Dinner wif someone unexpected
Finally a meet up with a friend whom I've not met for months. It wasn't the best outing, but I am still pleased abt having received a call from him.
Kena suan during dinner...yeah. "I've been putting in effort to keep in touch with u. Have you?" he said. Gosh...so pai seh. I think I've been very bad cos each time he calls, I will hesitate to pick up the call. And each time I pick up, I won't talk for more than 3 minutes to him too.
Then again, it's not because I don't wish to...there's just something which makes it slightly uncomfy to continue the conversation. My friend is a...nice guy, but he gives me the feeling that what he says isn't from deep within..not simple definitely. Hence, I can't be myself when I am out with him either. I tend to think a lot about what I say, how I talk, and how I behave. It's no wonder I am always dying to go home after a while. I wish I could spend the entire evening with a friend I have not met for ages, but I can't imagine being "fake" for the rest of the night.
And it was more scandals again. This time, I didn't want to know anything more. Didn't bother to probe further either. Totally can't be bothered abt his affairs. Never ever get my facts right about his flings throughout the 3-4 years I know him. I guess I just gave up getting my facts clear at some point, and never wanted to get them clear ever since..lol.
That seems to be Uni life. Flings, flings and more flings. You just never know who is serious with you. It's weird isn't it? Cos we're supposed to be studying in uni. That's the main thing, yet at some point, these rubbish issues start too.
Mum always said that dating in Uni is a better age (apparently, she changes her mind now..and thinks it's toooo early and I should probably not even think abt it) because we'll be more grown up and mature by then. But it doesn't seem so ard me. I..don't even know who is serious. I see ppl changing bf/gf so often here, and they don't even feel a thing after ditching each other. How come? Don't know why I feel soooo arghhhh abt it each time I think abt it.
What's going on in those ppl's minds huh? Relationships aren't games...don't they know? It's lame how ppl go around hurting each other for fun.
Kena suan during dinner...yeah. "I've been putting in effort to keep in touch with u. Have you?" he said. Gosh...so pai seh. I think I've been very bad cos each time he calls, I will hesitate to pick up the call. And each time I pick up, I won't talk for more than 3 minutes to him too.
Then again, it's not because I don't wish to...there's just something which makes it slightly uncomfy to continue the conversation. My friend is a...nice guy, but he gives me the feeling that what he says isn't from deep within..not simple definitely. Hence, I can't be myself when I am out with him either. I tend to think a lot about what I say, how I talk, and how I behave. It's no wonder I am always dying to go home after a while. I wish I could spend the entire evening with a friend I have not met for ages, but I can't imagine being "fake" for the rest of the night.
And it was more scandals again. This time, I didn't want to know anything more. Didn't bother to probe further either. Totally can't be bothered abt his affairs. Never ever get my facts right about his flings throughout the 3-4 years I know him. I guess I just gave up getting my facts clear at some point, and never wanted to get them clear ever since..lol.
That seems to be Uni life. Flings, flings and more flings. You just never know who is serious with you. It's weird isn't it? Cos we're supposed to be studying in uni. That's the main thing, yet at some point, these rubbish issues start too.
Mum always said that dating in Uni is a better age (apparently, she changes her mind now..and thinks it's toooo early and I should probably not even think abt it) because we'll be more grown up and mature by then. But it doesn't seem so ard me. I..don't even know who is serious. I see ppl changing bf/gf so often here, and they don't even feel a thing after ditching each other. How come? Don't know why I feel soooo arghhhh abt it each time I think abt it.
What's going on in those ppl's minds huh? Relationships aren't games...don't they know? It's lame how ppl go around hurting each other for fun.
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