Don't tell me u noe me cos u DON'T!

1. I don't talk much doesn't mean I am showing attitude but because there is NOTHING which is worth talking about to the other person.

2. I don't give the 'I am DARN interested in listening ya noe?' look because firstly, it is NOT interesting. Second, why do I have to fake that it's interesting when I'm probably off happier watching TV? Thirdly, why do I have to make myself listen to gossips for hours? 4th, do I have to pretend to keep nodding my head like an idiot to show active listening when I'm not even listening?

3. I don't talk doesn't mean I dislike the person or I dread being in a particular place.

4. I don't dislike ppl for no reason. I don't believe in offending anyone unless in the first place, they are giving me the attitude. Simply because why do I have to see their face when I'm not even gonna gain anything from these assholes in the long term?

5. I do admit mistakes when I make them. If I don't, it's NOT because I'm having an attitude problem but because I am dead sure/ not convinced to why I am wrong and have to apologise. I don't apologise for nothing. If I did nothing wrong, you can dream on abt me saying 'Sorry'.

6. I don't talk to my cousins because I am not interested in their brainless conversations, which I will gain nothing but end up vomiting blood.

7. I don't ask some people out because I am 100% confident that I'll get the same reply after dozens of past experiences with the same ppl.

8. I cannot understand why you have to be so defensive over her just because she's bloody 19 yrs old. 19 so?! Big deal! 19 is too young to make decisions?! 19 means u dont know what u want with your life?! Before I even turned 19, have u ever said I was too young to make a decision for my own life? Never! All I get is you being irritated and say I'm dependent and showing how immature I am by not even able to make a decision. I planned my route tt will give me a chance to fight for med sch myself since I was 13. If 19's too young to make a life choice, then why did I get told I'm immature and dependent if I say I'm in confusion and hence, having problems making a choice with my life when I was barely that age? Stop being bias!

9. I am alone because I rather be alone than be with people who piss my ass with their non stop insanity and childish, hence, making me feel very uncomfortable with them. Why should I force myself to always be out with a company that won't make my outing enjoyable? I might end up happier being out alone.

10. Why do I have to make myself go out with a gang when I know for a fact that someone in there dreads my existence around? Not as if I'm freaking gian to be out with them....got freebie for me meh?

11. I am NOT mysterious cos I don't hide my thoughts.

12. I won't waste all my energy on stupid things like trying to convince the entire world to change their opinion about me when in the first place, I am not worth anything to them. If they don't even care about me and my feelings, why bother wasting my time? Likewise, why should I be bothered about them over minor issues? Then again, of what calibre and right do they have to comment about me when I haven't said anything abt them?

13. I do break down when I'm sad, and happens so that some ppl who shouldn't know just happen to know abt it from the san gu liu po ard me. But so? Those who didn't cry in front of u means they don't or never did?

14. I am human too. I can't feel sad? I can't cry when I'm bottled up with tons of stuffs I can't tell u?

15. "Sometimes ppl know u..but u're not aware." Rubbish! If they know me in the first place, they wouldn't say such things about me. They only know the surface, but they sure don't know shit loads abt what's going on beneath.

16. If I don't feel comfortable with a person, u expect me to tell him/her everything abt me? I'm not smart, but I'm not peabrain either.

17. If ppl just happen to not like me before talking to me, what can I do? I didn't put an attitude in the first place. So what should I do? Go "Hey.......I am not like that...u GOTTTA believe me...". Dream on! Who are they?! Ppl who think I'm unworthy of being a friend are unworthy to be mine too.

18. You said I'm not nice? What do u know? You know both sides of the story? I grumble, means I'm not nice? At least I don't scheme behind anyone's back like others.

19. I'm not close to my relatives. Tell me...will it make a difference to my life if I have them and if I don't have them? Do I have anything to gain from it? I don't see myself having their support in the first place..so what's with the 'no more family' issue?

20. I don't like people who aren't simple, but trying to get into ppl's good books (like mine) when I can see their motive through and through. Hence, I don't wish to be associated with such ppl, and won't go allllllllllllll way out to save their asses unless they approach me (which obviously I'll reluctantly help). True enuff, I won't talk hell loads to such individuals because I don't like them. But since when did I reject helping them when they look for me? At least I don't go around pretending to be a saint. If I don't like it, I don't say it, but I won't put a show either.


That's just the way I am. I hate to act. I hate to put on a front to show others that I'm an angel when I am not an angel, and I won't pretend to be one. It's a title I don't deserve for sure.

So don't tell me this and that and claim that you know me...cos if I can tell u straight that you don't....it means I'm dead sure u don't. So what if u noe me more than the rest? Does that give u the right to claim that u KNOW me? Please don't piss me and urself off. Do me a favour by doing yourself a favour.