Still loving him

Putting someone's emotions through a test is the best way to tell how much a particular person means to him/her.

Yesterday, Dearie sent a message meant for his friend to me accidentally. It was a message asking his friend to decide on a venue for dinner. Although I couldn't tell if the name was a female or male, I didn't bother asking and assumed that it must be a guy, since Dearie doesn't like talking to girls and hates it when they pester him.

Today, he sent another message meant for a friend to me again. And after reading the message, I knew it was a female pal of his. It was one of those messages which could either look like one to console a person or one to reject. Feelings naturally started stirring within me, and my tears just started rolling the moment I heard his voice over the phone. He hadn't realised that I have received the message instead, and hence, guessed that I must be having some unhealthy thoughts when he heard me sniffing.

I felt better when he explained what had happened, even though I had no idea why girls tend to like looking for him when they're having problems with their rships or feeling lonely.

This reminded me of the incident of me reading a message left by a female friend of his once by coincidence, which got Dearie got all panicky when I just walked out of the room without a word.

Anyway, how I felt instantly today just assured me that my feelings for Dearie are still going strong despite all the ups n downs.