In thoughts

I continued reading the book about Empress Dowager Cixi. Was so excited to share my thoughts with Dad, but unfortunately, I was occupied with something else. When Dad heard I was reading abt her, he went "Why are u reading abt her? You want to be like her? She lost China to the Europeans!".

My mind went blank for a while. I was stunned for a moment, but not surprised since I have heard so many nasty things about this famous woman. I recalled from the films I watched when I was younger that she was cruel. Perhaps...that was why I bought this book without hesitation. There are times we all perceive ppl to be what we think they are, rather than what they really are. I didn't want to know what the millions out there, for generations, thought of what she's like. Instead, I wanted to know what was going on in her mind. If she was the cause of losing China to the Europeans, why was she the one? And how did she feel about it? Even if she was wrong, I wanted to know if she had her reasons for doing so? Why, instead of blaming a person, can we not appreciate the other good points (if any) & give recognition for that?

I haven't finished reading the book yet, but I'm sure it sure hurts to death to watch your own dynasty collapse right in your hands. I am crap with China's history, but I'm really eager to finish up this book so that I can see if what Dad said is really true, and if he's right, what was the story behind the collapse? I'll then get Dad to tell me more abt what he knows. Sometimes, I feel really proud of Dad. He isn't very highly educated, but he does know a lot of stuffs. Name it, and chances are..he knows it, especially Politics. I always feel that Mum's been a lucky woman to marry Dad. I wish one day, I will meet someone like Dad too, so that he can tell me lots and lots of stories about everything...feeding me with knowledge of things I never knew. :)

Read a friend's blog, and she was blogging abt male egoism (bet she's been driven nuts for a long time because of this). Very interesting topic, and the way she linked it to become a "clinical" query made it simply amusing. I liked the part abt her talking about Y chromosomes being unable to survive if the X didn't exist, and that the X chromosomes are contributed by females. Hmm..like what I told Kwong Chee once, I have nothing against a male's ego and I am definitely not a sexist person. It's fully understandable and a well-known fact abt guys having an ego, but there are certain times when guys should know when to put it aside. Honestly speaking, I think guys who have ego levels to the extent of causing ppl distress are more likely to be suffering from immense inferior complexity. Their ego is just an excuse (which works perfectly to brain-wash them) to cover up this weakness of theirs, without realising how pathetic they look. To guys reading this, this is no personal attack. But if you're offended, that's your biz. *grinz*