Time out

There's an urge to blog, but my mind's too exhausted to organise thoughts.

Yesterday, I have told CG my decision to take a break from our rship. I have tried my very best to push on, but it has now gotten to a point whereby I need to take a step back, and be "away" for a while.

There's too much between us which needs to be solved, but I'm too exhausted to solve them. At least not now.

I still love him, and it hurts me knowing that he's extremely depressed over the decision I made. I can feel his pain from the messages he has sent me.

Honestly, I would love to be his gf again. I miss him very very much, and if only it is ever possible, I do wish that he's next to me now. I miss touching his face, studying his features when he's asleep, holding his hands, feeling the warmth of his lips, his hugs and the unique smell on him which never fails to make me feel comfortable and secure.

I don't think I have made up my mind to leave him permanently as yet, unless it is fated that something happens in between.

All I know for now is that I need to get away from it all. Not to solve problems, but time to free myself.....