6.5 months to being Mrs Lee
6.5 more months to becoming Mrs Lee.
Despite starting preparations early, there are still lots more which needs to be done..sigh.
To be honest, the process of preparing for the big day has been quite an enjoyable one, but it would be better if Dear is more enthusiastic about it.
Then again, perhaps I've always been getting excited and planning these during the times when he's busy with work/exams. Hence, it's understandable why he doesn't show much excitement. Hopefully the situation will improve once his exams are over...yes...hopefully...
I guess I should start accepting the fact that no one is really interested in my wedding preparations. My parents have been too busy to even have time to ask me much about it. I've recently broke down quite badly because of how hurt I'm feeling about this. Dear claims things will get better when the date gets nearer; call me negative/pessimistic, but I doubt it will happen. I'm already mentally prepared to hear more "excuses" and more apologies in the coming months. What's new no?
This wedding means a lot to me, and even if no one cares, I will do my best for it. It isn't anywhere close to my ideals of a dream wedding, but unfortunately, this is the best I can do. At times, I hate the fact that I am not rich enough to hold a lavish wedding comparable to those featured in the Tatler. I have high expectations, and because my finances are limited, with it, comes just as much disappointment, and more reminders that I should face reality.
Then again, on looking back, what I can afford now is still above average and I should be feeling proud that at least, I am allowing all these to happen based on my own ability. It's still considered an achievement in life isn't it?
Less than a week to December. It's gonna be an exciting month with more wedding preparations (gown fitting, more photoshoots, confirming photos/portraits etc). Can't wait to get my hair dyed. Am also paying more attention to my skincare, but for the last 1 week, due to various reasons, my stress level has increased with even poorer quality sleep, that I'm having a pimple outbreak. Hopefully they will all subside soon. Shall try to relax and be more positive. :)
Alright, time to snooze. Another day of "war" in a few hours again...sigh...my oh-so-mundane life..
Despite starting preparations early, there are still lots more which needs to be done..sigh.
To be honest, the process of preparing for the big day has been quite an enjoyable one, but it would be better if Dear is more enthusiastic about it.
Then again, perhaps I've always been getting excited and planning these during the times when he's busy with work/exams. Hence, it's understandable why he doesn't show much excitement. Hopefully the situation will improve once his exams are over...yes...hopefully...
I guess I should start accepting the fact that no one is really interested in my wedding preparations. My parents have been too busy to even have time to ask me much about it. I've recently broke down quite badly because of how hurt I'm feeling about this. Dear claims things will get better when the date gets nearer; call me negative/pessimistic, but I doubt it will happen. I'm already mentally prepared to hear more "excuses" and more apologies in the coming months. What's new no?
This wedding means a lot to me, and even if no one cares, I will do my best for it. It isn't anywhere close to my ideals of a dream wedding, but unfortunately, this is the best I can do. At times, I hate the fact that I am not rich enough to hold a lavish wedding comparable to those featured in the Tatler. I have high expectations, and because my finances are limited, with it, comes just as much disappointment, and more reminders that I should face reality.
Then again, on looking back, what I can afford now is still above average and I should be feeling proud that at least, I am allowing all these to happen based on my own ability. It's still considered an achievement in life isn't it?
Less than a week to December. It's gonna be an exciting month with more wedding preparations (gown fitting, more photoshoots, confirming photos/portraits etc). Can't wait to get my hair dyed. Am also paying more attention to my skincare, but for the last 1 week, due to various reasons, my stress level has increased with even poorer quality sleep, that I'm having a pimple outbreak. Hopefully they will all subside soon. Shall try to relax and be more positive. :)
Alright, time to snooze. Another day of "war" in a few hours again...sigh...my oh-so-mundane life..
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