Finally, some light...

J and I are finally seeing some light with regards to our relationship.

I haven't been having an easy time managing both sides, many times of which I have, in fact, lost it. I've lost count of the number of times I've cried to sleep.

And my health succumbed.

Am now recovering from Pneumonia (yes, it's finally diagnosed after having taken a x-ray), and I've been pretty ill for the last few days.

J's been showing me a lot a lot of concern since my falling ill. He surprised me as well when he emailed Dad, asking for permission to visit me.

When my parents granted permission for him to enter the house (his name was not to even be mentioned in the house previously), I started crying. I felt a sense of relief, a sense of gratefulness, a sense of indescribable happiness. Although I was restricted to only seeing him in the living room, it was good enough.

"One day, when things are better, I'll be able to take you overseas for holidays" he said.

I hope that day will come soon..