All's well *crosses fingers*
Dearie and I made up. Good thing it didn't drag till dunno when, cos it was affecting me very badly. I had to take numerous "2 mins staring into blank space" to clear my mind before going back to my jobs. I couldn't even make myself attend a lunchtime meeting simply because I was desperate for some time alone.
I was determined not to call him, and to my surprise, he sent me a message, and asked if we could have a chat.
I was quite touched when he showed me more concern.
Honestly, after what happened, I am not sure if Dearie loves me as he did before. Although he insisted that it has never got lesser, part of me tells me it has changed. It did become quite a bit of concern when I begin to sense that Dearie is changing, having been home for quite a while and mixing with different people.
I expressed my concern abt his change in becoming more and more eager in building up his career and earning money (and he didn't realise it until I told him). I know these things are important, especially to a guy, but I don't really want him to become one of those guys who become obsessed about it, that nothing else matters to them anymore. He was telling me about the chats he had with the guys he went to America with, and they were mentioning that girls these days don't see how much their other half loves them as important as how much their bf/husband can earn and spend on them to give them a good life.
I'm quite a realistic person, and I admit that I, too, would love to have a bf/husband who can earn lots of money to provide me with a good life. I want to live in a good property with him, and sit in a luxurious car too. But if he doesn't love me much at all, what's the point of having him? I rather trade part of the luxury for someone who loves me.
Dearie's America trip is gonna be over soon, which is consoling. I know I sound silly for saying this, because I did encourage him to go for it, but seriously, that 2 weeks of him being there resulted in numerous problems in our relationship, so much so that I don't think I can handle anymore of this.
I was determined not to call him, and to my surprise, he sent me a message, and asked if we could have a chat.
I was quite touched when he showed me more concern.
Honestly, after what happened, I am not sure if Dearie loves me as he did before. Although he insisted that it has never got lesser, part of me tells me it has changed. It did become quite a bit of concern when I begin to sense that Dearie is changing, having been home for quite a while and mixing with different people.
I expressed my concern abt his change in becoming more and more eager in building up his career and earning money (and he didn't realise it until I told him). I know these things are important, especially to a guy, but I don't really want him to become one of those guys who become obsessed about it, that nothing else matters to them anymore. He was telling me about the chats he had with the guys he went to America with, and they were mentioning that girls these days don't see how much their other half loves them as important as how much their bf/husband can earn and spend on them to give them a good life.
I'm quite a realistic person, and I admit that I, too, would love to have a bf/husband who can earn lots of money to provide me with a good life. I want to live in a good property with him, and sit in a luxurious car too. But if he doesn't love me much at all, what's the point of having him? I rather trade part of the luxury for someone who loves me.
Dearie's America trip is gonna be over soon, which is consoling. I know I sound silly for saying this, because I did encourage him to go for it, but seriously, that 2 weeks of him being there resulted in numerous problems in our relationship, so much so that I don't think I can handle anymore of this.
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