Mich is stress

I am very very very stressed at the moment.

I wish..I could talk to someone..anyone.

My mind is in a big mess..so disorganised. I have to try to get organised again, but where should I begin?

My exams are coming very very soon. And here I am rushing everyday just to finish my readings for each week which is totally impossible, plus I'm such a slow learner...extremely slow in fact. There isn't a study week before exam either..the so-called revision week is all filled with lectures, and straight away we take the exam and HAVE to pass it.

I had a very stressful evening...really making me so fed up and crying. Had to view this farking CD which seems to take forever to finish. Had to look through 70+ microscopic blood films, and study each one, which is suppose to look different. And that's like only ONE section of the CD. It's really draining alllll my energy away, and doesn't help that my coursemates are falling ill one by one. I think very soon it's gonna be my turn.

And I still have another CD to look at tmr. I am dreading it. I wish I didn't have to look at them, but neither do I wanna fail my exam.

My notes are turning me off too. Every bloody fucking day I'm writing notes as I study, and now my ring file is totally full...in just 3 weeks! How the hell am I gonna ever finish looking at them? And not forgetting..I still have 2 more specialties to read up on for this block. I think I have been pretty kind to myself when I only picked topics to read. Some Consultants actually expect us to finishing one textbook each week! With my kind of learning speed, even if I don't sleep the entire week..also cannot finish manz.

Why am I not born intelligent? Why can't I learn things as fast as the others? Why do I always have to spend hrs?! Just why?! I'm so fucking pissed off.

FUCK MEDICINE FOR ONCE!