Girls just need that boost

Looks like it's not just guys who gets the ego boost when they look fit after their hours of effort put into gym for like dunno how long. Girls need it too don't they?

At least I think I do...haha

Was just being so sianz while studying, I started surfing to look at the contestants of Miss Singapore Universe 2005. So what do I think of them? Ok, I shall be HONEST. *Clears throat*....they are tall...most of them standing at giraffe height of above 1.7m. Enuff said. Hhaha..no lah..they're fine. Yah, that's the most I can say. That's the TRUTH ok. I'm not saying that cos I'm jealous. Hey, and the surprise is...my ballet classmate is in it!!!! Goodness me!

What's with this thing with ballerinas huh? How come they're always joining some beauty pageant? Apparently, she's not the first. One of my ballet classmates won some Ford Supermodels of the World contest, another got like dunno wat for some dunno wat modelling contest as well, and now another in MSU.

I had a read through her biodata and found out that she actually passed Grade 8 and Elementary for ballet. Yes, I am shocked! She's a nice girl, quiet and all. But I didn't recall her being good at ballet. I used to be partners with her, and my ballet teacher used to throw her out of class, and got so pissed with her that she never bothered to give her much attention even before our RAD exams. I wonder what happened after I left...

But anyway, after knowing that my ex-classmates have all passed Grade 8 or even gone further to pursue their dreams in Dance makes me so envious. What would have happened if I gave up JC and Medicine for it? Let me be mean for a while...hahaha...if that classmate of mine can go that far for ballet with her kind of standard, I'm DEAD sure I can go even further. Afterall, my teacher did ask me to do the "pointe" exams before anyone in my class did during then, but I didn't!!!!! BAH!!!! All because I was worried I couldn't cope with ABRSM exams, 2 RAD exams, Nutcracker Audition, Ballet competition and O levels all at the same time. Kinda regret manz...I should have just made myself go ahead and ignore my Mum's comments. I'm sure I would have excelled in all that time. I always thought I'm a wonderwoman at that age..and proven that I was too.. Enuff bragging from me :)

I was sitting down wondering how come I'm not tall. I shall admit that joining beauty pageants was one of my childhood dreams (dun puke)..muahahaha. It just looks fun no? Tiring, but FUN! You get people to doll u up and make you look fabulous...even if you are fugly, after being dolled up...you won't look as fugly as you usually would. Plus, you get a lot of freebies...like free make up consultations since u can bomb the make up artists with your never-ending beauty questions, free skin-care consultants (again from the make up artists), free hairdo (u cant ever look THAT shitty since they've gotto make sure u look ur best on stage..hopefully u do lah that is..), free clothes to parade ard with, and probably wateva freebies u can get from sponsers. If you win, cash comes in too and maybe more freebies in future. I know I'm sounding like some cheapskate freak, but hey..why reject since it's willingly given to u and no strings attached as well (for some)?

IF ONLY I WERE TALL, SEXY, AND WITH A PRETTY FACE WITH THE BRAINS, I WILL GO AND JOIN MSU EVEN IF IT'S THE CRAPPIEST BEAUTY PAGEANT AROUND. You might even catch me in Star Search, Sg Idol (pui..no way..I'll get thrown out even if I had the figure, height, face and brains since my singing is quite terrible), Ford Supermodel, and in wateva beauty pageants available. Of cos, that's if I don't win any lah..then I'll keep joining again and again...just to prove how self-obsessed I am and desperate to win. The last point was just a joke. But the participation in beauty pageant is for real.

Mum used to tell me when I was young that she'll doll me up and make me pretty, so that I can go join University Pageants and become the Queen. Mum's a chiobu when she's young, and obsessed with her looks and dressing, so naturally people would expect her to groom her little girl up, but unfortunately NOT. She's always saying "Make up is BAD for u", "Modelling is BAD!", "Beauty pageants are for vain pots", "Don't waste time on pageants lah..studies come first!" etc etc. Sigh...take a look at me...*shakes head*...

And thanks to the bad genes I've got, I'm "blessed" with short legs, miserable height of 156cm, fugly face, and not-so-good brains...basically everything that will get me thrown out or not even meeting the criteria of joining any contest. Imagine even in a small island like Singapore where the girls are of typical Asian height, I'm still too short to join MSU (the min. height's 165cm)...how pathetic can this ever get?

SO...instead of whining about my physique and end up wishing I was this and that, I shall make do with what I've got, and make myself less fuglier. Here's the to-do-list:

1. Eat more for a rounder face..aiming to put on 5-6 kg..
2. Rid the marks left by previous pimples on my face..especially the one on the left cheek!
3. Healthy diet (I'll try my best) for healthy hair..
4. Hair treatment (if I can afford it in UK)
5. Skin care for a better complexion
6. Drink more water cos it's said to be beneficial for the skin
7. Take my vitamins and minerals faithfully for a healthy overall

I'm not expecting great results though...but I'll still give it a shot. I just need some confidence boost....hahahaa...

OH...I took some freebies today during placement. The drug rep came around to the hospital today to introduce some new drugs. I just love them cos whenever they're around, they'll place freebies on the tables which we can just take. I heard that they don't like medical students much cos we're the ones who always take the most freebies when they can earn nothing from us since we're never ever gonna buy the drugs from them..but then again, they really need us around to finish up the food they cater for the doctors. It'll be such a waste to see the food end up in the bin no? Doctors r usually too busy with patients to have a decent lunch, so medical students will tend to finish up everything.

Anyway, I took 2 ballpoint pens which look pretty classy and a thermal mug! Sophie was damn funny...she was eyeing on ALL the freebies ( pens, thermal mug and the nicely-placed-in-a-case pen torch). But there were only 2 torches around, and she felt too pai seh if she were to take one.

We were really pleased with the thermal mug. What a wonderful freebie. I have never gotten a freebie this great. The best one before was a diary.

And the sponsered lunch was good as well, despite it being the usual sandwiches and finger foods. But there was so much going around, we had such a filling lunch and got so full that we nearly dozed off during lunch-time meeting/lecture on Infective Endocarditis. :X

On the way back, Sophie told me about her friend's date with the 36 yr old bank manager (I just got to know tt he's 36 and not 32). Her friend had a really nice time with him (the word nice sounds abit *clear throat*), but Sophie thinks that her friend's not too serious about it cos she just aiming to shag him in their next few dates. I got a shock when she told me that!!!!!! What's wrong with angmos manz?!!?!?!?

I accidentally said to her, "Doesn't it feel weird to shag someone u don't like or love?". And all Sophie did was to laugh and say with a cheeky smile, "It depends..". Wah liew...that sounded so erm...!!!!!!!! I think she must be thinking I'm some freak for saying that. *blush*

Angmos are scary. You never know if the opposite sex is going out with u because he/she is interested in u or just wanting to shag. But I'm sure there are REALLY decent ones around and believes in only sex after marriage. At least I think there r decent ones in my batch. Then again, I never know...zhi ren zhi mian bu zhi xin...hahahaa...not my biz also lah...

(And how I wish that sickening woman staying downstairs will stop screaming at the top of her voice for my housemate...her screams can wake the dead up from their grave...I feel like flushing her down my disgusting toilet bowl now...)