I don't feel anything..

Isn't it amazing that I'm still happily stuck at home at this hour when I should be going to school to 'see my results' or to go and C O N G R A T U L A T E others when I don't even know what's gonna happen to me? It's not that I'm jealous. I just dont want attention or see any crowd.

I wasn't the least bothered. Kept sleeping, with no feeling of fright or nervousness. I managed to sleep and woke up at a late hr of 2pm.

I was feeling a bit better..less angry..when Jason called and knock some sense into me. I was rantling a little about my Mum. But forget it. Just refrain from calling home for some time then. I don't wish to speak to her for a while.

I am not smiling today. Neither am I sad. I am in a daze. 2 years ago, I felt the same too, with an additional fear. Fear that I will fail. But this time, I wont even be surprised if I failed..but if it really happens (touch wood), I will be sad I reckon.

Am supposed to go shopping today, but I guess I've changed my mind. My mood's ruined. Like now, I don't even feel like doing my project.

I wish I had a car. I would probably take a drive around, going to the place Alex brought me before to see the 'special' island. With the sun out today, I reckon it will be a beautiful sight. This island's special because it has a path to the mainland when the tide is low, but when the tide is high, the path is under the sea, and you won't be able to go over to the mainland. The island's just a round piece of land with very green pastures. Perfect place for a picnic. I remember he brought me there to chill when I was facing some problems a year ago. But the thing is, I can't remember how to get there. It isn't very near.

I guess what I want most now is to just to talk to Jason..talk abt anything...I don't wish to talk to anyone else..