That smile

Yesterday it was my first time cooking for my bf and he's the first bf of mine who has tried my cooking.

It made me really excited yesterday, and I got up pretty early to go to the market to buy the ingredients.

Spent some time in the kitchen in the evening to make dinner. I was feeling happy while doing it yesterday. Now I know how it feels like to cook something for someone u like.

Made chicken rice (he claims to have never tried it), you cai, and soup. He was impressed when I set up the table. "I am deceived by your looks and personality!" he said. And the ultimate joy I got was when he smiled and said it's delicious. He ate a lot and I guess that probably tells me he's not lying abt saying the food's good.

CG: Even if I don't miss you, I'll definitely miss your cooking. Do you know, in China, people say that if a girl can cook well, their husband or bf will love them more?
Me: Really?!
CG: Yes. And it so happens that I find girls who cannot cook a turn off. The thought of having to go home to eat the food she cooks which taste horrible.....argh..
Me: Hahaha..but that doesn't matter right? You can cook dinner then. You cook very well.
CG: But I can't be the one cooking everyday. She's got to cook quite often too. You know, among all the girls who have cooked for me before, I don't have to think twice or hesitate to say you're the best.

I was on cloud nine cos he's a very fussy eater and I was worried he'll not like my cooking.

He said he'll be cooking for me next week. Manz, can't wait!

Was telling him that I shall try to make jiaozi after my exams, and he gave me a stunned look. He thinks it's difficult and time-consuming, but I will still give it a shot. I am quite confident that I can do it. He misses it very much, so that's just gonna motivate me to succeed in making it.

We said we'll make sushi together too. I wonder when that'll be. But I reckon it'll be fun. He just loves it, and said if I ever go to Beijing, we'll challenge ourselves by trying EVERY sushi and maki available in a particular japanese restaurant. He claims that there are about 150 types in that restaurant.

He also talked about moving out of his present room again since his lease will be expiring in January...

CG: Let's go get a studio and stay together ok? We'll have our own kitchen, and I can be by your side whenever we're at home.
Me: Cannot. My parents will kill me...
CG: Why?
Me: Which parent wouldn't if they know their daughter is living together with a guy in the same room. I'm sure your parents won't like it too.
CG: But you can save money that way. I'll pay the rent. I can cook dinner for you too. At most, we'll hide it from our parents.
Me: I know. But I can't. And parents aside, I will have to move out again when u leave. I don't want to keep moving because I have loads of things.
CG: I can see that. Ok then. I'll go see if I can find a room on the same floor as you.

I know he's disappointed, but I really cannot say "Yes" even if I want to. I'm sure my dad will make sure I move out immediately from the studio. I understand their worries and fears. Mum did mention before that I can make my own life choices after I graduate from med sch...so I guess everything will have to wait till then. And that probably includes making my rship with CG known to them if we're still tgt. Somehow I got a feeling that my parents don't want to know too.

Sigh. Enuff said. I better get down to some revision. How sickening. It's already Sunday. Dread Sundays.