I'm feeling terribly stressed at the moment because of several issues and I hope things will get better as it goes along. Please.

Menses not here yet and it's freaking me out. And we all know that stress is gonna delay it even longer. Plus I'm getting more and more paranoid. Gosh, I have to put my fears to an end. I don't wanna be freaking myself out when the date's abt to be due. I hope it comes soon.

Exams. Weeks before it's coming, and I have no idea how I'm gonna cope with studying a whole new Obs & Gynae with 9 other specialties. And how shit can this exam timetable ever get? Having my last block exam on a Friday and then having my major exam starting on the following Monday?! Are they mad or what?

That's just gonna mean no more going back to Cardiff for me (probably only once in the next few weeks away), and I will have to rely on my bf coming to see me during Easter for a few pathetic days. It's not cheap for him to go to the cottage to see me, and it's freaking far away too. Now I'm seriously wondering if I should let him come see me, but he seems very adamant abt going over to spend a few days with me (studying) since he isn't gonna see me for weeks. And yes, no webcams, no internet out of hospital hrs too. The phone's the only source of contact.

Leaving for that place tmr, and I'm feeling utterly sianz abt it. The accom. looks tempting, but the journey there is HECTIC. Imagine 4 hours on the coach! Plus dunno how long to get to that inaccessible place. Called up taxi companies in that place in Wales and they haven't even heard of the holiday cottage the hospital booked!!!!! And even told me to find directions there myself since the driver will expect ME to know how to get there (WTF?!?!?!?). I haven't got a single clue on how I'm gonna find my way to the ulu cottage, but I'm certaining praying super hard that things will go smooth for me.

This is so irritating. I wonder why my uni has to give me unnecessary stress for no reason. It's also NOT CHEAP to get there. The taxi company told me it will cost me about 30 pounds (i made an assumption that it's abt 10 miles from the main bus station in that place in Wales to the ulu cottage). How shit is that?! 90 sgd for approx 16km?!??!?! And it doesn't feel any better to know that uni isn't gonna reimburse travel expenses to us because we are OVERSEAS students!!!!!

Wah liew...do they think our parents own gold mines? With the extorbitant tuition fees we're paying, is the uni that poor to even give us this incentive? Why not raise the angmo's fees then?! Their parents are definitely more wealthy than mine, since most of them have parents who are Consultants here. 2 months of their salary is enough to pay for my entire yr's tuition fees, mind u. If you're curious about how much I pay for my fees alone here for a year....it's 19 times the fees of my angmo classmate. Whenever I think abt this, I can only blame myself for not trying hard enuff to get to NUS medicine or to go somewhere else cheaper.

FUCK!!!

I shall just console myself that my boy's trying his best to cheer me up by cooking fish for me tonight for dinner. It hurts him to see me feeling very stressed up and extremely tired over the past few weeks. And even steamboat last night didn't tempt me to eat my usual amount too. I'm guilty for ruining his mood, but these problems are just making me lose my appetite. I should appreciate his effort for taking me to the movies since I was feeling low. Watched Ice Age 2 and it was hilarious. I was laughing a lot during the movie, and it did make me feel better a couple of hours.

Better be off to do some reading. Hmm....I can smell the food from the kitchen now...I wonder how the fish will taste...