Tired. Demoralised. Frustrated.

Feeling really suffocated.

And this urge in me to just scream it all out and let it all go.

I'm drained.

Looking at my schedule pisses me. I'm always on call, and apart from being in the hospital, I hardly have time for anything else.. I hardly even have time for myself!

Exams are coming. And on top of juggling with my endless calls, I've to find time to study. Am seriously wondering how am I ever gonna make it through. As much as I want to revise, my tired mind doesn't allow me to. Sometimes, brain blocks occur during my rounds, and I can't help but wonder if I'm even safe to carry on with the day. Yet somehow, I manage to get through it (with fear of course).

I need an exit, but I don't know where to find it. I feel so suffocated with my routined life, being unofficially restricted. I wish I can go somewhere and hide, be totally cut off from everyone, to sit down and sort out my thoughts.

I wish I can just say "Fuck off and leave me alone!"