Grr...my brain juice is leaking like nobody's business...

PIANGZ! Why is it so difficult to think of a way to make his birthday memorable?

I have been surfing the internet for ideas, and those I think are really good are super expensive. I want to take him on a trip, but I can't afford. I want to buy him the Nokia 8800 because his phone is spoilt (he threw the phone at the wall after a quarrel with me many months ago) and I can't afford it. I want to buy him a new laptop (he loves Apple), but I can't afford it.

I feel horrible for not being to give him anything at all..things he wants and things he need..

I know all that he demands is for a simple Chinese dinner with me at Riverside, but is that all I can give him? I really really want to do something for him, something he will remember. It makes me feel quite irritated whenever I think about what other girls have done for him, and being his first girlfriend, I can't even do something this simple for him. Although he says he doesn't mind, but I just don't feel good within me.

Bake him a cake? He doesn't like cakes.

Cook him a dinner? He must have gotten sick of my cooking by then since I'll be cooking his meals from now on till his exams are over.

Have some lovey dovey time together? I think we had enough of that since we're always together day and night.

I made a suggestion to go to London, and he's quite excited about this idea since he wants to go to Harrod's to shop, but hello...I didn't mean to make his birthday a shopping trip for both of us! I mean, how pathetic if he remembers his 23rd birthday being a shopping trip in Harrod's with me?

Any ideas anyone? I'm desperately needing a supply of it..