Argh..I wanna bang the wall!!!!!

Dearie must be super hurt about what I said. Fuck! Why didn't I think before I say anything!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

Damn, I really dread myself for being toooooo honest!!!!!

AAAAHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Great..now I'm in for real shit..

Him: I'm very disappointed..I need some time alone. Don't worry abt me. I'll be fine after a sleep. I'll contact u tmr..

And ever since we stopped talking, I can't believe how slow the time passes...worse than the speed of the snail..

I know the last person he wants to hear from now is me, but I am DESPERATE to call him and see how he is.

Something he said slapped me real hard in the face...

"I have started to give my all to care for u, and recently, things have been getting better for us. Because of u, I refused to obey my dad's wishes. I even had a big row with him. Because of u, I have been looking for jobs and finding ways to move to Singapore. Because I miss u and I know that I have hurt u by not talking more to u yesterday, I decided to stay up and wait for you tonight to come back from work to talk to u..."

No, I didn't do anything to betray him. But I suppose taking someone else as his replacement is almost as bad.

I should remind myself that I am attached, be more sensitive and draw a very very clear line.