Finally, I can have a slightly more relaxed time for myself. I have so deprived of this for the past dunno how long, and am really glad that I managed to cast everything aside for a little while and have a bit of rest.
The past few days especially was hell for me. Exams for 5 days in one shot. And I got so bored of it that I even went to count the number of pages I had to study for one exam...and it did shock the hell out of me when I realised...700+ pages. Couldn't rest at all, and even when I decided to throw my things aside and have some sleep before I go for my exam, my mind just wouldn't stop working. And each time I came out of the exam, I didn't feel very good and u get so mentally tired, u just wish it all ended completely.
Coursemates have been cursing and grumbling about why we had to go through all this shit just to get a pathetic medical degree when we could have jolly well done something else and be able to talk about a "first class" or "second upper" honours to our peers, rather than shock out friends who have always thought of us as "geniuses" or "brainy", only to find out that all we want is to just scrape through med sch with a low 50% (which could get u a 3rd class here!). Is it that worth it, I wonder too. But I made a promise , so I still have to try my best to make it through, and hope that things will get better for me soon (wah liew..sometimes it's not whether u want to go through or not lor...luck is darn impt in med sch..).
It's pretty scary to know how many students from the year below are going to be kicked out of medical sch. Heard that 1/3 of the cohort had to resit exams. Shit isn't it?
Can't wait for the last paper to be over and done with. Then I can start repaying back to my bf, who has been really supportive and forgiving over this period. He's having exams himself, but he still made every effort to sit down and revise next to me, cook my meals, shelter me with hugs and kisses whenever I say "I don't feel good", and cheer me on. I did piss him off with my negativeness as usual, and we could have got into a row numerous times, but he just forget about them, and be happy again. My parents are also very pleased that he's around for me and taking good care of me here too. At the very least, I hear Dad asking me about him, which is not very usual. His parents are also quite glad that we've giving each other support emotionally and mentally.
I do love his attitude towards exams. Whether it has been easy or difficult, he can just forget about it completely when it's over. He never thinks back about them, unlike me. And he's so calm even though he admits to me that he is feeling very stressed. If we do have kids one day, I hope they'll adopt this bonus point of his. I really wish I had that attitude. I would be a much better person with such an open mind.
Gosh, it's raining SO heavily now and I do wish to bring an umbrella with me to the bus station to wait for him, but I haven't got his room key, so I'm stuck here since I don't want to leave his room unlocked.
I'm craving for a nice meal tonight actually, but I doubt we can have it with the rain being like that.
Ok, enuff blogging for now... :)
The past few days especially was hell for me. Exams for 5 days in one shot. And I got so bored of it that I even went to count the number of pages I had to study for one exam...and it did shock the hell out of me when I realised...700+ pages. Couldn't rest at all, and even when I decided to throw my things aside and have some sleep before I go for my exam, my mind just wouldn't stop working. And each time I came out of the exam, I didn't feel very good and u get so mentally tired, u just wish it all ended completely.
Coursemates have been cursing and grumbling about why we had to go through all this shit just to get a pathetic medical degree when we could have jolly well done something else and be able to talk about a "first class" or "second upper" honours to our peers, rather than shock out friends who have always thought of us as "geniuses" or "brainy", only to find out that all we want is to just scrape through med sch with a low 50% (which could get u a 3rd class here!). Is it that worth it, I wonder too. But I made a promise , so I still have to try my best to make it through, and hope that things will get better for me soon (wah liew..sometimes it's not whether u want to go through or not lor...luck is darn impt in med sch..).
It's pretty scary to know how many students from the year below are going to be kicked out of medical sch. Heard that 1/3 of the cohort had to resit exams. Shit isn't it?
Can't wait for the last paper to be over and done with. Then I can start repaying back to my bf, who has been really supportive and forgiving over this period. He's having exams himself, but he still made every effort to sit down and revise next to me, cook my meals, shelter me with hugs and kisses whenever I say "I don't feel good", and cheer me on. I did piss him off with my negativeness as usual, and we could have got into a row numerous times, but he just forget about them, and be happy again. My parents are also very pleased that he's around for me and taking good care of me here too. At the very least, I hear Dad asking me about him, which is not very usual. His parents are also quite glad that we've giving each other support emotionally and mentally.
I do love his attitude towards exams. Whether it has been easy or difficult, he can just forget about it completely when it's over. He never thinks back about them, unlike me. And he's so calm even though he admits to me that he is feeling very stressed. If we do have kids one day, I hope they'll adopt this bonus point of his. I really wish I had that attitude. I would be a much better person with such an open mind.
Gosh, it's raining SO heavily now and I do wish to bring an umbrella with me to the bus station to wait for him, but I haven't got his room key, so I'm stuck here since I don't want to leave his room unlocked.
I'm craving for a nice meal tonight actually, but I doubt we can have it with the rain being like that.
Ok, enuff blogging for now... :)
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