Argh..I slept again!!!!!
Ok, straight after my first blog of the day, I dozed off till 8+pm!
That's like 4 hrs+ of nap. What a pig.
My sore throat is getting worse. It sounded a bit hoarse when Dad spoke to me when he came home. Now it's better. Mum made me a cup of honey lime drink. Tasted nice, but she said it's too sour. I quite like it though.
I joined my family to watch the 9pm show just now. I kept very quiet when watching the show, while Mum was passing her comments abt the show, like how most Mums will do. Mum then asked me if I'm troubled, cos I'm so quiet and look as if I'm so engrossed in the show.
I wasn't troubled, just not feeling well physically. I'm feeling quite tired too. I hope I don't fall ill. But yup, I realised I was very quiet when watching the show. Usually, I will talk to Mum, joining her by commenting on the actor, actress, clothes, etc. But it wasn't so today. I guess I'm too used to watching shows alone and not talking when doing so. I don't actually share my thoughts before or after the show too because in UK, I'm always watching shows by myself. Who should I share it with? And what's the point of sharing my thoughts? It's just how I feel personally which matters isn't it?
I chatted with Mum a little over dinner. She wanted me to eat a honey pear after my food, but I didn't. Was too full to finish it up. Then she started asking me if I was troubled again and started speculating if it was relationship problems. Then told me not to put ALL my effort into a rship to avoid disappointment if it doesn't work out at the end of the day. She said it's always better that the other party puts in more effort, but the point is, is that important? Realistically yes, but is it within your control? When you love someone, you are willing to do things for the other without caring about yourself, without expecting any returns. You just do it because you just want to. There isn't any other reason. Right?
I think it's too late. I'm sunk into it..deep deep into it from day 1. Don't ask me why the big change. I have no idea too. It isn't easy to get me to sink into a rship so quickly, but this time is an exception. I can't remember what I have done for him but I know I love him, and I am fearing the future of us. Yet, at the same time, I don't want to think about it.
I find myself talking about him to Mum all day long and thinking of him so many times a day. I must be crazy. But I do feel talking about him. I even changed my hp wallpaper to his pic..haha..and it makes me smile each time I open up my hp cover.
Call me a silly naive girl. I am. But I think I deserve the right don't I? Can I just stay this way for as long as I can? I love him, I love having him with me. I hope I will be able to tell my children in future... "And so we lived happily ever after..". I'm childish hor? Heeeeezzzzz....
That's like 4 hrs+ of nap. What a pig.
My sore throat is getting worse. It sounded a bit hoarse when Dad spoke to me when he came home. Now it's better. Mum made me a cup of honey lime drink. Tasted nice, but she said it's too sour. I quite like it though.
I joined my family to watch the 9pm show just now. I kept very quiet when watching the show, while Mum was passing her comments abt the show, like how most Mums will do. Mum then asked me if I'm troubled, cos I'm so quiet and look as if I'm so engrossed in the show.
I wasn't troubled, just not feeling well physically. I'm feeling quite tired too. I hope I don't fall ill. But yup, I realised I was very quiet when watching the show. Usually, I will talk to Mum, joining her by commenting on the actor, actress, clothes, etc. But it wasn't so today. I guess I'm too used to watching shows alone and not talking when doing so. I don't actually share my thoughts before or after the show too because in UK, I'm always watching shows by myself. Who should I share it with? And what's the point of sharing my thoughts? It's just how I feel personally which matters isn't it?
I chatted with Mum a little over dinner. She wanted me to eat a honey pear after my food, but I didn't. Was too full to finish it up. Then she started asking me if I was troubled again and started speculating if it was relationship problems. Then told me not to put ALL my effort into a rship to avoid disappointment if it doesn't work out at the end of the day. She said it's always better that the other party puts in more effort, but the point is, is that important? Realistically yes, but is it within your control? When you love someone, you are willing to do things for the other without caring about yourself, without expecting any returns. You just do it because you just want to. There isn't any other reason. Right?
I think it's too late. I'm sunk into it..deep deep into it from day 1. Don't ask me why the big change. I have no idea too. It isn't easy to get me to sink into a rship so quickly, but this time is an exception. I can't remember what I have done for him but I know I love him, and I am fearing the future of us. Yet, at the same time, I don't want to think about it.
I find myself talking about him to Mum all day long and thinking of him so many times a day. I must be crazy. But I do feel talking about him. I even changed my hp wallpaper to his pic..haha..and it makes me smile each time I open up my hp cover.
Call me a silly naive girl. I am. But I think I deserve the right don't I? Can I just stay this way for as long as I can? I love him, I love having him with me. I hope I will be able to tell my children in future... "And so we lived happily ever after..". I'm childish hor? Heeeeezzzzz....
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