Do I have to even control my tears rolling in front of u? Does it mean being attached to you, means I have also lost my privilege to cry when u just said something which reminded me instantly of something I don't wish to remember?

My past is something u don't know, and don't wish to know either. I can't talk about it because u hate it. I can't cry when u remind me of it when it hurts me just as much now, just because u think it's the past and I should not bother. But is it that easy? Why would I make myself cry if it isn't hurting me at all?

And when I refuse to tell u that what u said reminded me of what I don't wish to remember, you get angry at me, and thought I cried because of what u said and walked out on me. That doesn't help at all. I just want a silent hug from you.

"I really hate your past!"

Do u think I like it? But what can I do about it? Maybe Darren was right, u can never accept me for who I am. Yes, NEVER. It will always be something existing.

"Change that pic on your msn"

Maybe that photo meant nothing to you, but I love it nonetheless. And that sudden message from u hurts tremendously. You don't even see or even feel the joy I felt when I put that pic up, despite people thinking we got shingles or comment that it looks ugly. I ignored my Mum when she advised me to take it off too.

"I'm in a bad mood. I think u're quite troublesome"

What more can I say to this u just said?