Am back in Singapore for my xmas break, when the original plan was to stay in UK this year to be with my boy. I didn't want to leave him behind this year, but he thought it's better if I go home to see a doctor because of my blurring vision. Checked the prices over at UK should I need a new pair of contact lenses, and it was at a cut-throat price of about 400 pounds per pair!

My heart ache as my coach departed for the airport while he was there chasing the coach just to say more good-byes to me. I felt like as if I had abandoned him all alone in that boring place.

My flight back home was scary. Was on board SIA, and the bad weather made landing difficult. There was lightning and pretty bad turbulence when it was close to landing. The plane was rocking badly and there was even a point where it had "dropped", resulting in screams across the plane. I was scared, very scared, especially when I've never been a fan of rollercoasters and what have you at the theme parks. I was grabbing real tightly to the seats.

There was no way the pilots could land, so halfway during landing, they took off into the sky again. And it was more turbulence and shaking. I thought this might be the end of me, and my mind filled with thoughts. I was worried something might happen and I won't ever see my boy and my family again. I wanted to tell him I love him if something should happen. Also, I thought I'm too young to die. There are many things I want to do, like graduating, having my own students, spend the rest of my life with my boy, give him a proper fixed home to return to every night, bear him kids etc etc. Too many. I haven't done any of those yet, and I can't leave. I said my prayers again and again in the plane.

The pilots decided to head to Batam to wait for the weather to get better. It was a few hours' wait there, and even though the weather wasn't the most ideal to land, I was glad that despite the vigorous shaking again during the 2nd round, the plane managed to land in Changi Airport.

Went to Mount E the next day to see an eye specialist since my parents are worried that it might be more than a failing vision. I was told before that I've got weak right eye muscles by 2 optometrists and was told that that meant "lazy eye". I was shocked when I heard it because I don't look one bit like having a lazy eye, and if I did have it, why wasn't I diagnosed when I was at a very young age? It'll be too late to correct it now that I'm turning 24.

Did several tests for it, and was told that I do not have it....PHEW!!!! And my vision is pretty good....better than 6/6. The only thing is that my contact lenses are pretty old, and it's time to get it changed. The opthalmologist examined me using the slit lamp and I was told that I have Blepharitis as he could see dead skin cells on my cornea, and also, there's neovascularisation on my cornea, as a sign of hypoxia. The reason for my "failing vision" was probably due to mucus. Looks like I'll have to cut down my wear of contact lenses, and also time to get it changed. Got a bottle of antibiotic drops from him too.

I was so pleased to find myself being charged only 15 bucks. Th consultation fee was completely waived when he found out that I'm a medical student. The advantages..heheh. I had my consultation fee waived too the last time I saw a gynae at a private clinic in Thomson Medical :)

A great relief for me that it's nothing too serious. I remember losing my appetite in UK as I realise that my vision is failing quite badly. Quite amusing thinking back about what my boy said when I told him I'm going blind..."I'll be your pair of eyes if anything happens. But u'll be ok. Don't worry."

Sweet.

I love him very very much.