I'm so touched

I went to bed with a smile this morning (again, I watched the sun rise...).

Jon finally came back after his hall formal. Before he went for it, he called to tell me he'll be back in a hour (a bit crazy cos 1 hr's quite short). I guess he was worried I'll feel left alone. Honestly speaking, I didn't feel that way at all. I wanted him to have his share of fun. I think he has spent a lot a lot of time on me, trying to build a strong base for our relationship..afterall, we've only just started out not long ago. And for all that he has done so far, I think it's only reasonable that I shouldn't restrict his freedom at all.

I was expecting to talk to him to call me to tell me about how fun his hall formal was..and was rather excited when he came back. But for a moment, I got disappointed when he asked if he could go to Republic (a restaurant pub) with his friends for more food (drinks perhaps?). Actually, I kinda expected that it wouldn't just solely be a dinner affair. But knowing the way he is, I did have slight thoughts that he would keep his word. Hence, probably that's why I got slightly disappointed. It made me feel like my wait's a waste of time and I should have jolly well went off to sleep (even though I might not be able to slp cos I was feeling too energetic).

I didn't stop him nevertheless. When his great buddy Zheng Yang asked me on the phone if he could borrow Jon for a night, I could sense how much they wanted him to go out with them. I guess my presence did pull Jon away from them to some extent. It would be very very selfish of me if I insisted that Jon stay with me 24/7. I don't wish to see him lose his friends as well.

So Jon went out with them, and I just got so sianz, I went to sleep. Couldn't sleep though. I felt something, which is unreasonable on my part. Was trying to throw my disappointment aside and wake up smiling again the next morning.

Then, something unexpected happened. My hp beeped. Sms from him. I didn't expect it at all, despite knowing that he's sure to drop me a msg after returning from Republic to say good night at least.

Could sense that he was bored and feeling very guilty about the issue. I'm glad we managed to say out truthfully about how we felt. I was also very touched that he knew I was disappointed, and was doing his best to take away that feeling by telling me many many things. I wasn't disappointed anymore. In fact, I was smiling.

Then something even more unexpected happened! He sent a msg over and said he's walking home now...told me to wait for his call! It shocked me, and I waited..but before I knew it, I dozed off..yikes..and got up in a shock when the phone rang.

Poor Jon. Can sense that he's totally exhausted. How can I ever be angry or disappointed with him? I really really appreciated his effort in calling me. Instead, I felt guilty manz! It must be all because of me that's why he didn't want to stay long at Republic. I'm sure his friends must have felt a little pissed with him just leaving. *guilty*

Anyway, what touched me the most was something he said to me yesterday. He told me he understand that it's important to hang out with others, to build rapport etc, but even so, he can't just cast me aside and ignore how I will feel. It's a very simple thing to say hor? But I don't remember anyone telling me that. Why ah?

I'm pleased to know I felt my importance.....and he doesn't think I'm some burden. I just hope in the near future, he will still think the same..