise for me. Dad must be thinking his little girl must be being childish again with his "Oh no, one chapter closed and the start of another now". Mum reminded me that my studies come as priority and I should not get into a rship until I grad. I understand their worries, but I'm hurt because...do I always sound like a little girl talking? Do my parents know I am serious?
I dare not tell my parents that I have been checking up on medical career prospects in China. I dare not tell them what I have found, and keeping in the back of my mind after Mum commented that if I want to be with CG, I will have move to China to live and she's not keen on me doing that. And reminded me of the promises I made to the Gods whenever I visit the temple.
CG spoke to his parents yesterday too, and his parents asked him if he's been dating anyone recently. I reckon they are suspecting it because he's been asking his dad a lot about Singapore. He told his cousin abt me and being the rational her, she didn't give him full support. He told his friends, but none thought he was serious and thinks he's mad if he pursues this rship. I know all he wanted was someone to cheer him on which he couldn't find, accounting to why he wasn't in a very good mood last night.
I dare not tell him too much about what my parents said, but despite doing so, he was still quite pissed. He was pissed about the fact why ppl we trust most in our lives are not even giving us support, and he thinks this is an extremely big issue on my side because he's very worried that I'll just give up easily if we are going through a rough patch and negative comments making me lose more and more hope and motivation to keep it going. He's worried that I'll regret being tgt with him.
His worries are exactly the same as me. He said he'll tell his parents the truth after a few more months. And for me...with what my parents have said, I don't know how I'm gonna tell them. "Don't tell them. Why bother?!" Sophie said. Yes, why bother? But it's just me. I want to tell my parents things which mean a lot to me..I want to share with them impt things which are happening in my life because I love them. I only bring guys I'm serious about, home. I want them to know that. Apparently, I think my parents do want to meet CG, and was asking me if CG wants to go to Sg with me in December. I think they want to know how he's like, and find out more about his family background. My parents do feel worried that his family works for the government because it might be such a simple family afterall. It's complicated, even CG said it is. And not to mention that he's gonna follow his dad's footsteps. That's probably the one of the few ways if you want to lead a stable and comfortable life.
He told me he has thought a lot about us, and wants to discuss it with me. He said he will definitely go back to China one day, just that he doesn't know when since he'll try to stay in UK for as long as he can to accompany me. But should things not go well, and he has to go back home after his MSc, what plans do I have. He said he has made his decision, and wants to know what's mine and will respect it. I didn't reply. I was scared. I didn't know why he had to ask for my opinion since he thinks it's always better for a guy to end the rship so that the girl will not dare to pester him again. I told him if he wants to end it, I'll just accept it since it doesn't need 2 parties to consent on such matter. And he said he doesn't want to end it even if he goes back home. He said we'll maintain it long distance. He said he's not giving it up until I do. He told me the more others think we'll not work out, the more we have to prove it to them it will..even if it's really not meant to be..at least we have proven to them we are serious and we have tried. I went speechless after he said that. I wanted to cry because I didn't expect him to say that. I don't know if he will keep to his word, but I do not want to doubt him either.
So..I guess that's how we're gonna be, at least for the time being. I'll hang in there for as long as I can. I shall try not to turn back and keep reconsidering it since it doesn't make any of us happy.
Their response came as no surprise for me. Dad must be thinking his little girl must be being childish again with his "Oh no, one chapter closed and the start of another now". Mum reminded me that my studies come as priority and I should not get into a rship until I grad. I understand their worries, but I'm hurt because...do I always sound like a little girl talking? Do my parents know I am serious?
I dare not tell my parents that I have been checking up on medical career prospects in China. I dare not tell them what I have found, and keeping in the back of my mind after Mum commented that if I want to be with CG, I will have move to China to live and she's not keen on me doing that. And reminded me of the promises I made to the Gods whenever I visit the temple.
CG spoke to his parents yesterday too, and his parents asked him if he's been dating anyone recently. I reckon they are suspecting it because he's been asking his dad a lot about Singapore. He told his cousin abt me and being the rational her, she didn't give him full support. He told his friends, but none thought he was serious and thinks he's mad if he pursues this rship. I know all he wanted was someone to cheer him on which he couldn't find, accounting to why he wasn't in a very good mood last night.
I dare not tell him too much about what my parents said, but despite doing so, he was still quite pissed. He was pissed about the fact why ppl we trust most in our lives are not even giving us support, and he thinks this is an extremely big issue on my side because he's very worried that I'll just give up easily if we are going through a rough patch and negative comments making me lose more and more hope and motivation to keep it going. He's worried that I'll regret being tgt with him.
His worries are exactly the same as me. He said he'll tell his parents the truth after a few more months. And for me...with what my parents have said, I don't know how I'm gonna tell them. "Don't tell them. Why bother?!" Sophie said. Yes, why bother? But it's just me. I want to tell my parents things which mean a lot to me..I want to share with them impt things which are happening in my life because I love them. I only bring guys I'm serious about, home. I want them to know that. Apparently, I think my parents do want to meet CG, and was asking me if CG wants to go to Sg with me in December. I think they want to know how he's like, and find out more about his family background. My parents do feel worried that his family works for the government because it might be such a simple family afterall. It's complicated, even CG said it is. And not to mention that he's gonna follow his dad's footsteps. That's probably the one of the few ways if you want to lead a stable and comfortable life.
He told me he has thought a lot about us, and wants to discuss it with me. He said he will definitely go back to China one day, just that he doesn't know when since he'll try to stay in UK for as long as he can to accompany me. But should things not go well, and he has to go back home after his MSc, what plans do I have. He said he has made his decision, and wants to know what's mine and will respect it. I didn't reply. I was scared. I didn't know why he had to ask for my opinion since he thinks it's always better for a guy to end the rship so that the girl will not dare to pester him again. I told him if he wants to end it, I'll just accept it since it doesn't need 2 parties to consent on such matter. And he said he doesn't want to end it even if he goes back home. He said we'll maintain it long distance. He said he's not giving it up until I do. He told me the more others think we'll not work out, the more we have to prove it to them it will..even if it's really not meant to be..at least we have proven to them we are serious and we have tried. I went speechless after he said that. I wanted to cry because I didn't expect him to say that. I don't know if he will keep to his word, but I do not want to doubt him either.
So..I guess that's how we're gonna be, at least for the time being. I'll hang in there for as long as I can. I shall try not to turn back and keep reconsidering it since it doesn't make any of us happy.
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