Missing him..
Been missing Dearie a lot for the past few days. I'm very very pleased that we're talking now, and am happy that he's giving me more attention.
Was telling him a night ago that I feel like I'm just someone who is supposed to fit in whenever he has empty time slots, but not one whom he specially makes time for. No matter what time I call, I'll never be able to talk freely to him, because he's always got something else to do in no time. There's never once I felt that I have him all to myself. There were days he took leave with an intention to specially accompany me, but it'll always be ruined for whatever reason. I thought he'll scold me for mentioning this, and I was extremely surprised when he went silent for a short while and said, "I think u're right. I have never kept some time specially for u and only for u." Even though I'm not sure if he'll do something abt this, but at least, knowing that he did put some thought into things I say makes me feel better and loved.
Once again, I took out all our photos and glanced at them before I go to bed. I have done that many times, whenever I miss him. It brings back memories, and I wish I can relive them all once more.
The one thing that makes me spend most time looking at is the present Dearie gave me. It's some rectangular thing which is placed at the shoulder for army uniforms. It's from his winter army uniform. Whenever I see it, it'll remind me of how he looked when he wore his uniform to show me when I was having my holiday in China. He looked amazing, and if he weren't my bf, I am very sure I would be attracted...hahaha...*winks* The cutting of the uniform was brilliant too.
The present I've spent so much time liaising with a company to make for Dearie will be arriving soon. I'm kinda excited to see how it looks like now, and I hope Dearie will be back soon because I am dying to see his reaction. I know chances are low now that he'll be back in time for our 2nd anniversary, but I do wish that a miracle will happen. I don't mind having no presents...his return will be my biggest present.
Was telling him a night ago that I feel like I'm just someone who is supposed to fit in whenever he has empty time slots, but not one whom he specially makes time for. No matter what time I call, I'll never be able to talk freely to him, because he's always got something else to do in no time. There's never once I felt that I have him all to myself. There were days he took leave with an intention to specially accompany me, but it'll always be ruined for whatever reason. I thought he'll scold me for mentioning this, and I was extremely surprised when he went silent for a short while and said, "I think u're right. I have never kept some time specially for u and only for u." Even though I'm not sure if he'll do something abt this, but at least, knowing that he did put some thought into things I say makes me feel better and loved.
Once again, I took out all our photos and glanced at them before I go to bed. I have done that many times, whenever I miss him. It brings back memories, and I wish I can relive them all once more.
The one thing that makes me spend most time looking at is the present Dearie gave me. It's some rectangular thing which is placed at the shoulder for army uniforms. It's from his winter army uniform. Whenever I see it, it'll remind me of how he looked when he wore his uniform to show me when I was having my holiday in China. He looked amazing, and if he weren't my bf, I am very sure I would be attracted...hahaha...*winks* The cutting of the uniform was brilliant too.
The present I've spent so much time liaising with a company to make for Dearie will be arriving soon. I'm kinda excited to see how it looks like now, and I hope Dearie will be back soon because I am dying to see his reaction. I know chances are low now that he'll be back in time for our 2nd anniversary, but I do wish that a miracle will happen. I don't mind having no presents...his return will be my biggest present.
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