Career wise, nothing has changed. Still sucks, still as demoralising, still as frustrating, and still as complicated as ever.

But amidst the shittiness, Dear reminded me of how lucky I am.

I may not have many friends, but at least there is a few whom I can call/msg to rant about my frustrations at work. Dear has met them, and he does agree that these friends of mine are worth the friendship. It definitely isn't easy to find someone u trust enough to share how you feel about certain things.

The relationship seems like the only thing that keeps me going, and giving me hope that there is something to look forward to at the end of the day.

Being able to hug Dear and smell him (even though he does smell a bit in that green uniform on a hot day) brings me consolation.

Now that things have more or less stabilised (parents wise), I am beginning to feel more at ease with my relationship.

If my leave gets approved, I might be going on an overseas trip with Dear in June. Am really looking forward to it. It will be our first overseas trip together, after so many months of struggle to get my parents to accept the relationship. HK Disneyland is where we aim to go....praying hard that my dream will come true soon... :)

The proposal...hmm...am still waiting though. But wedding plans are in progress. Perhaps I've been too efficient that now we're just left with the big task of booking the hotel banquet. Dear claims that at the rate we go, all plannings will be completed even before he proposes officially. And in no time, I'll be grumbling that I'll be bored since there is nothing else left to plan...hmmm.. Oh well, shall take a step back, and let him fully concentrate on his proposal first (looking forward to it since he claims that he has big plans for this and is to be carried out with military precision..).

Had quite a big quarrel a few days ago with him, and I'm glad that we have made up.

Dear: I thought I was going to lose you after that quarrel. And after hugging you and hearing what you said, something told me that I must never lose you ever again.
Me: What is it?
Dear: You said you hated me...
Me: Hmm?
Dear: You said you hated me because no matter how I upset you and how angry you get at me, you still can't help but worry for me, worrying if I have eaten dinner. This is the most touching words I have heard. *kiss*
Me: :)

I am loving him more and more as time goes by.