Ever wanted to ask someone to F-OFF eternally?

I have.

I did have this urge to tell people to get out of my life a few times, but this person is the ONLY one whom I have a STRONG urge to not only ask to f-off eternally, but to go kick the bucket as well.

I don't call guys bastards, cos I think it's very evil of me to drag people's parents into the picture, but this person...I really have to say he's a bastard...and I will not feel guilty about naming him so. Couldn't care less about how his parents feel being dragged down for their pathetic son to be named a bastard by me, but I really have to say..I pity his parents big time for having such a son.

I'm sure anyone reading this entry will know that I'm feeling pissed. I was, for only a while.

There is this past about me which I did not mention much to anyone, and I shall not too, because it's a big embarrassment and disgrace to be associated with this person (shall call him CH to make things easier). And I TOTALLY regret it. BIGGEST REGRET!

CH smsed me this afternoon. Goodness gracious. I was expecting NEVER to hear from him again, cos I am not interested in what he has turn into, whether he was alive, dead, killed, etc. Then again, I do think he'll be better off dead (ooops..my devil tail is showing..).

This idiot had gotten out of my life (yes!) in an unexpected way. Ok, I'll admit this. He was one of my exs (darn..i feel like shit mentioning abt my past rship with him). I shall not mention what terrible things he did (they ARE terrible..no doubt about it..and I will not find any reasons to defend his actions cos he does not deserve any understanding and pity of mine). But I'll let you people know that I felt great DITCHING him. Ha! By the way, I'm not the kind of girl who will write bad things about my exs here. I do keep the good memories and I don't think it is nice to mention the bad side of them (if there are any), cos I'm not very nice too. But this ONE is very very very worth mentioning...he should be sent to hell..and I'm sure he will soon.

Anyway, guess what was his first msg?

"Dear, is your bf ard?".....

OMG! Did you see that?!?!?!? DEAR!!!!! Since when am I his dear? I'll rather jump off a building than to be his dear..sheesh. How traumatising. And wat's the "bf" for? What has it gotta do with him? Kaoz...piece of sai..

I didn't know who it was from, and when I scrolled down the msg..there..I saw this familiar number. I have deleted all his contacts from my phone and every msger I have, but that number still rings a bell. I had a gut feeling it must be CH.

At the same time, I thought it might be my other friends whose numbers have not been stored in my hp (I have this bad habit of not storing ppl's new numbers), so I replied..

2nd msg...."I flirted with u, remember?"

DID YOU SEE THAT?!?!?!? FLIRT!!!!!! For all I know, I do NOT flirt. And I will NOT flirt. I took all my rships seriously, and if this person who msged me this word and even dare admit it can only be CH. Mind you, I hate people taking any rship with me as a flirting experience (then again, I wonder how many took me seriously...)

It felt great "slapping" him over sms. I think he felt damn insulted, but who gives shit about how he feels? I don't, for one. I was being mean lah..gotto admit...but who's gonna blame me for being so towards him??!?!?

I wonder what will his reply be if I put this..."This is her bf here. Leave her alone..get close to her again..and I'll make sure you regret it..don't try me.." That doesn't sound daunting. It isn't meant to be anyway. But the ultimate thing are the words in red. He'll be so insulted cos he MUST be single..with no one giving shit about him. Tsk tsk....awwwww...so not pitiful..

Oh yes, let me tell u something. CH loves boasting to me about how great his gfs after me are. But he doesn't know how brainless he sounds when he's doing that. For example, he icqed me once to tell me his gf is studying in malaysia, in a very famous school. He claims that her school's standards is so high that it's like HCJC and RJC's combined. I didn't bother replying him, but I was wondering.."If it's THAT high, how come no one goes there from Singapore? And how come she doesn't despise you for your low IQ and intelligence? And why do their scholars come here instead of going there?" Lame. Then his pea brain must have told him that I'm probably feeling jealous (which I'm definitely not), that's why he went on sighing and telling me that he's not confident of his new rship blah blah blah ("Oei faggot, do I look like I give a damn? I pity ur gf though..hope she breaks free from this tragedy and curse soon..")

Back to the smses. He stopped msging me after a while. GOOD RIDDANCE.

I hope never to hear from him again. Bastards...I shouldn't give myself wrinkles cos of them..

Hey, you know what? Suddenly, I am wondering if anyone felt this urge of asking me to F-OFF eternally or in any way. I think there should be..lol. Eeeks..I'll be so hurt if I know that there's someone who wants me to F-OFF..and it's gonna hurt more if it's from those I love and truly care about. How heart-breaking.