Settling in
My first day at work started off with lots of paperwork and basically, an induction. Nothing much, which is kinda good since I'm not really into the working mood yet.
I'm still very much feeling home sick, and wishing to go home. And for the fact that Dearie isn't here just makes me feel worse. I dread myself for being so dependent on him. I knew I was losing my independent nature, but I didn't expect myself to be THIS dependent.
I miss him and my family so badly, and whenever I get a msg from Dad, my tears start rolling. Dad said it's all natural, and I'm gonna be fine, and I seriously hope he's right. But most importantly, I want Dearie to come back to the UK asap.
I'm pleased that I'm able to go online in my bedroom because it's the only way I can spend hrs chatting with my family, friends and him. Dearie and I made a deal to talk at least an hour to each other everyday, and I know my free phone minutes isn't gonna last me an entire mth, so the internet is a must if I want to speak to him for hours.
It was nice chatting with Jane today because instead of just pretending that I'm really happy here, I could just pour it all out and tell her how much I wish I'm back home and how much I miss Dearie. That's something I can never do with people I know in the UK. She was really sweet when she did this...
It made me feel slightly better.
I wonder how Dearie is now. I tried calling him, but his hp was off. I guess it probably ran out of battery, and again, I'm not sure which house he's sleeping in tonight. Sent him a msg though, so hopefully he'll get to see it after he charges his phone.
Realised that I'm always looking forward to the evening these few nights. It just makes me feel that another day is over, and I'm one day closer to seeing him and one day closer to going home. And sleeping just makes me feel better too, in a sense that I won't get to think too much. But it does feel weird sleeping alone now, when I've already gotten so used to having him sleep next to me. I miss his hugs and waking up to see him sound asleep next to me.
Am hoping that I'll get to chat online with him tmr. Specially bought a mic today because of that.
And not forgetting to pray hard that my day at work tmr will be a smooth one. I'm gonna be all alone in the ward to handle patients since my seniors will be having induction tmr....yikes!
I'm still very much feeling home sick, and wishing to go home. And for the fact that Dearie isn't here just makes me feel worse. I dread myself for being so dependent on him. I knew I was losing my independent nature, but I didn't expect myself to be THIS dependent.
I miss him and my family so badly, and whenever I get a msg from Dad, my tears start rolling. Dad said it's all natural, and I'm gonna be fine, and I seriously hope he's right. But most importantly, I want Dearie to come back to the UK asap.
I'm pleased that I'm able to go online in my bedroom because it's the only way I can spend hrs chatting with my family, friends and him. Dearie and I made a deal to talk at least an hour to each other everyday, and I know my free phone minutes isn't gonna last me an entire mth, so the internet is a must if I want to speak to him for hours.
It was nice chatting with Jane today because instead of just pretending that I'm really happy here, I could just pour it all out and tell her how much I wish I'm back home and how much I miss Dearie. That's something I can never do with people I know in the UK. She was really sweet when she did this...
It made me feel slightly better.
I wonder how Dearie is now. I tried calling him, but his hp was off. I guess it probably ran out of battery, and again, I'm not sure which house he's sleeping in tonight. Sent him a msg though, so hopefully he'll get to see it after he charges his phone.
Realised that I'm always looking forward to the evening these few nights. It just makes me feel that another day is over, and I'm one day closer to seeing him and one day closer to going home. And sleeping just makes me feel better too, in a sense that I won't get to think too much. But it does feel weird sleeping alone now, when I've already gotten so used to having him sleep next to me. I miss his hugs and waking up to see him sound asleep next to me.
Am hoping that I'll get to chat online with him tmr. Specially bought a mic today because of that.
And not forgetting to pray hard that my day at work tmr will be a smooth one. I'm gonna be all alone in the ward to handle patients since my seniors will be having induction tmr....yikes!
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