It's been a long time since I last had jiao zi. And I am always telling CG that I miss it. But I finally got to satisfy my craving a little when Zhang Zhen made some for us to try. It was delicious!
I'm still craving for it and XLB.
Missed placements for 2 days, and I feel totally shit about it. Although it feels great to have some sleep at home, but I am worried that the Consultant might not feel happy. The electronic operated door of my bedroom was faulty, and locked me out of my room, so the security had to open it and let me in. Had to get it repaired, and that would means I have to wait till the day and there was no way I'm going to leave my room unattended while someone comes in to repair it. Then just when everything was fine, I suffered insomnia last night (my mind was just busy with dunno what) and the fire alarm went off AGAIN! It only managed to be turned off at around 4+ this morning!!!!
The weeks are just flying past and it scares me. Feeling worried about my upcoming exams. I have no idea why I'm not so motivated or organised. I feel insecured, and I do feel the stress building up in me, yet at the same time, I'm trying to curb it and hide it. To keep things simple, I don't know what's going on in my mind and I don't really know what I'm doing.
It'll be a joke if I told my coursemates about how I feel because they think I know everything. The doctors are praising me in hospital, but I still feel insecured. I lack confidence in myself.
I tossed and turned in bed so much last night. Couldn't sleep at all with various things flashing past. I started missing home. I felt terrible within, and I must have affected his sleep because he just turned round, looked at me and gave me a big hug. I did feel very comforted, but I couldn't speak. I have no idea why. Why is it so difficult to speak out now?
Please let me feel better soon.
I'm still craving for it and XLB.
Missed placements for 2 days, and I feel totally shit about it. Although it feels great to have some sleep at home, but I am worried that the Consultant might not feel happy. The electronic operated door of my bedroom was faulty, and locked me out of my room, so the security had to open it and let me in. Had to get it repaired, and that would means I have to wait till the day and there was no way I'm going to leave my room unattended while someone comes in to repair it. Then just when everything was fine, I suffered insomnia last night (my mind was just busy with dunno what) and the fire alarm went off AGAIN! It only managed to be turned off at around 4+ this morning!!!!
The weeks are just flying past and it scares me. Feeling worried about my upcoming exams. I have no idea why I'm not so motivated or organised. I feel insecured, and I do feel the stress building up in me, yet at the same time, I'm trying to curb it and hide it. To keep things simple, I don't know what's going on in my mind and I don't really know what I'm doing.
It'll be a joke if I told my coursemates about how I feel because they think I know everything. The doctors are praising me in hospital, but I still feel insecured. I lack confidence in myself.
I tossed and turned in bed so much last night. Couldn't sleep at all with various things flashing past. I started missing home. I felt terrible within, and I must have affected his sleep because he just turned round, looked at me and gave me a big hug. I did feel very comforted, but I couldn't speak. I have no idea why. Why is it so difficult to speak out now?
Please let me feel better soon.
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