Can you, as a girl, not feel disappointed if u know this yr's V day is unplanned just like last yr's?

Ok. I kinda expected it, so I went to plan it instead. Honestly, I didn't feel that disappointed abt it until I told him, "Can we have a date tmr for dinner? By the way, do u have anything planned for us?" and then hearing "No, I didn't plan anything."

My heart sank. I know I shouldn't, since I had already planned something for us, but I'm still disappointed...because last yr's V day didn't even feel like V day. I thought perhaps this year would be different, but no.

It doesn't help to know that even our 1st anniversary celebration was planned by me. Why is it that I'm always the one doing this? Why is it only me that gets excited and bother doing something?

I understand that he's busy. So am I. He's pressed for time to finish his dissertation, but how is compared to me when I have to finish my drastically long case portfolio (i've done like 48 pages and it's still 3/4 done only) and a powerpoint presentation by this Thursday?

I didn't spend a lot of time planning for tmr, but at least I made an effort to think abt it, and try to do something. Despite having almost no time for myself (I'm farking tired!!!!!), I still bothered to treasure like 20 mins just to rush into a shop to buy a card and a present. I don't think it's that difficult to spare just some time to surprise someone...plus I'm not unreasonably hard to please on this....yet....

Totally ruined my mood for the day, and I still got piles of work to do and things to settle. My life is really miserable these few days..and it just isn't getting any better.