The communication gap
There's been quite a lot of silent moments when talking to Dearie recently. Reason being I've been holding back things I want to say.
I spend most of my time in the hospital, and basically, that's the only place I'm in apart from my room. Everything that revolves me is the hospital, my patients, medications, etc. Hence, my topics when I'm talking to Dearie will always be about things involving Medicine.
It bores him actually, and I don't blame him. He gets nauseous when I tell him about gross things I did for the day as well. And several times, he apologised for not being able to appreciate and share my excitement, and frustrations at work. Despite feeling disappointed that I'm not able to share my thoughts and feelings with him, I know that it isn't his fault.
Seems like the only people I can talk to about these things are my colleagues and parents (even though they're not docs..they do get very interested and excited with anything medical).
Likewise, when Dearie goes on about all the softwares and IT-related stuff, I have no clue about what he's talking about. I have been trying hard to listen, but several times, my mind just strayed away. I don't have much comments either, which is kinda unlike me. I've nv been an IT person anyway, and anything to do with it puts me to sleep.
Things have still been really sweet between us, and he's still sheltering me with lots of care and concern, but sometimes, I feel that this gap is becoming more and more obvious. It worries me that the gap might widen with time. Well, not that it's going to have any really major effect on the relationship, but sometimes, I do wish we were on the same track, be able to communicate abt our day, and be able to give each other appropriate support and advice.
I spend most of my time in the hospital, and basically, that's the only place I'm in apart from my room. Everything that revolves me is the hospital, my patients, medications, etc. Hence, my topics when I'm talking to Dearie will always be about things involving Medicine.
It bores him actually, and I don't blame him. He gets nauseous when I tell him about gross things I did for the day as well. And several times, he apologised for not being able to appreciate and share my excitement, and frustrations at work. Despite feeling disappointed that I'm not able to share my thoughts and feelings with him, I know that it isn't his fault.
Seems like the only people I can talk to about these things are my colleagues and parents (even though they're not docs..they do get very interested and excited with anything medical).
Likewise, when Dearie goes on about all the softwares and IT-related stuff, I have no clue about what he's talking about. I have been trying hard to listen, but several times, my mind just strayed away. I don't have much comments either, which is kinda unlike me. I've nv been an IT person anyway, and anything to do with it puts me to sleep.
Things have still been really sweet between us, and he's still sheltering me with lots of care and concern, but sometimes, I feel that this gap is becoming more and more obvious. It worries me that the gap might widen with time. Well, not that it's going to have any really major effect on the relationship, but sometimes, I do wish we were on the same track, be able to communicate abt our day, and be able to give each other appropriate support and advice.
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