Proud of Dearie
Dearie's just started his new job recently, and most days, he's working overtime. On his first day at work, he was already asked to work overnight.
It has been very tiring for him to cope with his long work hours, night classes and revision. Despite all that, I appreciate his efforts to send me messages whenever he can during the day, and contact me everyday. It's always nice to know how his day has been, and pleasing to know that at the end of the day, I have been thought of. Even if he's doing something else, we'll still be leaving the webcam on, and it keeps me happy just seeing him.
It pains me to see how tired he is, and I wish so much to be next to him in China to make him a nice cup of green tea and give him a hug to make him feel better. Am planning to go to Beijing around September for about a month, since I'll be having a few months' break before starting my new job. Shall go over and be the little housewife during then - house cleaning, preparing his meals (and delivering it if he's working overtime), grocery shopping, laundry, preparing his clothes for work :)
Dearie is handling a project at the moment, and he was telling me how he had to tolerate the snobbish attitude of the staff of his client. A guilt came over me at that point, because I know Dearie could have been a government official with greater power than those people and be in a position to thumb these people down. But it's because of me that he refused the job, and decided to seek his own means of survival.
Although he only brings back a reasonable salary (for China's standards), my love for him has grown even more through this. He has become more attractive in my eyes because he has changed so much for me. When I first knew him, he was a guy who doesn't look at price tags when buying anything, spends without giving a 2nd thought, says nasty things to me at times without considering my feelings and shouts/scolds people who irritates him in any way (esp on the roads). But now, he looks at price tags when we go shopping, thinks before he spends, and doesn't shout at people he doesn't know who irritates him (even though u can still tell that he's irritated when he walks away or doesn't seem to want to talk much). He doesn't horn unless necessary on the roads too. He rarely says nasty things to me now, and if he does, he apologises soon too. He's also becoming more responsible towards our rship by making sure we're in touch in one way or another everyday (he gets quite upset if he doesn't hear from me for even one day now). And most importantly, he has learnt to become less dependent by sourcing for his own job himself, learning slowly to see how the commercialised world is like without relying on anyone, and working towards his so-called 5 year plan for us.
This, makes me proud having him (even though it sucks that I still have a long wait more to go).
It has been very tiring for him to cope with his long work hours, night classes and revision. Despite all that, I appreciate his efforts to send me messages whenever he can during the day, and contact me everyday. It's always nice to know how his day has been, and pleasing to know that at the end of the day, I have been thought of. Even if he's doing something else, we'll still be leaving the webcam on, and it keeps me happy just seeing him.
It pains me to see how tired he is, and I wish so much to be next to him in China to make him a nice cup of green tea and give him a hug to make him feel better. Am planning to go to Beijing around September for about a month, since I'll be having a few months' break before starting my new job. Shall go over and be the little housewife during then - house cleaning, preparing his meals (and delivering it if he's working overtime), grocery shopping, laundry, preparing his clothes for work :)
Dearie is handling a project at the moment, and he was telling me how he had to tolerate the snobbish attitude of the staff of his client. A guilt came over me at that point, because I know Dearie could have been a government official with greater power than those people and be in a position to thumb these people down. But it's because of me that he refused the job, and decided to seek his own means of survival.
Although he only brings back a reasonable salary (for China's standards), my love for him has grown even more through this. He has become more attractive in my eyes because he has changed so much for me. When I first knew him, he was a guy who doesn't look at price tags when buying anything, spends without giving a 2nd thought, says nasty things to me at times without considering my feelings and shouts/scolds people who irritates him in any way (esp on the roads). But now, he looks at price tags when we go shopping, thinks before he spends, and doesn't shout at people he doesn't know who irritates him (even though u can still tell that he's irritated when he walks away or doesn't seem to want to talk much). He doesn't horn unless necessary on the roads too. He rarely says nasty things to me now, and if he does, he apologises soon too. He's also becoming more responsible towards our rship by making sure we're in touch in one way or another everyday (he gets quite upset if he doesn't hear from me for even one day now). And most importantly, he has learnt to become less dependent by sourcing for his own job himself, learning slowly to see how the commercialised world is like without relying on anyone, and working towards his so-called 5 year plan for us.
This, makes me proud having him (even though it sucks that I still have a long wait more to go).
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