Not too bad a day

Managed to get more info about accomodation, and I think the path's getting clearer..which is pretty good. :) Hopefully, I can set my mind at ease about it by the end of this week..

I'm so happy when Fatimah rang me when I was browsing through some medical books at Blackwell's. She wanted to see how I was as she found out that I'm back in UK.

It was wonderful seeing her at my place when I got home straight after putting down the phone. Had a chat with her about my accomodation problem, and about some sensitive issues regarding housemates.

I'm really thankful for the advice she offered, and I definitely feel less lost as I was before. I kinda know what's the next step to take regarding housing now.

I guess because it's a Wednesday, so everyone's pretty slack and lazy. Since she's not in the mood to do anything serious and she wanted to have a private talk with me (more gossips and sensitive issues of cos..), we decided to go down to the City Centre for a girly time and settle dinner there as well.

UCB was on sale, and I bought this nice corduroy (is that how u spell it?) jacket for only £9.90 (ard $30)!!!! How cheap's that?! The original price was £25...fantastic slash on the price isn't it? I shall wear it during the spring/summer months.. :)

There was a crazy snow today in Cardiff. When we saw people coming into the shopping complex all covered with snow in their hair, we dashed right out into the open. Gosh, we were both so excited and jumping around under the snow. It was freezing though, but for once, it was nice having someone being excited together with me when it's snowing.

Had dinner at Chicken Cottage. The chicken's not very nice, but it's cheap for UK standards. Talked about sensitive issues with her over dinner, and she shared her 2 cents worth with me, which I'm really grateful for. Sometimes...you just need someone to be ard to give u some support for decisions...to make u feel more confident of the choices u make in life...to broaden your sight for more options. I rarely get this in UK, and hence, I am kinda thrown to make decisions myself, and rely on no one but myself (which tires me out terribly at times). I never had to make much decisions for myself until I came here to study. Feels as if I'm thrown into some deep sea to swim on my own. Although Dad still claims that I can't take care of myself, but I think the 4 yrs..somehow, changed me a lot. To some, the changed me's a better me, but some beg to differ. What do u think? If I owned a time machine, I really would wish to see how I was like many years ago..haha..maybe Huishan and Ruoying can tell me what an ass I was in BVSS.

Then, later in the evening, Yichong and Steven asked if I wanted to go to Tesco's!!!! Would u believe it?! I haven't had such an invitation for eons! I promised Fatimah that I will go with her to Tesco's tmr to get our groceries, but cos this invite was too shocking, I agreed to go with them, and rang Fatimah up to see if she wanted to come along with us. For once, I felt belonged to the house, rather than an outcast. When Alyssa (Yichong's gf), Jeff and the other kampong ppl were ard, I rarely got invited to go for such an outing. I hope there'll be more such "supermarket trips" in the next few mths. I felt really happy...heez... (Hmm...r they being nice cos of the adapter? oh well...nvm..shall not bother..)

Yichong said something which made everyone luff in the car..

Yichong: Wah...we damn happening today..

Me: Happening? Where got?

Yichong: Got! We are going to Tesco's together today...Steven, You and Me...so happening manz! It's the most happening day in my life in Cardiff ever since the start of my forth yr.

Steven: Go tesco's then happening?! Yah..actually quite happening..hahahahahahaa...

Me: Huh? Really? It's that bad? I didn't know...

Fatimah: What have u been doing? It's just going to the supermarket and u're saying it's happening..you should try to hang out more with Michelle and me. We go out sometimes together in the evenings isn't it, Michelle?

Michelle: Yeah..not often..but at least there were a few occasions..like for meals and stuff..

Fatimah: We go out more then. Watch movie or something, but there isn't any nice ones at the moment..

Hahaha...goodness. I can't believe that life in Cardiff can be THAT boring to the extent that going to Tesco's happening. What a joke!

I also managed to get more info abt 4th yr in med sch, and about the accomodation in the various hospitals ard Wales. Apparently, it seems that Swansea's got thumbs up from all the 4th yrs that I know of. Teaching's good, accomodation provided by the hospital there's good (free broadband, rooms are not bad), free bfast and lunch, and u can even keep free cereals for dinner. Yichong told me his classmate told him that she ate like a bitch since the food's free up in Swansea..hahah..what a way to describe her massive appetite..ate like a bitch...sheesh. I seriously don't mind being posted up there if I get to my 4th year manz. Can take the opportunity to play in Swansea too. Fatimah told me that the other accoms which she got up in North Wales was good as well...pretty new and extremely near to the hospital she got posted to for one of her placements. Their comments just makes me so enthusiastic to hurry up get my practical exam over and done with, and go into 4th year. Oh yes, and in 4th yr, there's no coursework too, meaning we can concentrate fully on clinicals and our exams!!!! Oh boy, isn't that great?! I dread coursework so so much..always pulls my grades down..

Back to me mentioning about boring life in Cardiff, looks like I will have to find some other stuffs to perk up my life here and try to drag them out with me. Nope, it's not me trying not to be an Ice Queen (I look like one doesn't mean I'm one ok?!). Just that I'm really touched about what happened today, and I guess..I should try to take the chance to build a stronger friendship bond with them? Afterall...I have to admit I'm tired of being alone ALL the bloody time here in UK. I'm not sure if I will get the same rejection responses like the numerous trials I did like before, but after what happened today, I feel a strong drive to give it a shot again one day. Yet, I know I fear rejection..I don't want to be disappointed again..I don't like that feeling..

I guess..I'm just tired of being misunderstood as a person. I never cared much abt it before (unless ppl I treasure a lot a lot a lot misunderstands me)..but I've been thinking about it these few nights. Why's that..?