Shit manz...:(
Just came back from Psychiatry OSCE. Ahhh...
Am absolutely in no mood to have fun. The exam ruined it for me...no..it's not the exam's fault..it's mine.
The OSCE stations wasn't difficult, but it's just me who screwed it up by saying the craziest things. I didn't even know what I was talking about to the "patients". Can't blame anyone except myself for not being calm enough. And it feels more dreadful because I know those things perfectly well, and there was no reason to why I can get them wrong or even mixed up! I really underperformed this time. Way off standard.
Tears were rolling after I was locked up in the lecture theatre. It's really embarrassing to be weeping in front of my coursemates, and it was a good thing I managed to get away from them before I started crying. Felt so lost and wished it was a nightmare I would wake up from. Nasty thoughts started streaming through again. I needed someone next to me..I need a comforting hug.
I don't know if I'll pass this one. Even though I'll have other OSCEs in future to help pull up the score (as long as I don't screw it up again), I am still hoping very hard that I get a 50% this time round.
It's damn pathetic being a medical student. It's difficult to make ANYONE believe how shit we feel, when most people are just blinded by the prestige we're getting and mistaking us to be extreme high-flyers since we're sorta considered the "creme of the crop".
My coursemates were discussing about the applicants to medical school since some of them will be interviewing students who are awaiting entrance into this course. We were talking about the grades these students have got...almost all of them have never seen anything below an A grade in their entire education life..and having a B on the grades section was like the worst thing that would shine right into your face and mar your entire application. And then we went on talking about our reaction when we enter medical school, only to realise that failing was ever possible for supposedly high-flyers like us and it's so COMMON.
It is traumatising, and difficult to cope, and it's really sad telling your peers from other courses (apart from Dentistry) that u have got resits, or gotta retake the year when they are all worried about not getting the 1st class honours. It's demoralising to know that you only aim to get pathetic 50% while others are aiming for As. And your peers might even think you're joking if u ever say u only want 50% or tell them u failed an exam. No one understands.
With these going on, it's no wonder why my personal tutor told me that shit loads of medical students and doctors get depression. Who wouldn't manz...sigh..
I feel so depressed now. Can someone cheer me up please? Anyone will do..
Am absolutely in no mood to have fun. The exam ruined it for me...no..it's not the exam's fault..it's mine.
The OSCE stations wasn't difficult, but it's just me who screwed it up by saying the craziest things. I didn't even know what I was talking about to the "patients". Can't blame anyone except myself for not being calm enough. And it feels more dreadful because I know those things perfectly well, and there was no reason to why I can get them wrong or even mixed up! I really underperformed this time. Way off standard.
Tears were rolling after I was locked up in the lecture theatre. It's really embarrassing to be weeping in front of my coursemates, and it was a good thing I managed to get away from them before I started crying. Felt so lost and wished it was a nightmare I would wake up from. Nasty thoughts started streaming through again. I needed someone next to me..I need a comforting hug.
I don't know if I'll pass this one. Even though I'll have other OSCEs in future to help pull up the score (as long as I don't screw it up again), I am still hoping very hard that I get a 50% this time round.
It's damn pathetic being a medical student. It's difficult to make ANYONE believe how shit we feel, when most people are just blinded by the prestige we're getting and mistaking us to be extreme high-flyers since we're sorta considered the "creme of the crop".
My coursemates were discussing about the applicants to medical school since some of them will be interviewing students who are awaiting entrance into this course. We were talking about the grades these students have got...almost all of them have never seen anything below an A grade in their entire education life..and having a B on the grades section was like the worst thing that would shine right into your face and mar your entire application. And then we went on talking about our reaction when we enter medical school, only to realise that failing was ever possible for supposedly high-flyers like us and it's so COMMON.
It is traumatising, and difficult to cope, and it's really sad telling your peers from other courses (apart from Dentistry) that u have got resits, or gotta retake the year when they are all worried about not getting the 1st class honours. It's demoralising to know that you only aim to get pathetic 50% while others are aiming for As. And your peers might even think you're joking if u ever say u only want 50% or tell them u failed an exam. No one understands.
With these going on, it's no wonder why my personal tutor told me that shit loads of medical students and doctors get depression. Who wouldn't manz...sigh..
I feel so depressed now. Can someone cheer me up please? Anyone will do..
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