Gap year
As promised, I'll update my blog with the results.
I passed all my theory papers, but I flunk my practical by 3 marks. I tried to negotiate with my medical school, but unfortunately, they were not able to help me with it.
I guess Dr Winterburn was being kind enough by giving 2 options. Either I have a resit in end August or do it in May. He was more for the latter option as he felt that August would be too rush period for me.
He advised me that May is better because from the start of my summer vacation onwards, I'll be able to fully keep my mind away from school for a while, giving me sufficient time to fully recuperate and be all recharged again. He said a period back home would do me good. I didn't want to be home for too long a period and be deprived of carrying on to the 4th year, so I tried negotiating, but there are just certain criteria that had to be met.
He mentioned that the medical school was impressed with my results, for I was able to cope with my condition, passing all my papers, do the project and cope with clinicals. Did he mean it? I don't know. I wasn't impressed with myself. I knew I underperformed. I definitely don't deserve to flunk my clinicals.
Had a discussion with dad about it. He too felt the 2nd option was better. So most likely I'll go for the 2nd one. Looks like a gap year is inevitable now and I'll just go back to UK to take the clinical exam in May. I won't have to worry about completing theory papers and assignments.
I am sad, but I feel horrible because I couldn't cry. My tears just can't roll out. Although I know what the next few mths will be like for me, I still am unable to see what the future lies for me beyond that period.
Till now, I'm wondering if this decision to be made is a good one. It's great that I can be in SG for many many many mths, but it comes with a price. This is indeed a major setback in my life. I reckon I'll never ever forget it...no way.
I do feel like a failure at the moment. I think I will require some time to get over it. It's not just about flunking an exam. I have no idea how to face my relatives when I return. What will they say? I know I shouldn't even care, but is it that easy for me?
I passed all my theory papers, but I flunk my practical by 3 marks. I tried to negotiate with my medical school, but unfortunately, they were not able to help me with it.
I guess Dr Winterburn was being kind enough by giving 2 options. Either I have a resit in end August or do it in May. He was more for the latter option as he felt that August would be too rush period for me.
He advised me that May is better because from the start of my summer vacation onwards, I'll be able to fully keep my mind away from school for a while, giving me sufficient time to fully recuperate and be all recharged again. He said a period back home would do me good. I didn't want to be home for too long a period and be deprived of carrying on to the 4th year, so I tried negotiating, but there are just certain criteria that had to be met.
He mentioned that the medical school was impressed with my results, for I was able to cope with my condition, passing all my papers, do the project and cope with clinicals. Did he mean it? I don't know. I wasn't impressed with myself. I knew I underperformed. I definitely don't deserve to flunk my clinicals.
Had a discussion with dad about it. He too felt the 2nd option was better. So most likely I'll go for the 2nd one. Looks like a gap year is inevitable now and I'll just go back to UK to take the clinical exam in May. I won't have to worry about completing theory papers and assignments.
I am sad, but I feel horrible because I couldn't cry. My tears just can't roll out. Although I know what the next few mths will be like for me, I still am unable to see what the future lies for me beyond that period.
Till now, I'm wondering if this decision to be made is a good one. It's great that I can be in SG for many many many mths, but it comes with a price. This is indeed a major setback in my life. I reckon I'll never ever forget it...no way.
I do feel like a failure at the moment. I think I will require some time to get over it. It's not just about flunking an exam. I have no idea how to face my relatives when I return. What will they say? I know I shouldn't even care, but is it that easy for me?
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