BAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm counting down to the end of Psychiatry. Can't wait to finish it once and for all.
Been having some problems with a coursemate, which is making me boil and slightly affected by it. I wouldn't have given shit if it weren't because I regarded her as a friend. Hate the way she blows hot and cold at me as if I have offended her forefathers. I know she dreads every bit of Psychiatry as well, but I'm dreading it just as badly too. And I just hate the way she criticises every patient. Yes, they are insane. They are problematic, but they deserve respect. If you dread these people so much, then just don't do Psychiatry in the near future, but at least shut up and stop grumbling about how fucked up those patients are.
I have done my best to continue being patient, tolerant and nice to her. And for every minor thing she snaps at me about, I apologise when deep down, I want to tell her that I'm not borned to be scolded for no good reason. And if I knew it would have offended her, I wouldn't have done that. But it's getting to the point whereby I am doing it not because I really want to, but because I'm trying not to let our friendship go towards the undesirable end of the spectrum.
Couldn't stand it last night when she sounded farking annoying after I msged her. I was just being nice by telling her to keep warm since it's freezing out there, and for goodness sake, even if u don't need it, at least be appreciative, which obviously she isn't when I saw her reply.
Darn sick of people like that, especially here in UK. Imagine having future colleagues like that. Fortunately, I am not someone who is very involved with my coursemates, or else I wonder how many people will be gossiping about me, or giving me a smile but cursing me behind my back. You can just hear how your own coursemates terming who and who as a bitch or a bastard just during coffee sessions. But because of my terribly small social circle here which is as good as insignificant, I know it's not right either. And people who I deem as friends here are superficial here too, perhaps because they think everyone else around them is too.
I am so disappointed in them, and CG said it's common...and I should not let these people affect me. That's true. Not worth it. Was wondering if I'm just suay to always meet ridiculous people, and seeing so many such ppl around just makes me wanna stay far away from them and go back to my own little world.
Good thing I have CG here to talk and spend time with me. But I don't know how long he's ever gonna be here with me too. And it does fear me a little. I can feel myself being less independent as the days pass. Then when I start feeling so, it worries me. What's going to happen when he's not by my side anymore? Will I go back to my original spot? I really don't want to go back there now that I have made progress after trying hard.
Fucking dread being in UK....it's miserable..
Been having some problems with a coursemate, which is making me boil and slightly affected by it. I wouldn't have given shit if it weren't because I regarded her as a friend. Hate the way she blows hot and cold at me as if I have offended her forefathers. I know she dreads every bit of Psychiatry as well, but I'm dreading it just as badly too. And I just hate the way she criticises every patient. Yes, they are insane. They are problematic, but they deserve respect. If you dread these people so much, then just don't do Psychiatry in the near future, but at least shut up and stop grumbling about how fucked up those patients are.
I have done my best to continue being patient, tolerant and nice to her. And for every minor thing she snaps at me about, I apologise when deep down, I want to tell her that I'm not borned to be scolded for no good reason. And if I knew it would have offended her, I wouldn't have done that. But it's getting to the point whereby I am doing it not because I really want to, but because I'm trying not to let our friendship go towards the undesirable end of the spectrum.
Couldn't stand it last night when she sounded farking annoying after I msged her. I was just being nice by telling her to keep warm since it's freezing out there, and for goodness sake, even if u don't need it, at least be appreciative, which obviously she isn't when I saw her reply.
Darn sick of people like that, especially here in UK. Imagine having future colleagues like that. Fortunately, I am not someone who is very involved with my coursemates, or else I wonder how many people will be gossiping about me, or giving me a smile but cursing me behind my back. You can just hear how your own coursemates terming who and who as a bitch or a bastard just during coffee sessions. But because of my terribly small social circle here which is as good as insignificant, I know it's not right either. And people who I deem as friends here are superficial here too, perhaps because they think everyone else around them is too.
I am so disappointed in them, and CG said it's common...and I should not let these people affect me. That's true. Not worth it. Was wondering if I'm just suay to always meet ridiculous people, and seeing so many such ppl around just makes me wanna stay far away from them and go back to my own little world.
Good thing I have CG here to talk and spend time with me. But I don't know how long he's ever gonna be here with me too. And it does fear me a little. I can feel myself being less independent as the days pass. Then when I start feeling so, it worries me. What's going to happen when he's not by my side anymore? Will I go back to my original spot? I really don't want to go back there now that I have made progress after trying hard.
Fucking dread being in UK....it's miserable..
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