The gift of sight and hearing
Tonight's entry is gonna be a little long. I have so much to say...I think.
Sight and hearing. I feel truly blessed for having these. And I felt even more blessed when I saw these 6 individuals.
I went to watch 2046 on Friday. As it was a 7pm movie, I went to have dinner at McDonalds first. I am not a fastfood girl, but I must say that I quite like their new seafood stuff. And cos I spent quite a lot on myself in the afternoon, I decided that I should eat fastfood rather than go into some fancy restaurant for a real good meal. So off to Mc I went.
It was crowded on a Friday evening, and I was being very stupid by telling the counter girl that I'm eating in, even before finding a seat. As expected, there wasn't any, and I didn't want to approach some stranger and go "Hi. Would you mind if we share the table?". It's ok to do that in a hawker centre, but I have yet done such things in Mc, and I think it's gonna look awkward. Besides, those tables with "available" seats are occupied by guys..as in 1 guy per table. And what would people think if I went up to him and ask to share the table? I definitely don't want anyone to get the wrong idea. Worse if I asked, and then out of the blue, his gf came over (you'll know why I said this in a bit)....*rolls eyes*
Anyway, back to me feeling blessed.
Cos the only pathetic seats were the ones darn near the counters, I just happily sat there and enjoy my McDippers. Next to where I was, were 6 handicapped people. They were having a gathering. I found one looking a little abnormal, so being the curious me, I took a few more glances at him. Good thing he didn't notice, or maybe he did, but didn't bother about me. I then realised he's communicating with the others around him in sign language. Soon, I realised that all the others with him were all doing the same. They can't talk, and I suppose they can't hear too.
I wanted to look more at them, cos I wanted to study them...physically and emotionally. But I didn't want them to feel odd, so I refrained myself, and while eating, I sank into deep thoughts.
What a coincidence. Just a few days ago, I was sitting down and asking myself this question. At the Bond concert, I asked myself this again. I asked myself...what would life be like for me if I were to lose my sight and/or my ability to hear. I sat down and wondered.
Being a person who loves the arts, I think I will feel extremely depressed.
For these people, they can still see. But they can't hear. If I can't hear, I wouldn't be able to enjoy music. I wouldn't be able to move my feet with music. I wouldn't feel the urge to dance with it. Music would never be part of my life...and never will be. Worse if I was borned deaf. I wouldn't even know what music is, how it's like, what kind of joy it can bring. If I became deaf at a later age, then maybe I will still be able to play it in my head. I reckon that was how Beethoven composed his pieces. He must have "heard" his pieces in his head, and then pen them down.
Then I went on to ask myself about sight. Ballet's my love, my passion. If I were borned blind, I won't know what dance is. Anyone can describe and tell me how wonderful ballet is, but I won't be able to see it. I can imagine it, but I won't be able to find out if my imagination is real..if it's true. I won't be able to dance too. If I became blind at a later stage, I will be given the benefit of knowing what ballet is, but the emotionally traumatising thing would be..I won't be able to dance anymore, and I won't be able to watch it. I won't be able to see anyone too.
I wonder how many believe in this. One's eyes can tell you many many things. Have you ever noticed that sometimes, when you ask a person about what is troubling him/her, and when he/she doesn't answer you, you can see them he/she is going through a lot..and is feeling very very sad..just by looking right into their eyes? No matter how they try to hide it, their eyes betray them totally.
If I lose my sight, I won't be able to see other's eyes anymore. I won't be able to see the ones I love. I can only try to feel how they feel..which I think is risky. I rather see than to feel my own way through.
What do you people think? Comments..can leave them in the comments area. That "comment" function is VERY underutilised. (How come everyone rather use the tagboard ha?)
Don't you feel fortunate now that you're able to read my blog (cos you can SEE) and hear your mum's nags (cos you can HEAR)? I certainly do.
Ok. Next topic. My TAKUYA CRAZE. "Not again??!?!?!" I hear. Errr..yah..not again...TOO BAD.
It was triple SIAO day for me on Friday. I went gaga thrice:
1. you Weekly
2. i Weekly
3. 2046 movie
I headed for the newsstand near Heeren before Jap class. I thought maybe they will sell it, but they had the one with Maggie on the cover. I asked the guy if he's got the Takuya one, and he luffed and said, "Sold out already". -.- Luff simi luff...bleah.. He told me to try Kinokuniya. BUT BUT BUT...I bought something before leaving :) My consolation for not being able to find the Takuya cover....and that is "you weekly". Cos the cover also got Takuya..ha!
After that, horrid Michelle became a very bad student on that day. She left her bag in class, and then she just ran away from the class, to go to Kinokuniya. And there wasn't the Takuya one there too. Never mind. She shall not give up. So down she went to the basement to find another shop. None too. Great...
I was damn sianz liao..spoil mood manz. I went back to class, but I was still feeling pleased with my consolation mag.
After class, I continued searching for it. None at 7 Eleven too. Then this very nice auntie told me the Indian "store" outside Dhoby Ghaut MRT might have. So I ran there..yah..I RAN (chong ah!!!!!!!!!!!". And.....tada!!!!!! There was Takuya on the cover! I happily bought it, and was actually hopping around. Even the Indian uncle know I'm elated. He gave me a smile..heez. Thank you uncle!!!!
I was smiling like an idiot on the road too..and hugging my mag (heng, I didn't kiss my mag..). The people next to me must be thinking I'm crazy. WHO CARES?!
Then I headed to do my brows..and when I was doing it, this silly thought came into my head. Without much consideration, I went ahead with it. Pedicure.
First time doing it, and it was...exciting. But so freaky long. It was nicely painted with a sweet pink, but I felt so uncomfortable seeing the new look on my toes, I asked the lady to changed it to a very very nude colour. And it's as good as never put..not obvious at all. I'll be more daring after a few sessions. Will be waiting to put SIA's signature red one day.
Manicure will be done in maybe a month? Nails too short, too ugly also..heez. Will see how things go.
Now to the movie. 2046. The show's not nice. So much sex and intimate scenes. I felt so sianz, and I wanted to leave...couldn't wait for it to end. But I didn't leave cos I wanted to see more of Takuya. I got excited when he appeared in the movie. He's damn handsome inside. I like his look when he was the guest in the hotel..and when he was wearing this white shirt with his sleeves folded up.
In the show, the cheongsams are so beautiful. Have I ever mentioned that I love cheongsams? I'm aiming to make one one day when I get married (if I ever get married). It'll be great to get one very nice piece done in Shanghai. Zhang Ziyi look damn good in the movie. I love her clothes and hairdo. So classy and glamourous. Too bad I'm not blessed with that to-kill-figure, height and looks.
Suddenly, my cupboard's full of "new" clothes. My brother threw me all his old clothes, which he can't fit in anymore. Will wear them at home. They're so baggy..comfy manz. And for those rugby tops, the sleeves are too short, but the body part fits well. Doesn't matter cos I'll push the sleeves up..so it'll look like it's for my size. No one will know. Yay..new clothes to wear. But I should learn to dress more like a girl..as in wear more feminine clothes...like dresses.
Oh! I forgot to mention about the "gf" issue. Sorry!!!
Here's what happened..
I went to watch 2046 myself. Happily sat down. Then came this guy alone..note..he was ALONE. He didn't sit beside me, but next to the one next to me. I thought he was gonna watch the movie alone too and the seat between us will be empty. I never like putting my bag on floors outside (unless I got no choice), so I placed my bag on that empty seat. He didn't say anything, didn't look at me too. I took it as he didn't mind.
Then after a while, this girl came and I let her through. I thought she was sitting somewhere else in my row, but nope, it was that seat and that guy's her bf! When she saw that my bag was on that seat, she gave me a fierce stare. OEI CHAR BOR, WHAT'S THAT LOOK FOR?! She opened her eyes so big, as if she wanted to eat me up! The look she gave was like...erm..as if someone stole her bf from her before her very eyes and invited her to watch it. Since I was wrong, I apologised and took my bag away. She continued having that look on her face and sat down in a buay song manner. I was then thinking, "Oei woman, u gimme ur bf for free also I don't want. And wipe that fucked up look from your face. I do have this urge of slapping you ya noe? Wanna kiss my ass?"
*clears throat* ok, that was evil of me. I should more peace-loving...
Check out my angel wings! Just kidding lah. I've actually got a long speare-headed tail.
Sight and hearing. I feel truly blessed for having these. And I felt even more blessed when I saw these 6 individuals.
I went to watch 2046 on Friday. As it was a 7pm movie, I went to have dinner at McDonalds first. I am not a fastfood girl, but I must say that I quite like their new seafood stuff. And cos I spent quite a lot on myself in the afternoon, I decided that I should eat fastfood rather than go into some fancy restaurant for a real good meal. So off to Mc I went.
It was crowded on a Friday evening, and I was being very stupid by telling the counter girl that I'm eating in, even before finding a seat. As expected, there wasn't any, and I didn't want to approach some stranger and go "Hi. Would you mind if we share the table?". It's ok to do that in a hawker centre, but I have yet done such things in Mc, and I think it's gonna look awkward. Besides, those tables with "available" seats are occupied by guys..as in 1 guy per table. And what would people think if I went up to him and ask to share the table? I definitely don't want anyone to get the wrong idea. Worse if I asked, and then out of the blue, his gf came over (you'll know why I said this in a bit)....*rolls eyes*
Anyway, back to me feeling blessed.
Cos the only pathetic seats were the ones darn near the counters, I just happily sat there and enjoy my McDippers. Next to where I was, were 6 handicapped people. They were having a gathering. I found one looking a little abnormal, so being the curious me, I took a few more glances at him. Good thing he didn't notice, or maybe he did, but didn't bother about me. I then realised he's communicating with the others around him in sign language. Soon, I realised that all the others with him were all doing the same. They can't talk, and I suppose they can't hear too.
I wanted to look more at them, cos I wanted to study them...physically and emotionally. But I didn't want them to feel odd, so I refrained myself, and while eating, I sank into deep thoughts.
What a coincidence. Just a few days ago, I was sitting down and asking myself this question. At the Bond concert, I asked myself this again. I asked myself...what would life be like for me if I were to lose my sight and/or my ability to hear. I sat down and wondered.
Being a person who loves the arts, I think I will feel extremely depressed.
For these people, they can still see. But they can't hear. If I can't hear, I wouldn't be able to enjoy music. I wouldn't be able to move my feet with music. I wouldn't feel the urge to dance with it. Music would never be part of my life...and never will be. Worse if I was borned deaf. I wouldn't even know what music is, how it's like, what kind of joy it can bring. If I became deaf at a later age, then maybe I will still be able to play it in my head. I reckon that was how Beethoven composed his pieces. He must have "heard" his pieces in his head, and then pen them down.
Then I went on to ask myself about sight. Ballet's my love, my passion. If I were borned blind, I won't know what dance is. Anyone can describe and tell me how wonderful ballet is, but I won't be able to see it. I can imagine it, but I won't be able to find out if my imagination is real..if it's true. I won't be able to dance too. If I became blind at a later stage, I will be given the benefit of knowing what ballet is, but the emotionally traumatising thing would be..I won't be able to dance anymore, and I won't be able to watch it. I won't be able to see anyone too.
I wonder how many believe in this. One's eyes can tell you many many things. Have you ever noticed that sometimes, when you ask a person about what is troubling him/her, and when he/she doesn't answer you, you can see them he/she is going through a lot..and is feeling very very sad..just by looking right into their eyes? No matter how they try to hide it, their eyes betray them totally.
If I lose my sight, I won't be able to see other's eyes anymore. I won't be able to see the ones I love. I can only try to feel how they feel..which I think is risky. I rather see than to feel my own way through.
What do you people think? Comments..can leave them in the comments area. That "comment" function is VERY underutilised. (How come everyone rather use the tagboard ha?)
Don't you feel fortunate now that you're able to read my blog (cos you can SEE) and hear your mum's nags (cos you can HEAR)? I certainly do.
Ok. Next topic. My TAKUYA CRAZE. "Not again??!?!?!" I hear. Errr..yah..not again...TOO BAD.
It was triple SIAO day for me on Friday. I went gaga thrice:
1. you Weekly
2. i Weekly
3. 2046 movie
I headed for the newsstand near Heeren before Jap class. I thought maybe they will sell it, but they had the one with Maggie on the cover. I asked the guy if he's got the Takuya one, and he luffed and said, "Sold out already". -.- Luff simi luff...bleah.. He told me to try Kinokuniya. BUT BUT BUT...I bought something before leaving :) My consolation for not being able to find the Takuya cover....and that is "you weekly". Cos the cover also got Takuya..ha!
After that, horrid Michelle became a very bad student on that day. She left her bag in class, and then she just ran away from the class, to go to Kinokuniya. And there wasn't the Takuya one there too. Never mind. She shall not give up. So down she went to the basement to find another shop. None too. Great...
I was damn sianz liao..spoil mood manz. I went back to class, but I was still feeling pleased with my consolation mag.
After class, I continued searching for it. None at 7 Eleven too. Then this very nice auntie told me the Indian "store" outside Dhoby Ghaut MRT might have. So I ran there..yah..I RAN (chong ah!!!!!!!!!!!". And.....tada!!!!!! There was Takuya on the cover! I happily bought it, and was actually hopping around. Even the Indian uncle know I'm elated. He gave me a smile..heez. Thank you uncle!!!!
I was smiling like an idiot on the road too..and hugging my mag (heng, I didn't kiss my mag..). The people next to me must be thinking I'm crazy. WHO CARES?!
Then I headed to do my brows..and when I was doing it, this silly thought came into my head. Without much consideration, I went ahead with it. Pedicure.
First time doing it, and it was...exciting. But so freaky long. It was nicely painted with a sweet pink, but I felt so uncomfortable seeing the new look on my toes, I asked the lady to changed it to a very very nude colour. And it's as good as never put..not obvious at all. I'll be more daring after a few sessions. Will be waiting to put SIA's signature red one day.
Manicure will be done in maybe a month? Nails too short, too ugly also..heez. Will see how things go.
Now to the movie. 2046. The show's not nice. So much sex and intimate scenes. I felt so sianz, and I wanted to leave...couldn't wait for it to end. But I didn't leave cos I wanted to see more of Takuya. I got excited when he appeared in the movie. He's damn handsome inside. I like his look when he was the guest in the hotel..and when he was wearing this white shirt with his sleeves folded up.
In the show, the cheongsams are so beautiful. Have I ever mentioned that I love cheongsams? I'm aiming to make one one day when I get married (if I ever get married). It'll be great to get one very nice piece done in Shanghai. Zhang Ziyi look damn good in the movie. I love her clothes and hairdo. So classy and glamourous. Too bad I'm not blessed with that to-kill-figure, height and looks.
Suddenly, my cupboard's full of "new" clothes. My brother threw me all his old clothes, which he can't fit in anymore. Will wear them at home. They're so baggy..comfy manz. And for those rugby tops, the sleeves are too short, but the body part fits well. Doesn't matter cos I'll push the sleeves up..so it'll look like it's for my size. No one will know. Yay..new clothes to wear. But I should learn to dress more like a girl..as in wear more feminine clothes...like dresses.
Oh! I forgot to mention about the "gf" issue. Sorry!!!
Here's what happened..
I went to watch 2046 myself. Happily sat down. Then came this guy alone..note..he was ALONE. He didn't sit beside me, but next to the one next to me. I thought he was gonna watch the movie alone too and the seat between us will be empty. I never like putting my bag on floors outside (unless I got no choice), so I placed my bag on that empty seat. He didn't say anything, didn't look at me too. I took it as he didn't mind.
Then after a while, this girl came and I let her through. I thought she was sitting somewhere else in my row, but nope, it was that seat and that guy's her bf! When she saw that my bag was on that seat, she gave me a fierce stare. OEI CHAR BOR, WHAT'S THAT LOOK FOR?! She opened her eyes so big, as if she wanted to eat me up! The look she gave was like...erm..as if someone stole her bf from her before her very eyes and invited her to watch it. Since I was wrong, I apologised and took my bag away. She continued having that look on her face and sat down in a buay song manner. I was then thinking, "Oei woman, u gimme ur bf for free also I don't want. And wipe that fucked up look from your face. I do have this urge of slapping you ya noe? Wanna kiss my ass?"
*clears throat* ok, that was evil of me. I should more peace-loving...
Check out my angel wings! Just kidding lah. I've actually got a long speare-headed tail.
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