I havent been blogging for a long while. The iPad which I have bought have somewhat almost taken over the need for me to use my laptop. Unfortunately, it doesnt have an app for me to blog onto this site. Been writing short entries into my hp though.

The relationship has still been sweet overall, but the frequency of quarrels have escalated as well.

There has been quite a lot more going on with our lives. The quantity of time hasnt been compromised. The quality...has undoubtedly been affected.

I'm still trying to overcome the change and adjust to it. I havent done a good job so far, and as my expectations start to increase, the amount of disappointment escalates along.

I was excited this morning when Dear told me that his meeting will end early today, but looks like it didnt happen again.

I know he is working very hard to climb his ranks, so that he can provide me with a better life in future. I know that his working environment is tough, and it is tiring having to play mind games all the time. Coming home to see him brings him comfort, but sometimes I can't help but wonder if I'm more of a hindrance than a source of comfort for him.

I want to be a supportive fiancee, yet my disappointment has got the better of me.

Neither do I have any idea how to deal with it.

Sometimes, I wish Dear knows how I feel without having me say it out.

Then again...I'm sure he doesnt read this blog....