Feeling pretty stressed up today for no reason...or maybe there are reasons. Exams? Missing him? Tired?
I wish I can go back to CArdiff now to just see him. Don't have to say a word, and I KNOW I will feel loads better.
It is scary watching everyone manicly revising for major exams now, and I am all way out to avoid seeing them, because it just stresses me out. I have done my very best in trying to cope with it, but sometimes it just gets at me, and I Will just start feeling rubbish completely. Medicine is definitely the best way to ruin how I feel abt myself completely. I have NEVER ever felt this shit in my entire 23-24 years of living.
My memory is going slowly as well. I can't remember things as much as I used to, and the docs thinks it's because I'm overstressed. But how on earth can I relax? It's close to 20k pounds tuition fees u're talking abt, not pathetic 1000+ pounds paid by locals here.
Clearing one subject per weekend is an ultimate nightmare, and watching my books pile up each time I get back to Cardiff makes me feel horrible. I'M desperately trying to find some hope in what I'm doing somehow, but I haVEN't really found anything that would make me "step out" from my current crisis at the moment.
Is there anything I can do to help myself, I wonder.
It's a GOod thing that it's Friday tomorrow, and I'Ll be able to see him. Poor boy was so pissed off yesterday that his lecturer didn't turn up for his lecture yesterday, or else he would have just catch a train and come down to see me to spend wed-fri with me here.
Gosh, I nOtice so many typing problems here using the comps in this place. So many sites are not accessible cos they blocked it somehow, and the comp is lagging and SLOW! Making changes to my typing just pisses me so badly that I end up using my laptop all the time to do my work which doesn't req. the internet.
I wish I can go back to CArdiff now to just see him. Don't have to say a word, and I KNOW I will feel loads better.
It is scary watching everyone manicly revising for major exams now, and I am all way out to avoid seeing them, because it just stresses me out. I have done my very best in trying to cope with it, but sometimes it just gets at me, and I Will just start feeling rubbish completely. Medicine is definitely the best way to ruin how I feel abt myself completely. I have NEVER ever felt this shit in my entire 23-24 years of living.
My memory is going slowly as well. I can't remember things as much as I used to, and the docs thinks it's because I'm overstressed. But how on earth can I relax? It's close to 20k pounds tuition fees u're talking abt, not pathetic 1000+ pounds paid by locals here.
Clearing one subject per weekend is an ultimate nightmare, and watching my books pile up each time I get back to Cardiff makes me feel horrible. I'M desperately trying to find some hope in what I'm doing somehow, but I haVEN't really found anything that would make me "step out" from my current crisis at the moment.
Is there anything I can do to help myself, I wonder.
It's a GOod thing that it's Friday tomorrow, and I'Ll be able to see him. Poor boy was so pissed off yesterday that his lecturer didn't turn up for his lecture yesterday, or else he would have just catch a train and come down to see me to spend wed-fri with me here.
Gosh, I nOtice so many typing problems here using the comps in this place. So many sites are not accessible cos they blocked it somehow, and the comp is lagging and SLOW! Making changes to my typing just pisses me so badly that I end up using my laptop all the time to do my work which doesn't req. the internet.
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