I'm totally disappointed, but hey...this isn't the first time isn't it?

And the thing is...it's not even my fault. My semester dates aren't planned by me. My placement dates aren't planned by me. My holiday periods aren't planned by me either! I know u are pissed abt having to stay here in UK because of me. I appreciate the sacrifice u have made, but I'm regretting it. I regret asking u to be here with me after all our quarrels. I am beginning to wonder if it does make u happy being able to see me everyday here after all the effort I made travelling up and down, spending huge amounts of money for transport and sacrificing my sleep just to spend a few hours more with u.

I know u r upset abt not being able to go to Paris because visa application is "full". I am too. But is it my fault that things had to happen this way? I would skip weeks of placement if I can, but what can I do if my Consultants will only sign my forms on my last day of placement?

Do you know how badly it hurts me when you just ignore me during dinner, and turn your back against me to watch a soccer match? And once again, u just walked a distance away from me, crossing the road without even bothering abt me. I dread that, and u know it. U apologised numerous times about this, but it's repeated time and time again.

Now..I wonder....if u should stay one more year in Cardiff. Maybe u shouldn't. I don't want u regretting and making me feel as if it's all my fault.