"Let's have a date tonight...I'll take u out for dinner" he said.
"Why", I asked with a curious look. To me, it's odd. We've never been on a proper date ever since we got together, and although I did wish and crave for it to happen at some point, I have sort of given up hope and ceased having any expectations.
With a smile, he said we need to have dinner anyway, so we'll make it into a dinner date. I don't know why he is doing this, especially when we've agreed mutually to end our relationship last night.
He'll be returning home at the end of January, and he'll still be living with me till then. Just to prevent any awkwardness, I've told him that we'll still be like how we used to be. talking and all, until he leaves. And whatever that happens from then on, will be a different issue. But at least, it's a friendly end.
The ending of our relationship might do us some good, I guess. We've both been through a lot, and over the past few months, we haven't been happy together, and he thinks I've been suffering enough and totally worn out. He said it pains him to see me looking tired everyday, and in constant worry and that I need some rest for now.
Our relationship isn't getting anywhere either by trying to stick together, yet quarrelling everyday. Hence, the decision to end it.
Although we've both agreed calmly without any arguments, I guess part of him fears losing this relationship forever, because he kept reminding me that it's a decision agreed upon not because he doesn't love me anymore. He kept reminding me that even though we're aware that we're not in a relationship together, mentally and emotionally, he has never left me....and I'll always be his gf...and therefore, if I should decide to visit him in China soon, I'm more than welcome to and stay at his place since he'll not break the news of our break up to his parents. He also told me that he'll return to the UK to see me again soon, and he'll find a way to make it to Singapore (get a job, study, whatever) if I were to go back home one day. And if he ever makes it there and I'm still not attached, he hopes to get a 2nd chance.
I trust that he meant what he said, but my mind is in a complete blank now to think about anything.
I think I will just need some time to give myself some rest and start life anew to any extent I can for now.
"Why", I asked with a curious look. To me, it's odd. We've never been on a proper date ever since we got together, and although I did wish and crave for it to happen at some point, I have sort of given up hope and ceased having any expectations.
With a smile, he said we need to have dinner anyway, so we'll make it into a dinner date. I don't know why he is doing this, especially when we've agreed mutually to end our relationship last night.
He'll be returning home at the end of January, and he'll still be living with me till then. Just to prevent any awkwardness, I've told him that we'll still be like how we used to be. talking and all, until he leaves. And whatever that happens from then on, will be a different issue. But at least, it's a friendly end.
The ending of our relationship might do us some good, I guess. We've both been through a lot, and over the past few months, we haven't been happy together, and he thinks I've been suffering enough and totally worn out. He said it pains him to see me looking tired everyday, and in constant worry and that I need some rest for now.
Our relationship isn't getting anywhere either by trying to stick together, yet quarrelling everyday. Hence, the decision to end it.
Although we've both agreed calmly without any arguments, I guess part of him fears losing this relationship forever, because he kept reminding me that it's a decision agreed upon not because he doesn't love me anymore. He kept reminding me that even though we're aware that we're not in a relationship together, mentally and emotionally, he has never left me....and I'll always be his gf...and therefore, if I should decide to visit him in China soon, I'm more than welcome to and stay at his place since he'll not break the news of our break up to his parents. He also told me that he'll return to the UK to see me again soon, and he'll find a way to make it to Singapore (get a job, study, whatever) if I were to go back home one day. And if he ever makes it there and I'm still not attached, he hopes to get a 2nd chance.
I trust that he meant what he said, but my mind is in a complete blank now to think about anything.
I think I will just need some time to give myself some rest and start life anew to any extent I can for now.
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