I wish we didnt have to part..

I couldn't stand it, and went back to bed, hoping that I will get well.

I didn't feel much better after a nap. Got out of bed, wash up and headed for JP. It wasn't too far, and because I was sitting at the corner, I could lay my head on the side and it felt quite comfortable.

There wasn't many movies available within that few hours Jason and I had. So we just settled for Ella Enchanted. Before that, we went to Mos Burger. It's been a long time since I had the yakiniku rice burger. Used to be able to eat 2 or 3, but today, I only had 1. I was hungry, but didn't have much of an appetite. The burger would have been nicer if there was more gravy on the rice. Jason found it too dry too.

During lunch, he told me he's stressed. I felt helpless on the spot. What can I do to make him feel better? All I could do was to hold his hand. Does he know how much I wish I could share them with him, yet feeling helpless at the same time? It pains me to see him looking troubled when he's eating. He doesn't usually sit there and say he's stressed. Looks like he's under a lot of pressure. I hope all those events will end soon, so that he will have more time for himself and his studies.

Contradicting what I said, I wish I could spend more time with him. No doubt I'm back for abt 7 mths this time round, but time passes very quickly, and I don't wish to have any regrets about not seeing him more before I go back to UK again. Just when I know he is stress, instead of consoling him, I'm adding more pressure on him by looking sulky when he has to go back. It's bad of me. I'm fully aware of it, and I must apologise for that. Don't ask me why, but I find it so difficult to hide my thoughts and emotions from him for long. Sometimes, I wonder if this is better or not. I don't want to hide anything from him, yet at times, I wish I did..maybe he won't feel so bad then.

I'm grateful for him putting in effort to explain things to me again and again. I might feel a little disappointed for a moment, but I'm fine now. He's got things to do, and I should be supportive...yup..I should :)

The movie we watched was so-so. He didn't enjoy it, and I wasn't concentrating much either. I was thinking of how to cheer him up most of the time. Stole glances at him..didn't think he realise. As I was looking at him, I was silently saying "Please smile again..". I don't think I remember the movie in detail. The only thing I noticed most was Anne Hathaway. Gosh..she's darn pretty. I like her dresses. By the way, the movie's similar to Shrek 2 in some ways.

I'll spend tonight thinking of ways to help him destress on Friday and Saturday...what's there to do in singapore...hmm....