Haiyah! So pissing!

Woke up this morning naturally, which is good, but also realised that I had a dream...hmm...nightmare? *ponders*

I dreamt of someone and when I just remembered it..I was like "WTF!" with a shocked expression. Wah liew..of all things...*smacks forehead*

And that was not it. It kinda haunt me for a little while. I was still thinking about it in the bus and while walking to the wards for Neurology teaching session. It did make me a bit upset, which got cast aside for a bit...phew.

I started indulging in food to ease my mood a little. I don't know why I feel slightly pek chek about the dream..cos perhaps..I never ever thought I'll have it again? I don't think I want to have it either. Oh boy, was the dessert yummy. Chocolate sponge with loads of milk on it..slurp! I ate sooooooooo much during lunch that my tummy was exploding. But it was so satisfying (I did feel sleepy after a while though). Was telling Sophie that indulging in that dessert is oh so good when one's in a foul mood (she didn't know I was in a bad mood...maybe cos I was smiling and laughing)

Then I don't know why I got pek chek again when my dream just came to my mind suddenly when I'm in the Emergency unit. I tried distracting my thoughts by recalling what I studied, and it made me more pissed cos I can't seem to remember. I felt incompetent again....wah liew..after all my efforts put in....DAMN IT!

It didn't help when I went up to the bus, took out my return bus ticket, and then was told that it's single rather than a return one. What the...!!!! I paid bloody £2.30 this morning for a return, and the driver gave me a wrong ticket! I then gave a comment (while trying to look pitiful..and forgot that angmos don't buy my shit here), "...but I paid £2.30 this morning...", hoping that driver will just close one eye and let me off, but NO! He went "It says single there. It should be stated 'Return'", followed by the 'look'. Do I look that pathetic to wanna cheat on the bus fare (even though it's super expensive) huh??!?!?! I ended up paying another £1.30, and was feeling quite mad (I was already frustrated about not being able to answer some questions in hospital today plus that dream..argh) about paying extra when I'm innocent....I should have been more careful...

Wanted to go catch a movie alone to release alllllllll my frustration, and probably be home smiling and bubbly. BUT I just realise that I have not hit the standard and level of confidence I should/must be having, so I decided to give the movie a miss and drown in my books again today. But no way was I in the perfect mood to revise...yet.

Off to Marks & Spencers I went, and started my insane shopping spree. Bought food, desserts, fruits, juices, and snacks so that I can munch on them since I'm so not-in-the-best-mood. I was already indulging in my juices and food even before I got home.

It was terrible carrying so many things back. So heavy manz! Then Boots had a long queue when I was gonna pay for conditioner and health supplements. Makes everything worse. My arms and shoulder was hurting like hell when I came home. I bet it's gonna ache tomorrow. Can't believe I actually mumbled "Haiyo...if only someone can help me carry some of the load..tt'll be soooooooo sweeeeeeetttttt"...*rolls eyes*

I just wish I can just zoooooom off to bed right now, and don't wake up till dawn. Still feeling so irritated about the dream, and of course about examinations.....BAH!!!!!

Tomorrow better be a better day....NO MORE NIGHTMARES TONIGHT PRETTY PWWWEEEEAAAAASSSSSSEEEEEEEE...

Off to revise now...^*%$*£